Superchick - Beauty From Pain Lyrics






The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive but I feel like I've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away

After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

Here I am at the end of me (at the end of me)
Tryin' to hold to what I can't see (to what I can't see)
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to Your promise
There will be a dawn

After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain





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  1. T.... K....

    Feb.2/2020 sunday monring help me jesus too have peace . T.k

  2. A.... A....

    Oh wow! I needed that. Thank you.

  3. G.... G....

    No, it's not the end. I felt like it was but really. The beauty does happen! After a heavy storm flowers and plants grow. It's the same with us! Jesus died for all of us and rose three days later. He is the son of God that died for YOU! You are not alone! He wants you when no one else does. He is there for you when no one else is. He cares for you when no one else will. Come to him. Confess with your lips and heart that he died for you on the cross for your sins and is the son of God who rose three days later. Because he will take all of your burdens! Call upon his name, say Jesus my savior! Jesus OUR savior! ✝️💜

  4. A.... D....

    In Jesus name may y’all be healed 🙏

  5. L.... D....

    2020 and still listening to this song at 18 yrs of age. ):

  6. N.... S....

    2020 and introducing this to my own daughter....song got me through some really tough times

  7. m.... l....

    Oh god no..this is me..this song put everything in word for me. Such pain i suffered at the hands of someone i wanted to love. But the song also has a vibe of renewal.. it didnt distroy me..i survived.

  8. n.... o....

    I love this song because im alone , im not friends and my dream a become a nurse i dont like an i have deppression for this but the time i feeling ok because im fine alone and i missing my new dream , i speack spanish

  9. m.... ....

    When I was 16 and hiding a pregnancy, not sure how I would ever make it through... Here I am 24 and happily married. This song still helps through new hard times, that God will yet again bring me through..

  10. K.... C....

    I've cut a lot since I was 14. I'm 27 now. I went without cutting for 5 full months in a row. But I've recently had relapse and cut 3 times. I'm scared of my depression.

  11. M.... M....

    11 years ago , wtf

  12. m.... R....

    My whole world is the pain inside me
    The best I can do is just get through the day. My Story What Yours.

  13. C.... L....

    Wahahahaha nice song thanks 😆 Are y'alls feeling good cuz I am. 😆

  14. C.... L....

    Wahahahaha. nice song , Why wonder what God's plan is ? I don't know cuz I can't predict but I'm sure God likes facts not lies and drama 😆

  15. k.... ....

    i’m not in the same mindset that i was in all those years ago but somehow this song brings the emotions back

  16. K.... ....

    It’s been about 6 years since I first discovered this song and it still perfectly describes how I feel. I no longer suffer from an eating disorder and what I thought was depression is actually Bipolar Disorder II. This is just my confession.

  17. R.... O....

    Makes me think of how felt after my ex sexually assaulted me.

    R.... O....

    I was also sexually abused, i hope you're doing alright. I know how horrible it is

    R.... O....

    @aydee peperoni sorry to hear that...it's awful. I still have lots of issues, nightmares. But I am working through it. Hope that your as ok as you can be. 🤗

    R.... O....

    @Ruger Old Army Girl same. I still keep having nightmares and everytime i remember something about that day, i just cry. I was so young and scared, i should have yelled for help but i didn't. I wanted to, my heart was yelling, but i wasn't. I thought no one would ever believe me, if i screamed "help please, im scared", hell, i still think no one would. So even if i went back to time, i would make the same mistake over and over again.
    Even if so, i have kind of learned to control my emotions. It sometimes happens that i remember it in the bus or something, and i start crying and crying. It feels so horrible to the point where i just want to end my pain, because it hurts, and a very very lot. Sorry for the long reply btw, its just that i haven't told this to anyone in my life yet and i wanted to get it off my chest

    R.... O....

