Tom MacDonald - Hangman Lyrics






This a warnin' for the ones who say they aren't afraid
Lately I've been comin' from a darker place
I've been dealin' with depression, I'm more dangerous than ever
I've been drinkin' again and never felt better
I swear to God that I'ma burn a bridge and piss on the flames
Mix the acid with some whiskey and spit it all in they face
My new girl probably flip if you've got somethin' to say
She reminds me of myself when I would drink everyday
I used to feel like how I felt was just a temporary phase
But now I feel like the feelings are fuckin' feeding off fame
And I don't plan to slow down or give it a second to breathe
I push the pedal past the breaking point, I'm pickin' up speed

In 2016, swear I came apart at the seams
I was sacred of the dark and therefore afraid of my dreams
But I rebuilt what came apart with iron alloy and beams
Come fly a plane into my legs and I won't fall to my knees
Haven't taken any pills to calm me down for a month
I'm on the edge and I'm waiting for any reason to jump
Don't take it lightly, I'm excited when they throwin' a punch
I got a list of different strategies to bury these bums
Very rarely do I carry all the weight of a grudge
But I been barely ordinary since the prairies and drugs
My imaginary friends and camouflaged with some guns
And I've been fairly military but my army is one

They've been passive aggressive with how the deal with my message
They lack the passion and reckless nature of truthful expression
They ain't made of what I'm made from, they been bruised up and dented
They don't understand the underhanded ruthless obsession
That I was born with, slammed like the door sticks
Closet full of skeletons, so heavy couldn't move them with a forklift
Your bitch probably fell in love 'cause you forced it
Now she bump my records while you deep inside a porn bitch
I woke up with a buzzin' in my head
I don't wanna leave the comfort of my bed
A dozen missed calls from a dozen of my friends
And my day just started but it's comin' to an end

Already gettin' dark, wake up with the stars
I don't even know how I got home after I left the bar, yeah
I did eight months sober, and I hate that it's over
But the weight on my shoulder started breakin' my heart
I started out with one or two, and then I moved to three or four
And then I realized that I was back where I had been before
Ativan's gone missin' from the bottle
Tell my doctor they were stolen, but I know that they were swallowed
Everything I ever did was always done with open throttles
All the way or nothin', non-commitment is a broken promise
And I know that that's a problem in itself
But you're livin' or you're dyin' or you're cryin' out for help, yeah

It's been a week since I've felt like me
I've been starvin' but I just can't eat
I'm exhausted but I can't find sleep, it's been harder than it's ever been
The darkness hasn't ever dimmed, the light's so bleak
I never understood what they meant when they said they were just
The shadows of men that they had been before they were beat
Now I know that everything I heard was for real
When I'm lookin' in the mirror at a shell of myself
I think that stress is a contributing factor
The bein' 28 and feelin' older than dad does
The wrinkles on my face spreadin' faster and faster
If the good die young, I hope I'm one of the bad ones

The day's long, stay strong and try again tomorrow though
Even if you're runnin' out of reasons to ignore the phone
Even if you're runnin' out of gas, go and borrow more
Your demons knock the hardest when you finally chose to close the door
This not the way my parents raised me
I hope they realize they didn't fail one of their babies
This is the result of a declining social climate
That's original design was keepin' people trapped inside it
Liquor and violence, we suffer in silence
Until we embrace one another and find our collective defiance
We'll topple the giants, I just try to smile though the cryin'
'Cause I know that someone, somewhere's, feelin' way worse than I am

And that's true (that's true, that's true)





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  1. T.... ....

    Goddamn

  2. M.... M....

    Another Great Song

  3. M.... D....

    If tom ever responds idk ill eat a sandwich or some

  4. J.... R....

    Dude the devil (yall blind).game's

  5. M.... ....

    Is he wearing a bra?

  6. A.... A....

    they hate cuz they hate hearing the truth and will retaliate with useless words or highschool BS! people always talk till it comes time to walk. your haters are ur best ally, cuz they wont fake or lie to you n say what they mean...fkd up but shit I just smile n keep goin , I'd say the most effective reaction really piss em off ha!

