John Mark McMillan - Enemy, love. Lyrics






I don't trust a fool
I don't trust myself
I don't want to bother you
With all of my doubt and regret
Said I wouldn't bury you
I promise that I'm doing my best
But I think I'm losing my head
Losing my head

Heaven in a china girl
Heaven in an empty dress
Heaven in three wild birds
Heaven in an empty nest
Said I wouldn't miss one minute
Said I wouldn't buckle under stress
But I think I'm losing my head
I'm losing my head

Oh, Christ!
Do you wake my ghost?
Sometimes, it seems impossible
Did you give your body
Up to forge my trust?
Did you give your body up
Just to suffer for my savage love?

We've got dreams
And there are things you know that I thought that I wanted
But now it seems they don't mean to me as much as I thought
And not that I'm being ungrateful
Yeah, and I know what I hold in my hands
But I think I'm losing my head
I'm losing my head

Oh, Christ!
Do you wake my ghost?
Sometimes, it seems impossible
Did you give your body
Up to forge my trust?
Did you give your body up
Just to suffer for my savage love?

I'm willing, but I'm weak
So come and talk to me
I don't want to, want to be, want to be
Your enemy, love
I'm willing, but I'm weak
So come and talk to me
I don't want to, want to be, want to be
Want to be your enemy, love

I'm willing, but I'm weak
So come and talk to me
I don't want to, want to be, want to be
Your enemy, love
I'm willing, but I'm weak
So come and talk to me
I don't want to, want to be, want to be
Want to be your enemy, love

I'm willing, but I'm weak
So come and talk to me
I don't want to, want to be, want to be
Your enemy, love
I'm willing, but I'm weak
So come and talk to me
I don't want to, want to be, want to be
Want to be your enemy, love

Oh, Christ!
Do you wake my ghost?
Sometimes, it seems impossible
Did you give your body
Up to forge my trust?
Did you give your body up
Just to suffer for my savage love?





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  1. s.... s....

    THIS IS A REAL BOP
    makes me wanna hang with my g, jesus

  2. S.... G....

    “I’m willing but i’m weak”

  3. P.... F....

    Finally! Love it mate

  4. S.... P....

    3:50 Epilepsy warning.

  5. C.... M....

    Eu amo tanto essa musica meu Deus

  6. D.... ....

    Favorite song right now

  7. C.... L....

    Criminally under-appreciated

  8. S.... M....

    "I don't wanna be your enemy, love!" Why is that such a struggle sometimes? Thanks, John Mark, for putting it out there.

  9. M.... I....

    The best song from john mark mcmillan..

  10. S.... L....

    Amo d+ está música

  11. d.... b....

    this made me break out in tears to be honest cause like, life feels so hopeless to me, why would jesus or anyome for that matter wanna sacrifice anything for me ya know

  12. T.... ....

    A musical masterpiece! Glory to the Lord, King, God, Jesus Christ!

  13. T.... L....

    Thanks, John. Brazil loves you!

  14. D.... S....

    This song puts a smile on my face

  15. d.... h....

    😉😂

  16. d.... h....

    Take note !

  17. C.... G....

    John is the GOAT

  18. M.... S....

    This song (and the album it's off) is the closest thing I've found to Christian vaporwave/synthwave/sadboi music.

    M.... S....

    For suuuure

  19. M.... G....

    Gods way is perfect

  20. M.... S....

    You've really nailed the vaporwave a e s t h e t i c for this video.

  21. M.... G....

    Praise God most high help me to control what I can control and trust in you more Jesus give me more faith holy spirit guide me don't let me wander by focusing on my problems and the things I cannot control help me focus on you Jesus please I beg you praise God. If your reading this please pray for me as well I need help, I cannot do anything alone.

  22. C.... ....

    For my savage love that hit me hard

  23. A.... ....

    Eu não confio no tolo
    Eu não confio em mim mesmo
    Eu não quero incomodá-lo
    Com toda a minha dúvida e arrependimento
    Disse que não o enterraria
    Prometo que estou fazendo o meu melhor
    Mas acho que estou perdendo a cabeça
    Perdendo a cabeça

    Céu em uma garota chinesa
    Céu com um vestido vazio
    Céu em três aves selvagens
    Céu num ninho vazio
    Disse que não perderia um minuto
    Disse que não faria furacão sob o estresse
    Mas acho que estou perdendo a cabeça
    Estou perdendo a cabeça

    Oh, Cristo!
    Você acorda meu fantasma?
    Às vezes, parece impossível
    Você deu seu corpo
    Para forjar minha confiança?
    Você deu seu corpo
    Apenas para sofrer pelo meu amor selvagem?