    @aydee peperoni I'm so sorry hon. I understand that fear though, it happen to me back in 2010 I didn't tell anyone till 2017. I have a tough girl rep, I shoot guns, Iv always appeared fearless to my niece's etc......but when it happened I froze up, I wanted to fight back, I wanted to scream help, I wanted to tear his balls off. .but I was frozen I couldn't move! What's worse he played mind games with me made me afraid to tell anyone. It happened three more times over the course of a year.....one time I broke from my frozen state he slammed my head into bed of his truck so hard I now have nerve damage in my neck and head. I was embarrassed, scared, I didn't know wtf to do. Wasn't till the night he suggested we should get married that I finally stood up to him and got away from his sorry ass.

    Believe me if I could stop this from happening to people , and take the fear and the pain away from those whom were abused , raped etc I would. Glad you were able to open up about your experience. "Hugs" takes alot of strength to do so. I hope your seeing a rape therapists to help you work through this. 🖤🖤🖤

    R.... O....

    @Ruger Old Army Girl yeah i also look like im strong. Im always alone (i enjoy being with myself), i always study for a future, and my closest friends haven't seen me cry for years. But truth is, im not. Im not strong, i am weak to my emotions. Im not brave, if i was i might not be suffering so much. And im not really happy with being alone, i like silence but i also like being with people who make me happy and matter to me.
    I also understand what its like that feeling of "freezing", my whole life i was told to do something and what to do if something like that ever happened, but when it did, i was confused, scared, and angry at myself for not understanding. Because deep down i knew it was WRONG, and i knew (still do) that my mind plays those games with my mind, telling me that "no one will ever believe you", yet...
    Also, sorry to hear that. What happened to me was only once, and that was enough to make me cry every week under the blankets, just waiting to wake up from this nightmare, but yours was more times. I cant imagine how bad it was, and im glad atleast you were able to tell it to someone who you know. You are truly strong and brave, to stand up for yourself, and I hope that maybe one day i become just like you! :)

  18. N.... d....

    It's much inspirational quotes

  19. N.... d....

    Like it Heartly nice lyrics

  20. B.... ....

    Age 25: I still puke my food up, slice my skin, drink to unconsciousness and try to jump off a bridge twice every year. Nothing has improved over the last 12 years. I just want to die. My best friend committed suicide this monday, I want to join him...

    B.... ....

    BridgeToNowhere1994 stay for me

  21. J.... S....

    Música triste mesmo KKK mas o texto e uma bosta kk

  22. M.... R....

    For ppl in physical, emotional and mental pain.

  23. s.... ....

    My sweet baby died and I gave birth to him at 17 weeks. I was amazed at how perfectly formed he was as I held his tiny body. This song has been on my heart for the past week and I finally listened to it again. It hurts so much... But I know The Most High God will bring beauty from my pain. All praise to Him, anyhow. 💔

  24. E.... L....

    Crazy how I’m 31 now. Listened to the song in my early teens. Depressed and attempting. Listening to the song now bring back all the memories. But also let’s me see how far I’ve come.

  25. �.... d....

    pro ana memories... 11 years after I'm still in this shit.

  26. D.... B....

    Life is a labyrinth of events....

  27. E.... J....

    One day I will get better. I just need time.. recovery is hard.. but I am worth it. My life is worth it. And one day I will really smile and believe it.

  28. A.... P....

    the longest I have been clean is 1 day. I just want to be skinny.

  29. S.... D....

    Sometimes I feel like my old self needs to die so I can ride from my ashes and have a beautiful life

  30. �.... l....

    I remember listening to this on my ds in 2nd grade. That day I changed myself and became the real me this song saved me and im glad i found it

  31. L.... C....

    Jesus heals

  32. B.... W....

    I'm writing that book. I'm going to expose you.

  33. T.... C....

    Too my Soulmate Carla. I'll always gonna love you, even tho we hadnt had the chance to let our love shine. Its more i could ever wished for. And one day we will have our time. - Cyros

  34. g.... ....

    If america made anime I feel like this would be the ending to a really emotional action show

  35. V.... a....

    It scares me how many people are glamorizing serious mental and eating disorders in the comments... I know these comments are from years ago, but I truly do hope you all are in a better place and are on the road to recovery. Best of love to all of you.

  36. K.... L....

    Are using for our presentation 😚

  37. S.... E....

    We are all unique children of God.