  7. K.... K....

    Made me think ...


    the “red bandana man” 9/11 from en.m.wikipedia.org
    Welles Remy Crowther (May 17, 1977 – September 11, 2001) was an American ... When Welles was six years old, his father gave him a red bandana that would become Crowther's ... (read the story worth checking out people)

    He said if you can stand, stand. If you can help others do so now.


    “If you can help others, do so." He directed this group downstairs as well. As occupants of the Tower headed for the street, Crowther returned up the stairs to help others.

    Reportedly saving 17 others as he returned into the catastrophe of the collapse.

  8. G.... G....

    What a growth in a few years, with nothing but talent and hard work... this is a masterpiece.

  9. K.... E....

    You are appreciated. You're music tells a story similar to mine and feel you. You have talent that is unfound in most "rappers". I wish u infinite success and happiness in all your endeavors.

  10. 4.... 1....

    Still my favorite

  11. J.... G....

    Definitely my new favorite fucking artist🤘🏻🔥@Tom Macdonald it's gotten to the point where I'd rather listen to your songs over and over and over again than listen to some of my lifelong favorite artists and that's including rap, country, and heavy metal. Tom you're a fucking legend dude, I've had a complete attitude change since I discovered your music a little over a month ago🤘🏻🤘🏻

  12. M.... J....

    this man has bars coming for life!

  13. A.... ....

    This song is where Tom changed it up for good

  14. M.... F....

    Army one here...rocking it bro!

  15. A.... S....

    Deep Af 💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯

  16. A.... 6....

    Every damn song has such a powerful message. This guy has single handedly opened so many eyes, gave hope to so many lost souls. Forever real. I’ll admit I slept on him because of his look, I kick myself daily for being so stupid because this man is my new favorite artist hands down.

  17. H.... V....

    We Are H.P. Vikin Bulldog Patriots... ✌...

  18. B.... S....

    you turned me into a rap fan no one was ever able to do this !

  19. B.... H....

    Probably fell in love cuz you forcedd it

  20. J.... L....

    Beat..fire...lyrics..fire...tom McDonald, hardest out !

  21. M.... M....

    Why did he keep looking up?

  22. D.... A....

    Listening to this I had my Tarot cards read months ago.... why is he literally depicted my life so god damn hard 😭😭😭😭😭 I got the hangman card over and over and over even the Ativan part fuck.

  23. G.... H....

    i have tinnitus too.. its a call for those of us who have it to spread their truth.

  24. U.... P....

    Can you say fire, fuck Eminem, Tom Macdonald has me covered for rap, bars for years😂

  25. A.... H....

    Tom, my high school English teacher had us analyze am eminem rap, because his wordplay is poetic and genius. I feel you are on that level. That man is a rap God and if not already you're in your way to it. Never stop. You got me through the hardest part if my life. My kids still have their mom because of you. Keep doing you. We love you.

  26. D.... A....

    Holy $#@& this is so f$%#@ing amazing good job tom!🤯🤬🥰😍😎

  27. J.... R....

    Fingers crossed that holding each other in honour will make us stronger... numbers. Numb-eras? Politics are incorrect. The big brother watching beats at the door... giants... feet of clay... and so spectacular in their compensation.

    This flow creates a chaos in this mind... thanks.

  28. S.... ....

    God Damn!!

  29. D.... S....

    Fuck everyone I don't need anyone so miss me when I'm gone

  30. D.... P....

    Absolutely love it

  31. B.... ....

    Wow, this pierces through my subconscious and touches my soul 🔥 don't stop speaking the truth! 🙌

  32. K.... B....

    Bro u got so much good music dam..

  33. I.... L....

    Eye love you

  34. C.... N....

    I love your music

  35. l.... e....

    I love this, the attitude, the truth, the word play.... just yes

  36. w.... m....

