Mini Thin - Breaking Down Lyrics

I said I wonder when it'll be my day
'Cause I'm not too far from breakin' down
All I've got are screams inside
But somehow they come out in a smile
And I'm wonderin' if I'll always feel this way, this way

The cross is heavy, what a burden
Am I crazy, Tyler Durdin
Don't get better, seem to worsen
I don't even know this person
In the mirror I hate my sight
Two more Oxy, sleep tonight
From fun to habit, gotta have it
Alcoholic and an addict
This is tragic need some magic
I'm insane my thoughts are static
Full throttle, hit the bottle
Pride and ego, date a model
Drunk as hell, stagger wobble
Eat them pills, gobble gobble
Shake off mornin' panic attack
Will I find my way back?
Needle in a haystack
Someone pass the "J" back
Numb the pain, all the time
Can't believe I wrote this rhyme
It's my secret, this is mine
I'm sick of jail and doin' time
On my knees, God take my life
Insanity cuts me like a knife
Ain't got the strength, to even fight
Can't take the pain, not tonight
I keep a smile, inside I crumble
Every way I turn, I stumble
I need you, but I hate you
I need some kind of breakthrough
I sit in tears can't take it now
I live in Hell I'm breakin' down!

I said I wonder when it'll be my day
'Cause I'm not too far from breakin' down
All I've got are screams inside
But somehow they come out in a smile
And I'm wonderin' if I'll always feel this way, this way

Wakin' up, my blood is itchin'
Scared to death, who is snitchin'?
I feel like hell, look at my health
It's sad, when you can't trust yourself
I pushed my Dad, and stole from mama
Entire life is made of drama
All pretend they ain't my friends
Empty funeral if this all wins
Trapped in a maze, shit I give up
Runnin' in place, feet are stuck
Things I've done, I'm so embarrassed
Pawned the things, that I most cherish
Search all day, for what I need
Who grow's up and dreams to be a fiend
My demeanor's mean, my eyes are green
I trade my soul, for one more bean
My friends are dyin' am I the sequel
After pills then comes the needle
So much stress the pills stop workin'
I'm always shakin' my bodies hurtin'
Can't forget I got to mention
Anger, anxiety, some depression
Delirium tremors, I can die!
Hallucinate with open eyes
30 pack every single night
I've given up, don't even fight
I make up lies like "I'm in school"
Lyin' to myself, who's the fool?
Before my daughter and Mini Thin
I heard a voice say. "Jason listen
I love you son and you are missed
My name is Jesus, remember this"

Maybe you have fallen down
And maybe you just took the long way home
But baby you could never love you, like me
And one day, this will fade away
In the mirror you'll see your smiling face
And standing next to you, will always be me, yeah me

If you end up prayin' I surrender
All the pain I can't remember
Shit, my bad, it's not my fault
I do the work, I trust results
Not my co-pilot ask which seats
Not why I put these phones on beats
If Mini can do this, so can you
First to verse 2002

Tell me about those nights, you stayed awake
Tell me about those days you hated me
Tell me how you'd rather die alone, than being stuck here with me
Then you're going to see things my way
You gave me so much room, that I can't breathe
Tell me about those nights, you stayed awake
Tell me about those days you hated me
Tell me how you'd rather die alone, than being stuck here with me
Then you're going to see things my way
You gave me so much room, that I can't breathe

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Mini Thin Breaking Down Comments
  1. Jeff Mullins

    Been listening to this the past 5yrs I been clean,Juss so I won't let myself go back to the old me,worked to hard,thank you for this song,where u at tho 🤷🏼‍♂️ we need more new new my dude

  2. Tyra Medeiros

    All I have are screams inside but they come out in smiles...🥀

  3. Theresa Wotring

    If you listen to the song and listen you will be able to understand people

  4. Sage1125

    A voice for those of us that are trapped, screaming in the silence.
    Thank you.

  5. Lu Lu

    I use do needle I use to do dope been clean 7 years I use smoke it to I been clean from smoken it been 1 year

  6. Nicole Baker

    It is a really good song I'm trying to get clean it been 3 weeks I listened to this song. It help so much

  7. Marcos SPKZJackson

    They loved it by the way.