  38. H.... L....

    This song has saved me time and again in my darkest times. Thank you superchick. I loved seeing you play live you are super friendly off stage too. Much love to you and yours. <3

  39. a.... k....

    I smile when I think of life without me. Noo I don’t want to die I just want the pain to stop. I hurt myself I try to kill my self. Cry and cry. Yell and yell. Hurt people over and over. Make mistakes too many times. Can’t be fix too broken too sad too angry. Noo one can protect me. God do you hear me. God why. Am I loved am I care for. I will die if I keep on going on like this. more than 5 years of suffering trying to end my life hurting self and others why me.

  40. N.... H....

    Crying to this right now, hoping nobody ever fucking feels like I do, ever again. I'm getting better I haven't cut. But there's so much fucking pain in me. I'll fight it. But my god I hope nobody feels this way ever again... All of you deserve more..

  41. l.... a....

    "After all this has passed i still will remain after i cried my last there will be beauty from pain."

    Even after all these years i'm still and will always be haunted

  42. J.... ....

    2019 and I still cant stop singing it.

  43. V.... I....

    After losing 13 years of my life in prison, losing my mother to cervical cancer and my wife having a stillborn which is my firstborn child you might ask how I keep going on after so much pain. I have asked God what the reason for all of my these things in my life after all He promised to make beauty from my ashes and he also promises to turn everything that the enemy meant for bad and use to destroy me for good and to glorify Him. God may not wish for us to have to go through the pain we often times do go through but often times he needs someone who has gone through something to reach others who have gone through something similar. Jesus Christ is the only spiritual leader who has promised me eternal life and with that is the hope of seeing both my mother and my baby boy along with other realitives I never had the chance to meet upon his return and so that is the hope I have and the hope I hold on to. Neither Muhammad, Gandi, Buda, nor any other major religious leader promised eternal life in heaven

  44. S.... M....

    Just had this song shared with me today from a friend who's going through her own shit, and myself going through my own. I shared with her Our Lady Peace's 4AM and she shared this masterpiece. "After all this has passed, I still will remain." Right in the feels man, right in the feels.

  45. S.... N....

    I can't believe I find myself here again. I'm only 20 years old and I've been depressed since I was a child, jumping from therapist to therapist, developed several eating disorders, Borderline personality disorder, my health issues keep increasing. On some days I'm in so much pain I can't leave the house. My parents hate me and have abandoned me. I stay because my best friend said he'd be disappointed in me if I killed myself. But God... does it ever get better?

  46. D.... Y....

    I’ve been listening to this song since I was 12, I still feel the same. Worthless,fat, and ugly. I’ve attempted suicide so many times to this song.
    I got help but I somehow always end up back in the dark

  47. M.... M....

    So beautiful and true !

  48. t.... s....

    i will be skinny.

  49. j.... j....

    I’ve got the name of this song tattooed on my leg as memory of what I went through

  50. F.... ....

    Fuck. Chronic. Pain.

  51. L.... T....

    A message to anyone wanting to die by suicide,

    I know you don't want to hear the: "don't do it, you have so much to live for" you're always told. Its true though, you have so much to live for. This feeling is not the end and it does get better. It has to get worse before it gets better. Your pain you rid yourself of by offing yourself goes to someone else. It doesnt just go away. Suicide is an awful thing and many people resort to it because they think they've nowhere else to go. That's not true. I was suicidal a couple of years ago and I've grown so much. It took me so much time to realize it's not worth it. If you are suicidal, keep your head up and don't drown in the depression.

  52. t.... n....

    perfect song for me

  53. K.... H....

    this songs really so underrated, its gorgeous

  54. I.... M....

    0:01 replay (thank me later)

  55. K.... Y....

    Vaya recuerdos de secundaria x alla como en 2009👍

  56. p.... b....

    still listening to this song 2019
    there will be beauty from pain.

  57. C.... ....

    I first listened to this song when I was 13. It was a song that I had a replay for a couple years. I completely forgot about this song and just rediscovered it at 23. 13 yo me was super depressed, cutting, and suicidal. I did not see the light at the end of the tunnel. I wish I could hug 13 yo me and tell her everything would be okay. I’m married now to a wonderful caring guy. I’m in school and working full time. For those of you feeling helpless and depressed, believe me, it gets better!