    What rap needs = Tom Macdonald

  37. N.... K....

    I've commented on other videos of his. They are fire and he is my hero, he inspires me to be who I am. I don't wanna be tom. I wanna be me on his level of passion. I wonder. Does the effect his music have on people in any manner affect him. Or what,

  38. B.... C....

    Just damn...

  39. A.... W....

    It's Nice to hear someone using their brain.
    No Matter how Rough it can get
    Bi-Poler can be a MOTHER!!!
    guess what?
    Everyone is Bi-Poler to a certain degree.
    FIND WHAT MAKES U HAPPY!!
    What ANYBODY THINKS OF U,
    IS NON OF YOUR BUSINESS.
    U wanna see some funny stuff,
    after "they" r done, smile, take a few beats. & POLITELY say this
    "If ur trying to insult me, ur doing a Very Good Job!!" smile again,& watch the show.....
    the only one who can insult u is u. Why would u do that? because someone when u were a wee one, didn't like THEMSELVES very much. Had NOTHING to do w/u
    after 60 yrs u pick up a few tid bits here & there.
    my brother told me to say that to folks who saw me get out of my chair & walk a bit. SO HAPPY I AM ME. Silly me thought...it's a Good thing to be able to do, SILLY HUMAN RACE🎶( who sang those words in a song?)
    silly human, SILLY HUMAN race!!!
    not no but.......YES
    I'm a 60yr old Hippie going on 4.
    CAUSE IT'S SOOOOO MUCH FUN!!!
    and I can.LAUGHING ALL DAY, w/out acid, or the crash.
    GREAT MUSICIAN!!!!
    I happen to like the truth. kinda Refreshing.
    besides, it's IMPOSSIBLE for anyone to insult you.know why??
    it's an INSIDE JOB.....
    🌟✨💫💖💗💓✌on🌎

  40. A.... B....

    Addictions are hard. There is a way out. Be you and stay true and love yourself in all ways and stay determined. I believe in you.

  41. M.... C....

    💯Barz boy‼

  42. d.... h....

    Doctor *watchs first minute* cut back adavan dose. Watchs rest of video. UP ADAVAN DOSE 😍

  43. T.... ....

    "Your demons knock the hardest when you finally chose to close the door."
    That hit right in the feels

  44. T.... S....

    Thank you TOM 144 000 full throttle

  45. a.... ....

    this dudes one of the best

  46. l.... d....

    you an army of 2. from a brotha down under

  47. M.... E....

    release a YouTube album my g.

  48. w.... 9....

    Running out of excuses for not answering the phone. Wow.
    When is your birthday ? @TomMacdonald ?

  49. r.... m....

    Damn man your lyrics are off the hook! You are one in million. Keep it up bro👌🏼👌🏼

  50. J.... P....

    Honestly this one has to be my favorite by you after i gave it some more thought so great work.

  51. A.... S....

    Holy shit!!! This is fucking fire!!!

  52. K.... ....

    that is true .,..

  53. E.... h....

    I know he means every word he utters. ✌👌❤

  54. o.... T....

    o fuck i love him <3

  55. F.... W....

    When do you go perform in Europe like in the Netherlands

  56. S.... S....

    dude....you and eminem on a track with joyner lucas would fucking OBLITERATE the internet! then a bonus freestyle with you,eminem,yelawolf,joyner lucas and hopsin would absolutly check a mic!

  57. S.... S....

    this why my top 3 is:
    1.EMINEM
    2.JOYNER LUCAS
    3.TOM MCDONALD

  58. R.... ....

    FIND OUR COLLECTIVE DEFIANCE, WE 'LL TOPPLE THE GIANTS!

  59. Z.... R....

    I apologize i slept on your name for so long. I'ma spread you like manure bro

  60. Z.... R....

    where the crap you been all my life.. like foreal

    Z.... R....

    Never too late for great music! If you consider his very real message and personality, it seems there are not many out there that match Tom's greatness! Let's be more in the years to come! Love and Enlightenment to you all!