  8. Marcos SPKZJackson

    Fam this goes hard. I just played it at the recovery center I work at.

  9. Tiffany McCain

    I remember before I tried cocaine/meth/herion,I asked someone what it was like. They said “it’s like a burst of energy, a rush that takes your breath, it’s the best feeling ever, idk how to explain it really” and they were right, but now if someone were to ever ask me what it’s like, I would tell them..
    ”Its like spending every single penny you ever had, on drugs.
    Its like going days without eating even though you were starving, but you needed dope more.
    Its like having to lie to every family and friend you had ever had.
    Its like waking up hating yourself from the shame and guilt.
    Its like going into withdrawals every 8 hours unless you had more dope to do. (And you usually didn’t)
    Its like never attending any family event because you were too high or too sick.
    Its like everyone eventually stopped inviting you to events. And even talking to you.
    It's like crying yourself to sleep every single night because your children got taken
    its like knowing you have one more chance to get better before your child gets adopted and still choosing that bag
    It's like asking other how your own blood child is doing
    It's watching everyone around you succeed and yet your crumbling
    Its like everything was on your drug dealers time. If they said five hours. You’ll wait five hours in a car.
    Its like stealing everything worth value for dope. No matter how sentimental it was to you, or someone else.
    Its like losing so much weight you can’t fit into any of your clothes.
    Its like losing everything you’ve ever owned in your entire life.
    Its like nobody believing a word you said, even if it was the truth.
    Its like being a prisoner inside your own head.
    Its like contemplating suicide every single day.
    Its like never being scared to die, because that’s what you wanted.
    Its like trying to shut your brain up for even five minutes. It was worth that little time of peace.
    Its like seeing your family cry for you to stop, only for you to leave and go get high. Because stopping wasn’t an option. It wasn’t possible.
    Its like you’d do absolutely anything for more. And you did.
    Its like everyone hating you no matter where you went, because they knew you were a drug addict.
    You'll miss out on your children an they'll be grown before you Know it.. You'd kill for your child and do any an everything for them yet you won't be able to get clean for them and we actually turn out to be the ones who hurt them the most..
    Its like overdosing and going to get high right after.
    Its like walking into rehab 100 pounds with the clothes on your back and being scared to death.
    Its like giving your ENTIRE LIFE AWAY..
    So if you’re ever curious like I was, please at least know the truth. CURIOSITY KILLED THE CAT, and it WILL KILL YOU TOO”
    #Repost This is for anyone fighting or still fighting this horrible battle.


  10. Ashley Bottoms

    Killed it dude love it

  11. Jess Campbell

    Still listen to this quite often.It helped me fight my addiction!!

  12. Clifford Evans

    I got clean off of meth,i did the drug to hide thepain

  13. Cody Johnson

    Clean and I'll tell u what thru the withdralls this song kept my head up so all my people battling addiction there is a brighter side just keep trying I'll make it I have faith in u ur speacial god makes his strongest soldiers recovering addicts to help those in need

  14. Life after Addiction Methadone 100mg

    I was on 100mgs of Methadone for 11½ years and did other drugs as well AND there was no way i was quitting on my own..Luckily i found ADVANCE Rapid Detox in Pontiac Michigan and they saved my life.....LITERALLY.. anyways this song i was listening to it right up to my procedure. They (ARD)put you under a light sleep and then u can go threw all your with- drawls while you sleep and you dont remember a thing!! you also can do the vivitrol shot (which it works). I been Opiate/Methadone free now for over 65 days and counting! Addiction Sucks and its a tuff life style
    but just know their is help. And with help you can beat it too, u just have to really wants it.
    Thank you for a great song..

  15. Lawrence Hudson

    Addiction is the hardest thing I've ever over come no one can truly know the power it has and the pain it causes unless they go through it. Oh and stay away from fentynal pills they are killers

  16. Paige Hutchison

    Imma be listening to this in 2029

  17. Stephanie Roll

    5 years sober from opanas. #wedorecover

  18. Craig Borelis

    Mini thin your music is all that..this song speaks of the truth 2012 I got clean off meth..I been clean ever is good..thank you lord

  19. Jeremiah Gilkey

    I'm still fighting the fight and battling My Demons hoping to win someday soon thanks for this song play it every day.