    Nós temos sonhos
    E há coisas que você conhece que eu pensei que queria
    Mas agora parece que eles não significam para mim tanto quanto eu pensava
    E não que eu esteja ingrato
    Sim, e eu sei o que tenho nas minhas mãos
    Mas acho que estou perdendo a cabeça
    Estou perdendo a cabeça

    Oh, Cristo!
    Você acorda meu fantasma?
    Às vezes, parece impossível
    Você deu seu corpo
    Para forjar minha confiança?
    Você deu seu corpo
    Apenas para sofrer pelo meu amor selvagem?

    Estou disposto, mas sou fraco
    Então venha e fale comigo
    Eu não quero, quero ser, quer ser
    Seu inimigo, amor
    Estou disposto, mas sou fraco
    Então venha e fale comigo
    Eu não quero, quero ser, quer ser
    Quer ser seu inimigo, amor
    (3x)

    Oh, Cristo!
    Você acorda meu fantasma?
    Às vezes, parece impossível
    Você deu seu corpo
    Para forjar minha confiança?
    Você deu seu corpo
    Apenas para sofrer pelo meu amor selvagem?

  24. V.... N....

    Wow! The lyrical content of this song is so touching! Also the musical arrangement and instrumentation takes me back 3 decades. Kinda like renewing my youth like the eagle! I appreciate John's ministry of being who is in a very refreshing and unconventional way. God bless you!!!

  25. M.... G....

    I am suffering so much from a mental catastrophe illness I choose evil for me instead of light, I need help. God I ask that you overflow me with wisdom and help me do what I need to do which is just be still, let shit go, relax and just chill the fuck out. I need you now God more than ever. The enemy wants to destroy my life, always has always will. But Jesus I ask you to strengthen me and always draw me closer to you and your word. God is my dad Mary is my Mom you 2 are my only parents I need Abba, help me succeed in this life so I can live with you in eternity in the next. God I need you so much, free me from my anxieties and just all the lies I'm dealing with. The devil is a liar. Give me the strength the overcome his lies and illnesses. In your name Jesus I pray. And i ask those around me watching this video to pray for me as well I need it. Thanks so much! Praise God hallelujah

  26. Y.... Y....

    Ummmm you might want to change out some scenes where there are flashing colors of red and blue... you know just so there aren't are seiiizzurrreeeeeesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

  27. K.... P....

    Assista aqui com legendas em português! Deus abençoe :) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrT_sXeluHU&t=49s

  28. B.... ....

    I loved it so much! ❤❤❤

  29. L.... A....

    You've chose all the right angles and colors for this music video

  30. J.... H....

    Might want to add a photosensitive seizure warning for that last occurrence of "savage love".

  31. S.... T....

    Não se esqueça gente eu super indico os meninos do ministério à nossa adoração, estão começando agora, eles cantam as músicas do John, é um trabalho maravilhoso, quem os lançou foi estelacustica

    S.... T....

    Não vale à pena, vale à galinha inteira, está ótimo

  32. M.... H....

    amen ╬

  33. A.... C....

    Beautiful song!

  34. R.... S....

    Great song, praise be to King Jesus, very powerful song and message!

  35. b.... ....

    Wow, this felt like a Christian Bruce Springsteen song.

  36. D.... R....

    Thank you, Johm for share these inspirations from above! God bless you!

  37. S.... E....

    O B R I G A D O

  38. G.... R....

    I really enjoy the lyrics and instrumentation of your new album. The eighties compressed, reverby drums are fantastic.

  39. J.... U....

    Come to SA johnmarkmcmillan

  40. M.... S....

    Brilliant!

  41. D.... D....

    Just epic John.

  42. L.... A....

    The best song! So beautiful and good for my soul 💜

  43. A.... ....

    Its amazing this song. I love listening to this song after a long shitty day. I will crack open a beer and this song is very soothing. Yeshua of Nazareth 🙌🏌️

  44. T.... C....

    I can't believe I wasn't subscribed 🙈
    favorite track ! can't wait for the whole lot ❤

  45. E.... N....

    UAU TO AMANDO FAZ MAIS FAZ MAIS

  46. M.... ....

    I dont get the song :(

    M.... ....