  61. M.... q....

    Tom McDonald I wonder are you fa real if not fuck you my name is Mitchell neal I'm not tryna diss you u would murder me lyrically I just want you to no clearly I understand I'm in that dark hole eating my own soul in the darkness no light where do I go I really dont care tho I've found no one to match my curiosity of why the government fucking me and sticking it to you I have to work 62 years blood sweat and my tears and they repay with the news installing it in youth I feel like a sociopath do I need a fucking group when I drive my car I have 5 different forms of Id licences vin number registration licsence plate and tag these ivy league fags been robbing our dads and been handed down to us we gonna tell and just cuss I'd tell u what I'd do if I had the cash I'd turn this system around and stick it their ass and like a shotgun I'd blast put em 100 years in the past take the inner city that's shut and star a bad ass committee yeah fuck em that's all I got I been drinking so I forgot I didn't even write this shit a waste of my time prolly so I'm out this bitch

  62. S.... B....

    fuckin a kids dope

  63. D.... ....

    💚💙💚

  64. B.... V....

    Wow.. I'm canadian, when I was living on Vancouver island I was in a deep depression... had to move. Now in toronto.

  65. P.... ....

    anybody know the name of the beat used? i know by superstar beats, but the title?

  66. M.... R....

    Damn, what a wordsmith. And, I can hear the words. Nice

  67. T.... M....

    I know you’ll never see this, and that it probably doesn’t mean shit to you. But when I listen to your music, or your spoken words, if feel like I’m not alone. I feel like there’s someone who gets it, someone who’s willing to support me even at my worst. So thanks for doing what you do, just know that you’ve saved a life.

  68. S.... 8....

    🤟🔥!

  69. C.... P....

    You, NF, Crypt and Hopsin are the reason why I write music. But you Tom you gave me fucking confidance to not give a fuck

  70. C.... C....

    This a warnin' for the ones who say they aren't afraid
    Lately I've been comin' from a darker place
    I've been dealin' with depression, I'm more dangerous than ever
    I've been drinkin' again and never felt better
    I swear to God that I'ma burn a bridge and piss on the flames
    Mix the ash with some whiskey and spit it all in they face
    My new girl probably flip if you've got somethin' to say
    She reminds me of myself when I would drink everyday
    I used to feel like how I felt was just a temporary phase
    But now I feel like the feelings are fuckin' feeding off fame
    And I don't plan to slow down or give it a second to breathe
    I push the pedal past the breaking point, I'm pickin' up speed

    [Verse 2]
    In 2016, swear I came apart at the seams
    I was scared of the dark and therefore afraid of my dreams
    But I rebuilt what came apart with iron alloy and beams
    Come fly a plane into my legs and I won't fall to my knees
    Haven't taken any pills to calm me down for a month
    I'm on the edge and I'm waiting for any reason to jump
    Don't take it lightly, I'm excited when they throwin' a punch
    I got a list of different strategies to bury these bums
    Very rarely do I carry all the weight of a grudge
    But I been barely ordinary since the prairies and drugs
    My imaginary friends in camouflage with some guns
    And I've been fairly military but my army is one
    [Verse 3]
    They've been passive aggressive with how the deal with my message
    They lack the passion and reckless nature of truthful expression
    They ain't made of what I'm made from, they been bruised up and dented
    They don't understand the underhanded ruthless obsession
    That I was born with, slammed like the door sticks
    Closet full of skeletons, so heavy couldn't move them with a forklift
    Your bitch probably fell in love 'cause you forced it
    Now she bump my records while you deep inside a porn binge
    I woke up with a buzzin' in my head
    I don't wanna leave the comfort of my bed
    A dozen missed calls from a dozen of my friends
    And my day just started but it's comin' to an end