  20. Sierra Martiinii

    Realest shit ive heard for a lil min 🔥

  21. Clayton Glenn

    Why did God save me but not my best friend

  22. Brandy Beckel

    Mini Thin, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I sent this to my husband, who chose to go to rehab for 9 months. We aren't together, but I wanna support him as he fights this demon every day.

  23. Chris Queen

    I pray to God that he can help me before its to I was clean for a yr but to months ago the woman I would give my own life for then you could believe I got on the meth bad every day for the past 2 monts IV been useing I don't even know who I am anymore I need help

    Chris Queen

    Update I'm now 1 week. Clean it's been hard delling with alot on me right now going back to work next week

  24. Chris Queen

    This song just hit home with me im delling with addiction myself atm it's getting harder every day

  25. wesley holmes

    I really loved this song , first time hearing this but I'm going through rough time latley so this hits a perfect time, thanks for the music :) god bless you

  26. Leigha Deshay


  27. Life after Addiction Methadone 100mg

    Was on 100mgs of Methadone for 11½ years plus a few other things but now been clean for 30 plus days Thanks to Advance Rapid Detox in Pontiac Michigan and it saved my life. Addiction is a Mother Fuc##r. Which i know all to well.. Be strong all going threw it and i wish you all the best.. I needed help with my addictions i couldn't do it on my own, lord knows i tried.. plus im on the vivitrol shot and oral which helps me..

  28. Bobbie Stacy

    My uncle kegan loves this song he's in jail for hitting my and Dedera

  29. Garrett Ledwick

    2 day i can not do it

  30. Garry Lovelady

    Still listing to this in 2019 keeps me clean and sober been clean for 7 years keep it real and be honest with everyone that comes in your path in life if someone is going through things in life don't give up on them I love all the recovering addicts stay strong and don't give up

  31. Erica Payne 86

    Is Mini Thin still alive? I'm reading articles on YouTube that he passed away. 😭😭

  32. Sarah Barnette

    Active user of meth but this song really hit me I just need to find the strength to stop I can keep living the way I do

  33. Amanda Bochman

    Yo!! I was clean for 12 years.. and pastors wife..... and I relapsed. I did time, I just got out this past Wednesday: on 9/11..... but my husband on the other hand.... he overdosed twice in 2 days... while I was locked up... we're both off the Heroine THANKS BE TO GOD! I could of gotten 10 years.... I got 2 years probation... only thing that saved me and that got me that great a sentence is that I haven't been in trouble with the law in 12 years... praise God for 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and a hundredth chances. So since I've been dealing with my addict self and others for going on 16 years... I'm wondering how it is that I never heard of this group? They are awesome and this song is Amazing!

  34. Jared Westenhover

    "Waking up. Blood is itching. Scared to death. Who is snitching"💯⚡

  35. Amber Bevins

    I literally listin t o this song 30 times a day

  36. Amber Bevins

    I really enjoyed this song

  37. Rusty Rose

    city bitch 10 million views but this pure gold with far less an the 850 dislikes probably aren't ready to admit they got a problem

  38. Will Hensley

    Getting sober was the best thing I ever done no regrets...

  39. Jason Craig

    Just came across this track and man it goes hard especially when it relates to everything that happens to be going on in my life and pass few years. Thank you for this #getting my shit together ain't easy

  40. Luewanna Ogburn

    Every one blamed my husband for me being on shit but now he's dead and it's worse then every just moved to a small town to get away from it all over oded 18 times since he died October 14th 2018 I'm in withdrawal so bad right now but I'm trying

  41. edlivy lester

    These lyrics sounds like some of them come from the group Oneless reason

  42. Joseph Raskal

    Hate takes to much energy it was simply you manipulated me n three sides to any story his hers n the truth

  43. Joseph Raskal

    Right there all my life

  44. classact1986

    I've been sober since August 25th 2017. I used this song as my higher power that first year. I must have listened to it 50 times a day. This song is great. Speaks nothing but truth.

