Miller, Jake - Steven Lyrics






Yeah, look
Let me tell you about a kid named Steven
He's slowly running out of things to believe in
Every couple of months his mom leaves him,
For no good reason his step-dad beats him

Not too many friends, only ever had a few of them,
But recently they don't want anything to do with him
Always eating lunch in the bathroom stall,
He just wants to feel normal and be cool again, yeah

Always feeling like the outcast,
He's been going crazy ever since his dad passed
He needs guidance and advice
But instead he only has breakdowns and flashbacks of the car crash uh

It's been getting harder everyday,
If he was still around everything would be OK
'Cause his dad was always the light at the end of the tunnel,
But now that same damn tunnel is looking dark and grey

He keeps quiet in the back of the class
And when the bell rings Steven hurries home fast
He's scared to death the other kids will kick his ass on the long walk home
'Cause it's happened in the past so

He's getting used to the black eyes and fat lips
But all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists
Wishin' he could walk right up to them, show them the scars
And say, "Look, you're the reason that I've done this."

And maybe they would finally understand
And go back to how it was before it all began
But he's just a little different so they taunt him and they beat him
Yeah it's all just fun and games, they don't give a damn, yeah

His older brother ain't around,
In and out of jail, hanging with the wrong crowd
He's been doing coke, smoking weed, getting drunk all his life he's a shame
No, he's not too proud

Now his habits are rubbing off on his little bro yeah,
But guess what? Little did he know that every time he did a line,
Every time he lit a joint,
Every time he took a shot he would set the mode,

So Steven's sitting in his room getting high now
Doors locked, music up, with the lights out
He just takes another toke 'til his room fills with smoke
5-6-7 hours 'til he knocks out

Now he started stealing pills from his mom
8-9-10 at a time and now they're gone
And maybe for a moment all his problems seem to fade,
But the high fades too after not too long

And that's when it really sinks in
And that's when it hits him
That these god damn drugs won't fix him
Curled up on the floor,
Can't take it anymore
Now he's talking to God
'Cause he's the only one that gets him

On his knees, looking up, can't stop crying
"God, I know we haven't talked in a long time
But this time I really need you.
Please, God, help me, say something, just give me a sign,
'Cause now I'm falling apart and I don't think that I can do it.
Please, God, give me the strength to pull through it.
Tell me, should I give up? I could end it all right now.
I just don't know if I'm brave enough to do it.

'Cause there's gotta be a better way than suicide.
Try to wait it out, give it time, you'll be fine.
But it's been so long and I still haven't been able
To get rid of all the thoughts that I feel inside.

So sick, so angry, so mad
And to top it off no one even knows that."
That's when he stood up, wiped his tears,
Walked over to his desk and got a pen and a notepad

He just couldn't see it getting any better
So on a cold dark night in December,
Steven knew exactly what he had to do
But first he sat down and wrote a couple letters

One to his step-dad, one to his mother,
Couple to the kids at school, one to his brother
Bringing them the pain that they once brought him
Tear drops on the paper one after another

"Yeah, I hope that you all feel guilty
'Cause I'm broken now and you can't heal me
And now you're all an accomplice in murder
Each and every one of you've chipped in to kill me

So the reason that I'm writing you this evening
Is to say goodbye and tell you that I'm leaving
But don't hold your breath 'cause I ain't never coming back.

Sincerely yours, Steven"





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  1. T.... Y....

    I found this looking for Steven Universe music... Happy about it.

  2. C.... C....

    I can relate to this song so much. I listen to this song on repeat for so many years everytime my depression hits me. I have cut I have attempted to kill myself I just dont know what I'm still living for

  3. �.... �....

    The way this song ends hits the same everytime.

    Freaking chills bro

  4. V.... S....

    I'm that kid steven. This is exactly what happened in my childhood. Literally crying because of this song. Thank you for tell my story even if this is about a different steven this is 100% my childhood.

  5. R.... A....

    The last good song Jake Miller put out FACTS DONT FFCKN AT ME

  6. N.... R....

    This is the true Jake Miller.

  7. B.... M....

    Reminds me of my best friend who hung himself on December 3rd,2014 😭💔 R.I.P. Evan Maurice Christensen I love and miss you

  8. T.... u....

    Im not crying...






    Im just pretending to be a waterfall

  9. L.... ....

    I haven’t heard this song since I was 12 wow, time flies. This song still resonates with me.

  10. L.... H....

    Im afarid that I'll end up killing myself before I turn 15. I was so happy that I turned 12 in June , ever since I was 10 I always thought "you'll never make it to 12" . We didn't celebrate my birthday that day and I was happy because I hate my birthday. Last year I was gonna kill myself on my birthday but my dad came back into my life and a few weeks after that my mom came back.
    "So sick so angry so mad and to top it all off no one even knows that"

  11. t.... g....