    Give up your self will and give God all he deserves because you know you love Him... Stop the flesh and not be selfish with your own desires. God's mercy is sufficient for everyone, never give up, don't be His enemy love.

  47. I.... N....

    ❤😍

  48. H.... N....

    “Anxiety. I try to control my world and since that is SUPREMELY not possible… I get anxiety. I promised myself when I got married that I wouldn’t miss a moment with my exquisite china-doll girl, but… I get anxiety. Then we had kids and I swore I wouldn’t let go of a precious second of their lives. They’re such wild birds, and their raucous life and energy bring me outrageous amounts of joy, but also… anxiety. It seems like so often the very things we do to protect or hold onto what we love ends up stealing them from us. See, my attempts to control the universe only create enemies. Enemies with the world, with people, enemies with the ones I love, and I find myself at odds with God and with myself! Yep – in trying so hard to have IT ALL the way I want it, I become my own worst enemy.

    Enemy, love., like much of the new record, is about growing up – especially the ‘letting go’ part of growing up. There are just things I can’t know, I can’t hold, and I can’t control. Not to be irresponsible or dismissive, but I’m realizing when I ‘let go’ of my ideals and ego, I also become much better at holding onto what I actually have – And that’s beautiful."

    – From John Mark McMillan’s facebook page

    H.... N....

    Thank you for this! There is an article in Relevant Magazine that talked about this post and expanded in it. I was trying to find the post and wouldn’t have done it without you. Here is the article https://relevantmagazine.com/article/why-anxiety-plagues-so-many-creative-people

    H.... N....

    @Emily Stork thanks for sharing the link. I look forward to reading it today!

    H.... N....

    Thank you for posting the quote.

    H.... N....

    Thank you for sharing this.

  49. s.... ....

    John Mark.. your music gives me chills since day 1

  50. V.... H....

    ooooh Glória ao Senhor Jesus Cristo! ♡♡♡

  51. l.... j....

    God bless you from INDIA!!

  52. B.... P....

    How would this (awesome) song sound without the drums?

    B.... P....

    Blaise Pascal My Pensées are a little unclear about how that would sound...

  53. p.... P....

    Everytime I see one of your videos or listen one of your songs I feel insipired to become an artist. I feel this is the kind of worship that make God smile and dance. Thank you for using your talents like this. I hope one day you can give a presentation in Mexico.

  54. C.... F....

    Really like this one John!

  55. A.... B....

    Que som!!!! Grande Jhon :)

  56. U.... R....

    Hermoso y asombroso John, una bendición sin duda alguna. Saludos desde México.
    God Bless You John, you're doing an awesome work with the gospel of worship.

  57. C.... ....

    Very different style from you but mannnn this is gorgeous.

  58. S.... G....

    does anyone have the chords to this song??

  59. M.... G....

    Kim walker smith brought me here .

  60. S.... G....

    That end is going to give someone a seizure lol

  61. �.... ....

    힝 가사 해석 해주실 분 없나요 ㅜ.ㅜ 부탁 드립니당..

  62. T.... ....

    I love it! Hurts my eyes every time.

  63. D.... M....

    wonderful!!!!!!😎😎😎

  64. C.... F....

    Linda canção!

  65. �.... L....

    I absolutely love the bridge!

  66. D.... N....

    Que bela obra prima

  67. m.... p....

    Thank you for sharing beautiful testimonies through your music. You are a blessing to me and I pray that God pours out His blessings on you!

  68. t.... s....

    revolucionário

  69. Z.... R....

    John Mark thanks for looking anxiety in the eye and calling out it and giving it to the Lord. Dealing with crippling anxiety most of my life, this song echoes many prayers I've found myself praying over the years. Thank you!

  70. W.... K....

    Marvelous! Now another song I will be playing over and over again on repeat! Thank you John! I liked how in the video where King/Shepard David is the focal point of the Video as well as Jesus Statues:) David was said to be after Gods own Heart. Triumphant David battled in wars and was Israel’s hero, but even with his all of his naked unguarded expression of New Song Worship David’s same man David committed adultery in secret with the hot Bathsheba who was out for a bath. He reasoned with Sin as we all do. Yet reasoning with sin is never reasonable. We become Gods enemy by sinning. Even if we live with all variables in life(Food, Shelter, etc.) to sustain a perfect life we would still trade a friend with an Enemy. Lets face it, just as Judas betrayed Jesus for 30 Silver Coins, We all were there once, if not more, just crucify Christ again by disobeying and not even know the effects of our action. Our Hearts turn off, yet if that was true we would not be alive, we trade ourselves to the value of a slave at times. Call to our Father as if a beggar. From Son/Daughter to Slave, The Slave doesn't comprehend freedom. At best it's a mirage, hallucination that can't be attained, but when felt like obtained, then just like holding sand in your hands it dissipates. “Oh Christ do you wake my Ghost, sometimes it seems impossible, did you give your body up, just to suffer for my SAVAGE LOVE! “

    "Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine O what a foretaste of glory divine Heir of salvation, purchase of God Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood."