    [Verse 4]
    Already gettin' dark, wake up with the stars
    I don't even know how I got home after I left the bar, yeah
    I did eight months sober, and I hate that it's over
    But the weight on my shoulder started breakin' my heart
    I started out with one or two, and then I moved to three or four
    And then I realized that I was back where I had been before
    Ativan's gone missin' from the bottle
    Tell my doctor they were stolen, but I know that they were swallowed
    Everything I ever did was always done with open throttles
    All the way or nothin', non-commitment is a broken promise
    And I know that that's a problem in itself
    But you're livin' or you're dyin' or you're cryin' out for help, yeah
    [Verse 5]
    It's been a week since I've felt like me
    I've been starvin' but I just can't eat
    I'm exhausted but I can't find sleep, it's been harder than it's ever been
    The darkness hasn't ever dimmed, the light's so bleak
    I never understood what they meant when they said they were just
    The shadows of men that they had been before they were beat
    Now I know that everything I heard was for real
    When I'm lookin' in the mirror at a shell of myself
    I think that stress is a contributing factor
    The bein' 28 and feelin' older than dad does
    The wrinkles on my face spreadin' faster and faster
    If the good die young, I hope I'm one of the bad ones

    [Verse 6]
    The day's long, stay strong and try again tomorrow though
    Even if you're runnin' out of reasons to ignore the phone
    Even if you're runnin' out of gas, go and borrow more
    Your demons knock the hardest when you finally chose to close the door
    This not the way my parents raised me
    I hope they realize they didn't fail one of their babies
    This is the result of a declining social climate
    That's original design was keepin' people trapped inside it
    Liquor and violence, we suffer in silence
    Until we embrace one another and find our collective defiance
    Will topple the giants, I just try to smile though the cryin'
    'Cause I know that someone, somewhere's, feelin' way worse than I am

  71. T.... C....

    This song is what's kept me alive

  72. J.... P....

    Just to give you something to think about with 9/11 and you'r metaphor. When the towers collapsed alot of people failed to understand how it happened, the reality of it is once the planes aluminum chasis was liquified with jet fuel it turned the twin towers into a kilm raising in temperature till the melting point of steel or iron alloy beams maybe, then motlen aluminum contacted with the sprinkler systems on the lower floors which were already flooded. Molten aluminum is extremely exlposive in this situation. If you were comparing you'r self in this way please concider this concept and apply it to you'r self in someway gueninely curious how you would put it.

  73. G.... W....

    The white version of k rino 😎😎😎😎

  74. R.... K....

    Man i listen to this shit every morning

  75. C.... W....

    2019 and this song still hard af

  76. D.... E....

    to bad the world is nothing but shit.

  77. S.... R....

    eminem if your reading this you need to collaborate

  78. G.... ....

    Hands down still my favourite from all of Tom's songs! This song speaks to me

  79. 4.... 1....

    Everytime I hear this song it brings me to places in my mind I need to deal with and I fucking love it......

  80. D.... T....

    Fuck me it's like my mind is raping. Trust me Tom you ain't alone it's just that the haters shout louder because they are the scared ones.

  81. S.... D....

    We all struggling ! I am getting older and it really sucks but i love your messages ! Blessings and i hope you have a VERY HAPPY LIFE !

  82. T.... ....

    Fuckin killin it tom damn bro YO EMINEM CHECK IT OUT

  83. C.... l....

    I can relate so much to this lyrical genius it's ridiculous. Never stop being you brother

  84. J.... S....

    I use to write poems to let the stress out...somewhere along the way I started drinking and now that Ive stopped the shit is building up. I turn to music lately to release whats inside... Im so glad I found u, its everything I could ever want to say and its sad to say I lost my way. Im looking to ur songs for revival...soul survival cuz now Im feeling it. Thanks Tom for being u n making ur music known... I appreciate u.

  85. W.... B....

    kinda funny going farther and farther back on his vids and seeing him with less and less face tats

  86. S.... S....

    Each song has really good message and a little bit of him self

  87. T.... V....

    Where are you tom its been over a month. Your fans are missin ya

  88. O.... D....

    this is siiickkkkk brooo. damn.. thank god that you exist Tom!!!!keep it up

  89. L.... G....

    I need you to come back to this artist. Straight white Male is okay. I need bangers like this my man. Deep shit. Uncomfortable shit. Shit that you can bang weight to in the gym.