    It's been getting harder everyday..

  12. w.... l....

    Anyone here 2019... I doubt it

  13. H.... I....

    If you need help to god god will help you but you just gotta wait and always trust god

  14. s.... m....

    I feel bad about Steven but why did u kill urself

    s.... m....

    I think we should be celebrating have a slumber party put his face on billboards.

  15. K.... L....

    This song my cousin showed me bfore she died i trying helping her but it been to late

    K.... L....

    Oh well!

  16. M.... B....

    Listened to this song so many times I can just lie here and sing word by word

  17. B.... H....

    Crazy how i was steven and now i feel alive. Thanks for not making me feel alone

  18. S.... P....

    its coming back again😭💔

  19. e.... l....

    Heard this song a million times, but I still get literal chills

  20. E.... ....

    Anyone got the instrumental for this song?

  21. T.... A....

    I can end it all right now just don't know if I'm brave enough to do it.

  22. M.... M....

    Fly high uncle Mikey i love and miss you so much

  23. R.... T....

    The note...it got me 😥

  24. S.... ....

    I just want to say to anyone in this situation simular or about the same as this. You will get over it if you ask for help... You never know, the last person you may think that wont help you, just might help you.... I had someone to help me through it in some strange way..... I never thought this person would ever care for such person as myself.... I can't believe it, but im actually happy about the future in my life.... I feel like I can do it to it and get my life changed around... sure its gonna be hard to do but God knows i gotta try harder for myself first then he will help you further... n further..... Please try to make the effort to change.... You can do it.... My love and support goes out there to anyone who has suffered like I have.... Remember you can save you own life... Just reach out to somebody... You can change for the better.... and be proud of yourself for doing so...

  25. S.... A....

    This. Is my first name.

  26. K.... D....

    I'm nobody special. And I know that a lot of people aren't going to read this.
    Please don't report me or anything. I am trying to get help....


    I'm 14, and a freshman in high school. When I was 10, I started into a dark spiral. I was being bullied and my home life wasn't the best either. I preferred to be at school that at home. When I started grade 6, I started to smoke cigarettes. Then cigarettes became joints to blunts. I tried to kill myself almost every week. At that point, I was overdosing every night, mixed with sleeping pills. But I would always wake up the next morning. I started getting whatever pills I could get my hands on. And after some time, overdose was a normal feeling for me. I started to cut summer before grade seven. I was rewriting suicide notes over and over again. I put them in places I knew no one would find them. In the middle of grade 7, I was sent to a hospital. And kept on a 5150 for 2 1/2 weeks. I wasn't able to go to a mental hospital, because "I wasn't fit to be transferred". I tried to hang myself with cords in my hospital room. My parents didn't care for the fact that I wanted to kill myself. Instead all they thought about was how the nurses and other people thought about them. Once I went home- it was hell. My parents hated me. And everyone always told me that they don't. But it wasn't how I thought thy felt, they wouldn't let me forget that they didn't want me. My grades started to slip. I couldn't focus in school. So I would ditch out, and cry in the girls bathrooms. By grade 8, I couldn't bare waking up. And I dreaded going to sleep, cause I know I am going to have to wake up tomorrow morning. Middle school sucked, because I never stopped getting bullied. Even to this day, it hasn't stopped. But I still preferred to be at school that at home. And to this day, I still deal with a lot of problems at home. And I still want to end everything constantly. The last time I tried, I tried in a reserved area, about 6 stories up, and about to jump. And, in front of the few people around, my mom yelled, "Why the hell do you want to f**king want to kill yourself? How do you think these people are going to view me?" A random lady pulled me down, and walked me away from where I was about to jump. To this day, my parents still do the same things. And they don't know if I still cut or not. All they know if that about to fail grade 9. But it's more than that for me....
    This song is literally what helps me get through my day, knowing that at least one person knows exactly how I feel....

  27. C.... K....

    **Listens to in playback speed 1.75x**

  28. C.... c....

    Rest in Pease

  29. p.... ....

    Low key chills after he said "Steven"

  30. g.... u....

    songs MUSIC music like this is why I'm alive and feel like I'm not alone

  31. T.... O....

    All I wanna do is die, but I can't put my family through that pain...........

    T.... O....

    Tough tity suck it up and move on people are always going to say S*** you can either get mad but when you do you also have to understand that you have the choice of wether you accept what they are saying you don't have to listen to them the choice is yours now go die in the bathtub.

  32. T.... ....

    So many things said so fast... I love this because it could be all true

  33. C.... D....

    this song randomly came on my spotify tonight and i forgot how good this fucking song is.. and how sad it is too.

  34. p.... o....

    why do i have goosebumps?