  58. z.... C....

    ....😭 I'm 25 years old and still surviving but I'm in pain but there will be beauty from this pain I been listening to this song since age 13 in half years love to the word may God bless everyone amen

  59. R.... L....

    I love how everyone is like "I played this when I was 13". It's seems like everyone was a dumb little fuck at 13

  60. M.... C....

    I remember listening to this when I was 12. I'm 20 now and still feel like this, I wonder if I'll grow out of it someday...

  61. C.... B....

    I'll never be normal again. Survived ana years ago but my period never came back and my hips are damaged from all that nonstop exercise, and I am only 19. I also lack that ability to get intimate with others in a genuine way. This song among others was what I listened to at the time. I still miss the thrill of it in the most twisted way possible sometimes.

  62. d.... p....

    age 11 - listening to this and not relating at all as to why this was so relatable

    age 12- actually relating so fucking hard to this song

    now, age 17- haven’t listened since i was 14/15, all these feelings hit me like a truck

  63. J.... B....

    I'm waiting for that day when life will be only a memory... because I'm so tired of it all. Beautiful song 😍😍

  64. V.... S....

    Everyone is talking about being 13 while I’m actually 13 :/

  65. C.... M....

    I'm praying for so many who have posted below. Give God your pain, sometimes it seems the pain won't end; I promise ask God to help you through it. I don't have the answers, but He does. Bless you all.

  66. R.... G....

    20.04.2019
    ___________________________________________________
    Боли ушедших времен становятся все "слаще", особенно с появлением новых болей - острее старых.
    Старые боли весьма ревнивые, потому что поднимают голову после того, как мы сдаемся новым болям: ведь в свое время, хоть кое-как, но все же нам удалось перетерпеть старые боли...
    __________________________________________________
    The pains of the past times are becoming "sweeter", especially with the advent of new pains - sharper than were the old ones.
    The old pains are very jealous, because they raise their heads after we surrender to the new pains: after all, in due time, at least somehow, we succeeded to endure the old pains...
    __________________________________________________
    Անցյալի ցավերը դառնում են ավելի "քաղցր", հատկապես նոր ցավերի առաջացման հետ, որոնք ավելի սուր են, քան հին ցավերը:
    Հին ցավերը շատ նախանձոտ են, քանի որ բարձրացնում են իրենց գլուխը այն բանից հետո, երբ մենք անձնատուր ենք լինում նոր ցավերին. նոր ցավերին. վերջիվերջո, ժամանակին, առնվազն ինչ-որ կերպ, մեզ հաջողվել էր դիմանալ հին ցավերին...
    _______________________________________________________

  67. K.... B....

    I'm doing quite well, just that this is such a wonderful song

  68. S.... A....

    Honestly I'm still waiting on that. I'm not in the same bad mental position I was in before but I still feel broken.

  69. C.... D....

    This song dedicated to My Mom she loss her life this Month of March 2019 her beauty will not fade way even though deal with a lot pain , She was devoted Mother and Woman of God she will missed never forgotten . She's with Adonai my Yeshua my Messiah , Until we will reunite in Paradise again Te Quiero Mucho Ma

  70. M.... C....

    There will be a dawn. Always will be.

  71. E.... R....

    Hey she's vgood

  72. M.... M....

    It's been 10 years since I would lay in my bed with this song on repeat and cry myself to sleep. It was all I could do to stay alive. There is so much hope in this song and I really do feel like it saved me. I'm happy now, I was blessed with a wonderful husband and two beautiful little boys. God really did bring beauty from my pain and I'm forever grateful.

  73. K.... B....

    I rescently twice tried to commit suicide.. was tired of going to my doctor and friends and pastor it takes a lot of me to do things in life I get through dancing and work now I have to not only get through these two things I have school/college to accomplish finish this semester.. hold on till spring break or even the end of semester please keep me in your thoughts

  74. F.... R....

    I was listening to this when I was 13 y/o. Today I’m 18 y/o and I stopped selfharm !