  45. Jay Rome

    I don't think I can even start the fight I'm losing already now Right now doing same stuff ❄️I been doing for along time now I don't even Kno how long I been doing it like 14 years I don't even Kno who I am anymore I don't feel like I'm myself
    🌬️🌫️❆❄️👄💨❆❄️👃🌫️❄️❆❄️it took over and has full control⛓️
    ಠ_ʖಠ (눈‸눈) (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ ಠ︵ಠ
    I Kno I need to stop and I'm not ok
    (;ŏ﹏ŏ) (ʘ言ʘ╬) (-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩___-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩)
    ( ꈨຶ ; ꈨຶ ). (〒﹏〒) Ó╭╮Ò
    but I make it seem like everything
    is good & I make up excuses &
    ⊙.☉ ರ_ರ (☉_☉) 눈‸눈 ʕರ_ರ
    make it seem acceptable doin everything I do [̲̅$̲̅(̲̅ ͡ಠ_ಠ)̲̅$̲̅]
    ¯\_( ͠° ͟ʖ °͠ )_/¯💵¯\_ಠ_ಠ_/💸
    💲🕸️⎈❅☬ 〠⚖️🎱💸
    🚼😭┻━┻ ヘ╰( •̀ε•́ ╰)

  46. Chris Wilson ....... Nice hook

  47. Danielle Baglan

    Good song

  48. Chandy Dorlynn

    Somehow I've never heard this before... but I do believe that everything happens for a reason.... thank you for posting this song. (With tears in my eyes) I needed this right now....

  49. Ashley Nicole

    Thank you for this song. 💯

  50. Samantha Jones

    I would never be able to ride this rollercoaster alone...I am grateful today to be given the GIFT of LIFE. Beyond grateful to be able to FEEL the music again...💙🙏🏼💙

  51. Kathryn Hernandez

    Needed to hear this !

  52. Amy Green

    Love how you used part of One Less Reasons song, it totally works with what you're saying. Love it.

  53. this my jam

    Stuck in here is hell. Die alone free from confusion. I'll take that anyday

  54. Travis Wilson

    I needed this song today

  55. Jackie Urick

    O man this is so true.

  56. James Mccraw

    I love his MUSIC

  57. Dannyal Miller

    Felt by every addict fighting the fight...its a daily effort.

  58. Melissa Rodriguez

    Thank u who ever sent me this song really it means a lot even the letters yes I'm on Facebook I'm trying to fight to keep a live

  59. Justin Armes

    I grew up in and come from a life of drugs started at 12 and still fighting to this day i am 31 now it is a hard life

  60. cassie henderson

    i love this song

  61. Dannyal Miller

    My eyes leak thru this one....much needed! Stats are tragic...loss of my kid brother shattered my life and demolished thoughts of hope. #4everchanged #lostsouls

  62. EVIL 69 Charger R/T

    I don't ever put personal shit on youtube, but what happened last night, hit me pretty hard. I've been dealing with my own demons for quite some time, and yesterday, I felt like I was about to break. I know that pretty much everyone knows how that feels - (anger, depression, isolation), and everyone who does, knows how shitty it is. I felt alone and in my self-made hell. I was doing shit around the house and listening to music on youtube, when this song came on. I've heard it before, but never really listened to the lyrics. Then I heard the verse - 'Jason listen, I lover you son and you are missed; my name is Jesus remember this' - that was it... I lost it. I totally broke down. Sometimes songs really talk to you, and this one definitely was talking to me. I was in a place where I needed this. Not to mention, my name is Jason as well, which really added to the effect. It was probably coincidence, but I want to believe that I was meant to hear this at the exact moment that I needed to. I'm not a religious person, but that was so fucking powerful. After I got myself together, I felt so much better. I came to this video, because it shows the lyrics, and I wanted to make sure I really heard what I thought I did. Thanks, man. I'm definitely one of your biggest fans, now. There will be no shortage of Mini Thin music in upstate, NY.

  63. Holly Lewis

    Real asf

  64. Brandon Tracht

    Hey is this new song or old

    Megan Burchett

    It's a couple years old..