  35. B.... S....

    So sad 😭

  36. Z.... E....

    Im 17 years old. 4 months ago. I was borderline suicidal, I had barely any friends, it was the 5 year anniversary of my Father's passing. I was stressed and alone. No one I knew could ever understand what I was going through. I was in a very dark place, I gave up on personal health and ended up eating my way to 320 pounds. I cried myself to sleep every single night. But there was one thing that kept me alive, there was a girl I had met through discord. I could tell the minute I met her, that she was in pain. So I spent my days and nights listening to her cry, and I just let her vent about her life. How her dad beat her, her mother left her, she was being bullied. The list goes on. I kept telling myself that it would be selfish to kill myself, because then she has no one left. If I die, she will soon follow. One day, she decided to block me, I couldn't tell ya why because honestly, I don't know. I know she's still alive tho. She changes her discord username every few days. Luckily, my life turned around in the last few months. I've met a lot of people I enjoy talking too, I got myself a girlfriend and began to lose weight. I just want to say, to that one kid reading my story, in the same dark hole I was, It will get better. It make take alot of struggling but if you can claw your way put of that hole, then nothing can stop you. If you need someone to talk to, reach out to me. My Discord is Dusty#2574

    Z.... E....

    Zer0 EXP well said your life has been shit but as you said it gets better I’ve had problems with bullying and losing close family members so I’ve felt your pain

  37. L.... B....

    It's sad when you can relate so much to a song like this 💔

  38. T.... 1....

    This pretty gud

  39. J.... B....

    It sounds so much like I use to be

  40. c.... r....

    i start to cry every time he says “look, you’re the reason that i’ve done this” i forgot about this song and i used to listen to it years ago and it made me cry every time and it still does omg

  41. I.... A....

    2019 and I’m still here for the song many can relate to even me

  42. C.... T....

    This song got to me I do everything that it says he does but it made me stop and now I'm straight and did not kill myself I got a therapist and everything like that

    C.... T....

    Good for you anymore news!

  43. e.... ....

    Got dammit nigga my name is Steven. But I'm like the brother

  44. B.... B....

    Im gonna cry

    B.... B....

    Tough tity suck it up

  45. b.... g....

    when he said “sincerely, yours steven" i started crying. this made me so sad. stop bullying guys. it doesn’t help anything. :(

  46. F.... A....

    anyone still listening to this amazing song and still hoping Steven was okay?

    F.... A....

    sweetie steven is dead doll<33

    F.... A....

    Kirsty Streete someone could have stopped him tho

  47. L.... B....

    Shout out to all those who've experienced horrible things like this. You are good enough no matter what they say <3

  48. k.... g....

    this touches my heart bc I have friends that go through this

  49. g.... 1....

    This hits me hard....i was once "steven" minus losing my dad but i didnt want to hurt myself, this song got me remember the scared little boy i used to be and the man i am a few years later

    g.... 1....

    Oh well!

  50. C.... S....

    this makes me cry because i lost a friend to bullying she killed herself or so we all assume because she ran away

  51. A.... S....

    It's sad how many people can relate to this song

  52. A.... M....

    I actually knew someone named Steven he was my friend I was always there every time I hear this song I remember him cause he did kill himself but he didn't write letters I know he went through so much but I miss him so much

  53. R.... R....

    The hard part about this song is that it's real. Sometimes you don't beat the odds.

  54. A.... t....

    2018 who is listening to this and aka my ex-boyfriend name is Steven ;;;-;;;

  55. A.... A....

    I listen to this on repeattttt

  56. 1.... s....

    You're the best in the world never let people get to you BE BRAVE

  57. d.... ....

    (Sorry Im ranting i just need to type this somewhere feel free to ignore it)

    When i first heard this song, i was going through so shit. My dad left when he found out my mom was pregnant. My mom works 8 am to 10 pm everyday so shes not around. My stepdad is a drunk and a druggy, hes very violent when hes high or drunk, bad environment for my then 4 year old brother and I. My sister getting abused by her boyfriend while being pregnant and then having the child (my nephew) only to be really close to loosing him because the other family are arseholes. I was raised by my grandparents, my grandpa recently passing away due to cancer, i lost the only father figure i had, my grandma's in and out of hospital after hospital, my depression eating at me, day by day, night by night, Bullied at school, and ive found out that taking high school classes at barely 7th grade to be able to support your family sooner will seriously worsen your depression.
    Now its better. Step dad is in prison now for multiple reasons, still have no clue where my dad is at, grandma is slowly getting better but its still hard. But its better. At least now i can come home and not have to worry about accidentally being hit by a runaway beer bottle anymore. :l My mom spends more time with us kids. My sister is with someone new, and now has a beautiful 2 year old boy and a lovely 2 month old baby girl. My depression is better, and my brother isnt in any danger at home so thats always good. Still, losing grandpa is still hard to deal with, but now i have more support around me. Still getting bullied at school, but now i have some really good friend to stick up for me. College classes are doing fine. now im a freshman in high school, taking senior and college freshmen classes, which is fine.
    Overall Im better and Im happy now. Im glad that i had this song, though it is sad, i gave me a shock and told me that if i didnt like something, to get off my ass and do something about it. this song really help. :-)

  58. L.... W....

    *The people who disliked are bullys*

  59. S.... J....

    i am stephen

  60. S.... D....

    This is sad

  61. T.... :....

    mY HEART GAHH-

  62. e.... l....