    F.... R....

    I'm proud of you! Keep it up. ❤️

  75. C.... T....

    This song has a healing cord along with every note. I am listening today with a broken heart. I gave my heart again to another man...and he damaged it. Sadly, I made this same mistake before. I do wonder why God let's me walk through this place. Here I am at the end of me...But, I believe in you Lord Jesus. Though I cannot see. I know my hope is diminished in this moment. My tears are many...but I cling to your promise, as I await your dawn. This pain will pass...and I will hope again. Thank you Superchick for this song...

  76. M.... M....

    I know this is meant to be a recovery song but i can't see it that way, i see it as the day im thin and perfect and i don't have to over exercise

  77. A.... S....

    Escuchi canciones q antes me hacian llorar y ahora no siento nada

  78. M.... T....

    This reminds me of my younger years. When I thought my life was completely falling apart. My fiancé, my friends, my home. Everything gone. The life I thought I wanted. He cheated on me with my best friend. I contemplated suicide. I moved away. Started again. Was reborn from the ashes. I now am a beautiful person with a good heart. I married a wonderful man and I have a great career that helps others. I’ve gained beauty from my pain.

    And I’m thankful for the journey, because my life now deserves to be appreciated and not to be taken for granted.

  79. S.... S....

    I remember many years ago listening to this song in the library. I was on the computer writing my suicide note. The librarian walked in on me crying and didn’t even bother to ask if I was okay.

    I was doing well for a few years but now I’m back to the dark place I was at, and it’s scary and sad. I’ve written many more suicide notes, tried it many times. Even had been to a mental ward for self harm and suicide, and damn life fucking sucks.

  80. B.... J....

    We all go through different struggles and trials in life. I sure have and maybe I cannot relate to what some of you have gone through or are going through but I can tell you, you have a savior that thinks you are beautiful. Perfect in His eyes. His name is Jesus! He promises good to those who love Him and He keeps His promises! I know there were times that what I was going through was so hard and made no sense to me. Why do I have to go through all this, I would ask of this God who claims to be so loving. As I learned to cling to Him in the midst of my pain, believing in His promise that He will never leave me and does have a plan for my life,  I was able to watch as He orchestrated the most beautiful things out of my pain. Put your trust in Him and allow Him to show you how amazing He is and how much easier life is when you don't walk through it without Him.  I pray that this touches you and gives you strength to cry out to Him. He is right there waiting and wants nothing more than to help you through whatever it is you are going through. It is never too late. You are never unworthy. He loves you with a love we cannot humanly comprehend. Don't try to understand it all. Just trust Him!  :)

  81. E.... J....

    Just wanted to say my peice a little bit here, and hopefully it helps some of you younger people.
    I was 12-15 when I used to listen to this song, i would cry and hurt myself.
    I'm 18 now, and I'm a lot better. Of course it took work, hospital appointments, medication, therapy, but I'm thankful for my life now, I just had to keep fighting even when I had no fight left, just taking one day at a time, breathing.
    There's still days when I get low, struggle, and I have a hosts of diagnosis's but they help me understand myself and get proper support.
    When people say "the pain doesn't last forever" I used to think yeah right, that's just what people say who don't hurt, don't struggle like me..
    You deserve life, you deserve love, and if you just hold on, the pain really doesn't last forever, coming from someone who DOES understand, I promise you ❤️

  82. D.... H....

    When my home got foreclosed and me and my mom had to be out into the streets, I began listening to this over and over and over again...

  83. J.... S....

    I’m ending my life once and for all

  84. A.... S....

    I salute to the singer of this song very emotional and beautiful song it is...

  85. F.... ....

    There won't be beauty from my pain.. It's chronic and severe and I will have it until the day I die

  86. M.... ....

    I've been suicidal lately, and day by day, I feel like I should just end it. But, only one person is holding me back from ending it. I feel so lost.