  65. jamseyboy jimmerson

    Got sober to this 2 years ago almost to the day fuck it tonight I'm getting drunk to it .. Standing next to u will was supposed to always be me..

  66. Norma Kellogg

    I been clean for 6 years an still going strong

  67. Tannia Demarco

    Never giving up

  68. Jlynn Haines

    This is my life from beginning to end

  69. Jessie O'Brien

    Just got clean been six months

    Jessie O'Brien

    thank you Mini THIN😊

    Megan Burchett


    Jessie O'Brien

    @Megan Burchett ty😊

  70. cls52766

    Lost the love of my life in Feb 20,2019. He struggled for so many yrs w/addictions. Got on needles in 2012 & not a day goes by that I don't miss & love him. I went thru 2 prison sentences w/him & 100s of jail times. But I'd do it all again. I miss you Jason. I have loved you since I was 15 yrs old. He sent me this song a week b4 he died & wanted me to listen to it...I'd give anything to have you bk here. The only comfort I get is knowing/hoping u arent suffering anymore. ♥️

  71. jason Torrance

    Yep this is me right now I have rope in hand

  72. Robert Nelson

    all I got is screams inside but somehow they come out as a smile ? how I feel ?

  73. Zachery Huber

    I love this thin thanks for making music i could relate to 110% for real thank you may god bless you and yours.😊😊😊 i relasped and few months later discovered your music...and heard this song and honestly cried it gave me strength and courage to walk away from that life im forever grateful.

  74. Tara Kerestes

    Love this song 🤩

  75. Jessica Butler

    I'm currently stuck in addiction I started using math when I was 15 I'm almost 30 now I been to rehab and prison twice I hear this song and it breaks me down.. I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired I keep going on like this theres gotta be more to life
    than the drug life

    Stephanie Roll

    Jessica Butler prayers to you and a sober life is a better life I will pray that you find your way out of addiction I’ve been over 5 years sober it’s well worth it

  76. Brenda Harrison-Roberts

    My day? Lol

  77. Nana B


  78. Cheryl Mcdaniel u

  79. Cheryl Mcdaniel

    U r wrong

  80. Cheryl Mcdaniel

    Probably not. Only God knows

  81. Shawna Rush for all merch yall go get ya some awesome things :-)

  82. Tony Rider

    Thank u mini thin for your music. U saved me I have 9 days off math and heroin

  83. Mike Widener

    I can relate lost my pops and relapsed got me out of it

  84. ConorConnect

    Day 2. 👍♥️ We gotta do this, or die and I've got to much to live for

  85. Belinda Golden

    Real shit!!!!

  86. Angie Norton

    This is so much makes cry...and yes i took the wrong way home..without my soulmate..but hes waiting me..coz he told me hed NEVER LEAVE ME r be far from me

    Angie Norton

    But i live this so called life

  87. Kirsten Walters

    I was very close to dying this song made me take the steps for rehab

  88. the beaner g

    I can admit I was a herion user man it been crazy the shit it took from me will support in a wife and a child and being a alcoholic this song hits home hard I'm glad I'm got off the shit if I can only kick the bottle

  89. Jaseen Sides

    Love, My life

  90. heelsnap !

    jesus fans

  91. Tammy Ireland

    I listen 2 this song as part of my healing process. Idw 2 4 get how bad I felt:)

  92. Michael Raw

    2019 and still got this playing in the car

  93. Crystal Kulhanek

    Really liking this. Been locked up almost 5 years. Had never heard him before. Its truth. Thank u for your music. I'm still sober. Thank goodness. No more for me

  94. Alicia _

    Relapsed. But im getting back up. Im worth it. Damn it. That disease.

  95. * Glitter *


  96. Laura Craft

    I just relapsed after being clean for almost 5 years. I am crying listening to this song. Please give me the strength to regain my sobriety. Thank you for putting this song out there foe us who are struggling. Progress not perfection!

  97. Amy Banker

    Baby I love this. I want friends who can see hour words. I'm nobody you'll never give me the time of day. I wish you the best

  98. james ables

    describes my life what i went through an being heartbroken it hurts everyday

  99. Rb bake

    I know when you need your friends they aren't there