    Came back a year later and still love this song

  63. Y.... B....

    Who's cutting onions

  64. H.... H....

    I'm so done all my closes friends have killed themselves and I'm about to plz help me

    H.... H....

    Please don't!!!!

    H.... H....

    Aw it's so hard grow up bro that's what they want are you going to give them what they want or be better than stooping to their low level.

  65. N.... N....

    Who ever came up with this lyrics Albert Einstein is shaking

  66. N.... N....

    Yoooo I️ remember I️ was literally crying last year in the backseat of my aunts car lmaooo

  67. A.... N....

    Who would dislike this also 2018

  68. J.... F....

    This makes me cry every time

  69. S.... B....

    only at the end of this song did I realize I was whispering the lyrics and that I was crying

  70. A.... W....

    My life

  71. M.... T....

    Awwwww this is so sad me and my friend memorized this

  72. M.... R....

    Meh dads name Steve




    He grounded me

  73. M.... L....

    Only reason I keep living is so no one around me has to suffer the same pain. My father hates me, my sister always agrees with my father, my mother only cares about getting money. I may not have any friends but that doesn’t stop me from trying to help others smile even if I may be dying inside. I feel this way every single day but I’m trying to fight so no one else feels the same way I do.

    M.... L....

    Marcus Leo you're a beautiful soul. Never give that up cuz you know exactly what life's about. Even when everything's down just look in the mirror, its the only friend you can always depend on. But honestly, if you ever need a friend you can come to me cause you can never have too many. I know how you feel, and I hope you know that every smile you fake can make a difference in someone's life.

  74. M.... C....

    In love with this song ♥💔

  75. P.... ....

    *Sincerely Yours, Steven*

  76. P.... ....

    I really wouldn’t mind dying right now I have nothing to live for

  77. S.... M....

    My names Steven and I relate in every way

  78. H.... D....

    He still loves you and misses you

  79. D.... d....

    When i watched this my bully was right in front of me and i looked at my arm and walked away

  80. D.... H....

    I was watching this and my bully was sitting in front of me and i looked at my arm

  81. E.... O....

    i was sexually abused and my im adopted now but all i want to do is die

    E.... O....

    Emily Ochinang if you need a friend I'm here 💜!

    E.... O....

    Well die bitch!

  82. G.... h....

    Who cut the onions

  83. M.... H....

    how can someone be so messed up to bully someone period yet alone to death !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    M.... H....

    Blah blah blah blah.

  84. S.... �....

    “He just couldn’t see it getting any better, so, in a cold, dark night in December-“ Jonghyun... 💔

  85. F.... B....

    Sadly I almost wrote the same letters....only my boyfriend is stopping me from doing it...

  86. A.... Z....

    I want everyone to know who is growing through this, who is going through depression, who is going through bipolar depression, who is bipolar, who is suicidal, that it will be OK and suicide is not the answer. I want you to know that I myself have been there. I myself have thought day AND night that I was going to kill myself. I have thought 24/7, every week, every month until one day in school these 2 girls in my class said something and that was the feather that finally broke the glass. I called my mother crying after school saying I was going to hurt myself and by hurt I meant kill. she came running in to where I was in the 2nd / back lobby. she was already there to pick up my sister and she held me in her arms and from there we left dropped my sister off and took me to the ER. Later that night / early morning they had me hospitalized. This was from a different reason from most who has had or still had suicidal idealizations. I was going to kms because I wasn’t on my way to transition to who I am now. I still remember that day it was a Tuesday that day after school almost TWO years ago I was going to do it

  87. E.... R....

    This hit deep. 😷

  88. D.... D....

    ...Right in the feels.

  89. D.... D....

    My heart broke...

  90. D.... G....

    Omg this song makes me cry u should listen to remember me by vers it is sad too

  91. t.... w....

    I used to get this feeling everyday sometimes I wanted to use steroids

  92. S.... M....

    The 189 people who disliked this have no soul and what is this weird stuff in my eyes

  93. W.... i....

    This song made me cry when I first heard it

  94. A.... O....

    I'm leaking eye fluid...

  95. K.... n....

    Did Namjoon cut the onions again?

    (Bts reference :P)

  96. W.... ....

    omggg i love this so much