  87. L.... M....

    At age 10 she became suicidal and started self injuring.
    At age 11 she was sexually abused and developed an eating disorder.
    At age 12 her cuts became deeper and she started forming a plan to kill herself. She had panic attacks everyday.
    At age 13 she started counselling and it didnt really help.
    At age 14 she started highschool and she cut every single day.
    Right before her 15th birthday she started therapy.
    At age 15 she is slowly becoming happier and beginning to see her worth.

  88. G.... G....

    When I was 13, I was really depressed and I almost commit suicide but something stopped me. I had a little hope left and now I’m turning 19 with an amazing boyfriend by my side. It’s insane, some days I feel like that but... everything will be alright!

    G.... G....

    Jesus stopped you my friend. He loves you come to him

  89. �.... ....

    no one really cares you know they just want to say comments where it makes them warm. The thing is, we know you just say those things inside you are laughing because you think you are helping me. But yes, I smile back because I want you to think good of yourself. You are, its me thats a problem I dont want you to see the girl I see in the mirror everyday. I want to see me as the girl I was. The girl I wanted to be. So when I smile, I need to see you smile back. Because inside, I am crying.

  90. R.... R....

    Couple of years later, I finally get to see the real meaning of the song.
    This is a song that speaks from the point of view of a person who suffers too much and who feels he can no longer live, but somehow has the hope that God can save that person from the horrible pain that is going through. I thought it was about someones depression and nothing more. I am happy because all I went through. I am happy because I suffer from Borderline personality disorder, but God never left me and taught how to keep going. Guys, if you are feeling down, please think about how beautiful you are, how worth and important you are. Do not believe any thoughts your minds keep telling you. I love you all♥

    R.... R....

    Jesus loves you

  91. S.... S....

    Right when i was thinking about starting drugs and buying boxcutters i was listening to sad music and looking for the broken glass shards i keep incase i decide to cut i started hearing christain music with sadness and hope i think about all the times i wanted to die attempted suicide and i used to not see gods healing bc the devil was winning over me clouding me with hoplessness and chains i used to be addicted to cutting and wanted to stop and i helped myself but i would still be sad thinking life is the same everyday im tired of it or i feel like a ghost or im tired of crying or tired of feeling numb or feeling like a slave to sin or guilt or believing i was a mistake but when i went to this church camp they taught me ur not a slave to pain mistakes sin ur not negative things people say about u there is hope in ur dark mind in this dark world jesus will be ur light jesus will restore ur heart this is only a test god will guide u with light why satin will try to blind u with sin surrow hopelessness i love sanctuaries churches god jesus im happy with them im sad when i let sins and hateful names and depression blind me
    Ik god is real i felt him in my heart i felt him heal me hes worked in my life
    I hope i choose the right path with god
    And that i dont fall and loose god i hope i will go to heaven cuz life is already hell i dont want to be hurt anymore sometimes i feel like god might not take me to heaven i feel like im gonna fall and go to hell im struggling between positivity and negativity

  92. �.... ....

    This kinda reminds me of my shitty past... being 12 and 13 and hating my life and wanting to die.... feeling like I wasn’t pretty or loved enough.... or good enough. I was obsessed with a guy older than me at the time, and I felt like he didn’t feel the same :( and so much more. Gosh, this really brings back memories.

  93. P.... ....

    I got a disease that is is going to limit my life. I'm sad knowing I won't be there for my best friend at her wedding or my parent new found love or this video. I just wish it goes slowly.

  94. P.... G....

    Lots of edgy little shits here.

  95. L.... M....

    That song is so beautiful and sad at the same time Suoercut 😍😍😍😍😍😎😉

  96. A.... S....

    For some reason this seems like a song about a depressed girl who went through a break up and that person was maybe their only source of happiness but that's just what the lyrics remind me of

  97. I.... k....

    I wanna here a boy sing this so badly. I feel like it would sound so good with male vocals and piano. Anybody else?

  98. T.... 1....

    2018, still a tune xx

  99. J.... C....

    Those times when the writer feels lost for words...
    For crying and writing, those lines become blurred...
    Up late, again, but my jaw in this lock.
    Sure enough, again, I see 1.11 on the clock.
    Sometimes I wanna scream, at the world, to just stop.
    Between the voice of wild dreams, and what pills I should pop.