  90. R.... E....

    Look bro I haven't listened to another artist since I've found you. Not in some creepy way man, I see potential. I get your message, you preach points I've tried to prove my whole life. Besides that, your music, not even what it is about, your pure rhythm, educated lyrics and natural gift to run bars harder than Eminem could. Don't be down on yourself, Eminem got nothing on you. Keep your head up man, keep making history.

  91. D.... ....

    This a warnin' for the ones who say they aren't afraid
    Lately I've been comin' from a darker place
    I've been dealin' with depression, I'm more dangerous than ever
    I've been drinkin' again and never felt better
    I swear to God that I'ma burn a bridge and piss on the flames
    Mix the acid with some whiskey and spit it all in they face
    My new girl probably flip if you've got somethin' to say
    She reminds me of myself when I would drink everyday
    I used to feel like how I felt was just a temporary phase
    But now I feel like the feelings are fuckin' feeding off fame
    And I don't plan to slow down or give it a second to breathe
    I push the pedal past the breaking point, I'm pickin' up speed

    In 2016, swear I came apart at the seams
    I was sacred of the dark and therefore afraid of my dreams
    But I rebuilt what came apart with iron alloy and beams
    Come fly a plane into my legs and I won't fall to my knees
    Haven't taken any pills to calm me down for a month
    I'm on the edge and I'm waiting for any reason to jump
    Don't take it lightly, I'm excited when they throwin' a punch
    I got a list of different strategies to bury these bums
    Very rarely do I carry all the weight of a grudge
    But I been barely ordinary since the prairies and drugs
    My imaginary friends and camouflaged with some guns
    And I've been fairly military but my army is one

    They've been passive aggressive with how the deal with my message
    They lack the passion and reckless nature of truthful expression
    They ain't made of what I'm made from, they been bruised up and dented
    They don't understand the underhanded ruthless obsession
    That I was born with, slammed like the door sticks
    Closet full of skeletons, so heavy couldn't move them with a forklift
    Your bitch probably fell in love 'cause you forced it
    Now she bump my records while you deep inside a porn bitch
    I woke up with a buzzin' in my head
    I don't wanna leave the comfort of my bed
    A dozen missed calls from a dozen of my friends
    And my day just started but it's comin' to an end

    Already gettin' dark, wake up with the stars
    I don't even know how I got home after I left the bar, yeah
    I did eight months sober, and I hate that it's over
    But the weight on my shoulder started breakin' my heart
    I started out with one or two, and then I moved to three or four
    And then I realized that I was back where I had been before
    Ativan's gone missin' from the bottle
    Tell my doctor they were stolen, but I know that they were swallowed
    Everything I ever did was always done with open throttles
    All the way or nothin', non-commitment is a broken promise
    And I know that that's a problem in itself
    But you're livin' or you're dyin' or you're cryin' out for help, yeah

    It's been a week since I've felt like me
    I've been starvin' but I just can't eat
    I'm exhausted but I can't find sleep, it's been harder than it's ever been
    The darkness hasn't ever dimmed, the light's so bleak
    I never understood what they meant when they said they were just
    The shadows of men that they had been before they were beat
    Now I know that everything I heard was for real
    When I'm lookin' in the mirror at a shell of myself
    I think that stress is a contributing factor
    The bein' 28 and feelin' older than dad does
    The wrinkles on my face spreadin' faster and faster
    If the good die young, I hope I'm one of the bad ones

    The day's long, stay strong and try again tomorrow though
    Even if you're runnin' out of reasons to ignore the phone
    Even if you're runnin' out of gas, go and borrow more
    Your demons knock the hardest when you finally chose to close the door
    This not the way my parents raised me
    I hope they realize they didn't fail one of their babies
    This is the result of a declining social climate
    That's original design was keepin' people trapped inside it
    Liquor and violence, we suffer in silence
    Until we embrace one another and find our collective defiance
    We'll topple the giants, I just try to smile though the cryin'
    'Cause I know that someone, somewhere's, feelin' way worse than I am