    Unorthodox thought, Remember when Jesus was crucified and at the ending we read his hardest moment was being separate from God on the Cross, He said, Abba(Pappa) why have you Forsaken me?”

    Father God possibly felt such enmity towards Jesus his Son that it killed him. Scholars assume His heart burst inside of his chest, due to his rapid death, and water and blood flowed from his side.

    Remember Jesus after being baptized by John, God from the Heavens proclaimed, “This is my Beloved Son in whom I’m well pleased!” But now on the Cross Jesus in all his torture, and agony felt Forsaken!

    The reality is, we cause God the same offense/ separation/ enmity when we choose to look away from him, and He addresses us, “Son/Daughter why have you forsaken me In the same tone as he said to the Father, “Abba, why have you forsaken me?’”

    Jesus said, “Just as I am one With the Father…” he wants us to be one with the Father. God eagerly anticipates for new sons and daughters to come to him.

    I’m just typing away… I was unknowingly blessed and now happen to feel blessed☺ , Also now realize it’s not sand in my hands, but seeds, I was never meant to keep them in my pockets unless they have holes in them then I’m ok. So that where I journey, the seeds with eventually bloom.

    This is my allegory of the Song, and my reflection keeping my sleepy body from a good night rest to 2 am, If any of it was of help, Praise God, but if not, excuse my Rabbits in my Head! ☺

    W.... K....

    William Krasnodemsky Great perception, I applaud! Thank you for sharing brother,
    God bless!

    W.... K....

    Apparently, this is an essay, not a comment.

    W.... K....

    Well said

  71. F.... ....

    bro, your video is nuts in the weird way. creativity certainly lost on this engineer. God be praised no matter what.

  72. D.... S....

    Diggin it 🤙🏻

  73. S.... S....

    Thank you. We been waiting. Do a South African Tour

  74. J.... H....

    As always, so beautiful!

  75. T.... B....

    Thank. You. John.

  76. H.... I....

    OMG HOW I LOVE THISSSSS

  77. i.... l....

    Brilliant!

  78. H.... G....

    I really respect the tenderness of the prayers that John Mark puts into his songs.

  79. G.... M....

    Good stuff

  80. K.... B....

    Let's crank this album out already.

    K.... B....

    Aug. 4th. Can't get here soon enough!

  81. L.... A....

    Deus é lindo. ♥😍

  82. G.... J....

    Brilhante, como sempre!

  83. N.... C....

    Deus te abençoe!

  84. J.... L....

    this song is everything.

  85. m.... ....

    Love this. All your music speaks to my soul.

  86. W.... ....

    Woah
    Bom como sempre.
    "Oh Christ do you wake my ghost"

  87. F.... !....

    Amazing!!!

  88. M.... P....

    What an artist <3

  89. F.... S....

    The simple and poetic praise for our god!! I Love your form of praise, and, i'm copy for my lifestyle.

  90. J.... B....

    I like it!

  91. A.... G....

    Another message all wrapped up in a great song. Thank you john !

  92. e.... r....

    Killed it with that bridge. So deep! Genius as always Sir JMM

  93. T.... E....

    Unique song😊 If you don't mind me saying, I just wouldn't write about "losing my mind. " 👌🌴Blessings.

  94. K.... C....

    Amazing as always JM

  95. G.... E....

    What a blessed song. Thank you Claudia

  96. N.... S....

    That bridge is everything I pray when I choose sin instead of life.

  97. N.... K....

    Playful and vulnerable at the same time. Art. Thanks John - your exploring is also our exploring.

  98. C.... A....

    Blessings, beautiful song. So realistic!

  99. G.... P....

    Representing Brazil here, we love you John. 🇧🇷

  100. G.... P....

    What a blessed night, with a new song clip by John Mark McMillan!