    Sometimes I swear I’m strong, then wither like an autumn leaf.
    With all I bear, roads so long. Sometimes I jus’ pray for the wreath.
    Or I jus’ stare, maybe it’s all wrong. That I fear life, my drowning, but not death.
    Cry ‘tIl I lay bare, it’s all gone... my heart pounding, but barely a breath.

    Why, oh why? Do I have to feel like I’m gonna die.
    To taste a sweet, on which I could fly.
    Vibes on repeat. A fainter cry.
    With eyes from the street, I know, truly, the lie.
    The wise and the defeat, waving hello and goodbye.
    With my demons I meet, raving to their cello, but slowly die.

    Yeah, they know just where to place you, where no one will find.
    They know just how to embrace you, you question your fucking mind.
    They know a way to feed, that cuts right to the bone.
    Where bloodless you’ll bleed, that ‘just right’ alone...

    I look in the mirror, I question, what’s beauty?
    Life, trial and error. Introspection, of tax-less duty.
    So many times, I’d hear this song. When I was lost for words.
    When I could cry all night long, but the worst was unheard...

    Then I’d say, yeah, there must surely be a beauty from pain.
    Then I’d say, yeah, there must purely be my duty to stay sane...
    Heard it said, “You ain’t gotta be in jail, to be doing time”.
    Words from my bed, I buy my bail, in my late night rhymes.
    The pain in my head, the eyes and trail, as the clock at 2 chimes.

    Sometimes I swear, I almost see, the beauty, when I barely breathe.
    Right there, so lost I be. But truly, thankful for the breeze.
    Ain’t scared, in the cost I see. I truly sank full on my knees...

    Then I sing silently, “yo, that’s the beauty in all this pain”.
    Feel it cling, violently. Yo, it ain’t a cutie, going insane...
    But somehow in this song, I find myself caught.
    Thinking I am strong, some pride I should sport.
    Then feeling so wrong, like I’m lined up in court.

    Where that judge be slamming’, I give you life, go die, girl...
    I don’t budge, jus’ be jamming. I live, you knife. The “Goodbye, girl”.
    Pen slightly smudge, thoughts ramming. I give you life. The ‘should try’ girl.

    Got to this moment, now I’m blank. Before I wrote, had words beyond flowing.
    Maybe this moment, I should thank, that I can’t quote all that’s strong going... or wrong going...

    I touch upon it, but In me I know I can’t nail it.
    Such, I wanna quit.. But in me I grow, where I can’t fail it.
    Yeah, ain’t gotta be in jail to be doin’ time.
    Ain’t gotta be a criminal, to feel like a crime.
    Slowly dance, in the minimal, to the breeze, I wanna resign.
    In a trance, thoughts subliminal. Among calm leaves...shon the divine.
    As I glance...like my skin in all... I long by trees, eyes capped on a line:
    “I wonder why God let’s me walk through this place”?
    I lay under, jus’ nod, like I ain’t new to this place.
    Dances in thunder, paint how I grew in this place.
    Now I go wander... I stay ‘true’ in this place...
    When I feel like I’m under, I see all of ‘you’ in this place.

    There’s the beauty, I see so many in pain...
    Is when I truly...feel what I can’t explain.
    In moments I do see, to feel your lowest ain’t in vain.
    We all connect to be, a greater truth upon the earthly plane.

    My head...it’s killing me... Not even morphine can stop it.
    But I said, you ain’t killing me, I get endorphins when ‘I CAN stop it’.

    So I look around, the darkness, the sound. Got my feet firm on the ground.
    Though I wonder, how I wonder. Can I survive and stay sane.
    Maybe I need to forget to rhyme, just kinda get out of line....

    When I taste the sweet, I feel the pain.
    How fast my heart beats, the world wired to my brain....

    But, still, though I often scream in my self hate, silent is the beauty no words can explain...

    As I lay and hear the clock chiming three... I sip on a latte...and whisper....’There is beauty”... 🖤❤️🎧🌟🎶







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