    And that's true (that's true, that's true)

  92. S.... ....

    This a warnin' for the ones who say they aren't afraid
    Lately I've been comin' from a darker place
    I've been dealin' with depression, I'm more dangerous than ever
    I've been drinkin' again and never felt better
    I swear to God that I'ma burn a bridge and piss on the flames
    Mix the acid with some whiskey and spit it all in they face
    My new girl probably flip if you've got somethin' to say
    She reminds me of myself when I would drink everyday
    I used to feel like how I felt was just a temporary phase
    But now I feel like the feelings are fuckin' feeding off fame
    And I don't plan to slow down or give it a second to breathe
    I push the pedal past the breaking point, I'm pickin' up speed

    In 2016, swear I came apart at the seams
    I was sacred of the dark and therefore afraid of my dreams
    But I rebuilt what came apart with iron alloy and beams
    Come fly a plane into my legs and I won't fall to my knees
    Haven't taken any pills to calm me down for a month
    I'm on the edge and I'm waiting for any reason to jump
    Don't take it lightly, I'm excited when they throwin' a punch
    I got a list of different strategies to bury these bums
    Very rarely do I carry all the weight of a grudge
    But I been barely ordinary since the prairies and drugs
    My imaginary friends and camouflaged with some guns
    And I've been fairly military but my army is one

    They've been passive aggressive with how the deal with my message
    They lack the passion and reckless nature of truthful expression
    They ain't made of what I'm made from, they been bruised up and dented
    They don't understand the underhanded ruthless obsession
    That I was born with, slammed like the door sticks
    Closet full of skeletons, so heavy couldn't move them with a forklift
    Your bitch probably fell in love 'cause you forced it
    Now she bump my records while you deep inside a porn bitch
    I woke up with a buzzin' in my head
    I don't wanna leave the comfort of my bed
    A dozen missed calls from a dozen of my friends
    And my day just started but it's comin' to an end

    Already gettin' dark, wake up with the stars
    I don't even know how I got home after I left the bar, yeah
    I did eight months sober, and I hate that it's over
    But the weight on my shoulder started breakin' my heart
    I started out with one or two, and then I moved to three or four
    And then I realized that I was back where I had been before
    Ativan's gone missin' from the bottle
    Tell my doctor they were stolen, but I know that they were swallowed
    Everything I ever did was always done with open throttles
    All the way or nothin', non-commitment is a broken promise
    And I know that that's a problem in itself
    But you're livin' or you're dyin' or you're cryin' out for help, yeah

    It's been a week since I've felt like me
    I've been starvin' but I just can't eat
    I'm exhausted but I can't find sleep, it's been harder than it's ever been
    The darkness hasn't ever dimmed, the light's so bleak
    I never understood what they meant when they said they were just
    The shadows of men that they had been before they were beat
    Now I know that everything I heard was for real
    When I'm lookin' in the mirror at a shell of myself
    I think that stress is a contributing factor
    The bein' 28 and feelin' older than dad does
    The wrinkles on my face spreadin' faster and faster
    If the good die young, I hope I'm one of the bad ones

    The day's long, stay strong and try again tomorrow though
    Even if you're runnin' out of reasons to ignore the phone
    Even if you're runnin' out of gas, go and borrow more
    Your demons knock the hardest when you finally chose to close the door
    This not the way my parents raised me
    I hope they realize they didn't fail one of their babies
    This is the result of a declining social climate
    That's original design was keepin' people trapped inside it
    Liquor and violence, we suffer in silence
    Until we embrace one another and find our collective defiance
    We'll topple the giants, I just try to smile though the cryin'
    'Cause I know that someone, somewhere's, feelin' way worse than I am

    And that's true (that's true, that's true)

  93. M.... B....

    Toms first 🔥