Joe Budden - Only Human Lyrics




[Child's voice:]
Mic check, mic check
One two, one two
New Joe Budden!

Uhh
Please somebody help my soul [x4]
Talk to 'em (talk to 'em)

I let the Man have a talk with the beast in me
I'm holding onto my last bit of decency
I need a vacay, a change of scenery
But mama said wherever I'mma go, I'm taking me with me
I told her shit is on my mind and it's been eating me
She got me pissing in a cup, she don't believe in me
It's not the drugs that got me out of my zone
Going days without eating, in a crowd I feel alone, mama
Then she ask why it seems I never sleep at night
I told her when I close my eyes my brain just keeps the fight
She said my friends wanna have an intervention with me
I speak to niggas daily, that was never mentioned to me
She told me there's a higher power and a lower power
And that I'll die if I don't find the strength to overpower
Then I replied, "well aren't we all"?
She said "yeah, but that should be on God's terms, not yours"

[Hook - Emanny:]
My every thought is scary
And it makes it hard to breathe again
Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
Asking God to help me see again, please help me
But He tells me I'm only human
And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
But they act like I'm more than human
I prove them wrong again
Don't fault me I'm only human

Tryin' to weather the storm
I thought that black cloud was gone
It's been beside me all along, not the song
I wanna sit in silence, don't speak for a minute
Tired of being strong, please let me be weak for a minute
Kinda thought that my disease tried to kill your man first
It was easy to get my hands on 30 milligram Percs, worse
Can't be depression, couldn't have it this long
So many secrets I only told through a glass of Patron, my nigga
Speaking of secrets, that's when I got the Kaylin text
Read it and cried, couldn't believe what she was saying next
She said "you're going through a lot
I'm hoping you ain't in the grave and dead
Cause not too many people know your brain's a mess"
Who knew that she was keeping track of it all?
I wrote back "lol" but wasn't laughing at all
I ain't tell her just the other day that that gun was in my lap
Pen and pad in my hand, and I was writing a note
Didn't get far, as soon as I wrote down "mom" I just stopped
Couldn't lie to her, couldn't figure out how to say bye to her
Couldn't explain the "why" to her
Couldn't picture her getting a call or somebody saying her son had died to her
And shortly after that my pastor called
Which at first I kinda thought it was weird
But that convo preserved me, 'bout God's grace and mercy
He ain't even say goodbye, he said "let us pray"
And then he went into a prayer, gripped the phone, closed my eyes
Just so happy he appeared nigga shed another tear
Maybe he could sense that something had the god devoured
Just thankful he shed some light upon my darkest hour
All my thoughts are corrupt, this shit is whack
If everybody calls you a duck, will you just quack?
Guess a part of me really gives a fuck, way in the back
Cause when I had that burner ready to bust, I didn't clap
Joe

[Hook]

Guess I'm insanity's definition
Trying to step over in sanity's repetition
But I can't it got me tripping
Whatever love we had was dead that night
Looking back, we both needed cooler heads that night
Was going off no sleep, eyes red that night
While you was drunk texting me, I hope I read that right
You was beefing bout Giselle, beefing bout Alexa
Suddenly you was jealous, must've thought that I had sexed her
I was laughing, thought it was funny
Giselle's the homie, Alexa's twenty
With hip withdrawals
Nothing bout your story shoulda been sticking at all
I wouldn't dick her at all
I'm guessing, maybe you were insecure and never knew me
Was there for four months, yet you said this was a new me
In your head, guess the answer to this jealousy
Was to turn around and try to make me jealous, B
But the part that you neglect
Was never mind jealousy, this was 'bout respect
Y'all Instagramming pictures, trying to get me upset
You turned that into a night we both would never forget
We both said some things we both probably regret
You was lying to my face and them dots didn't connect, but cool
Only picked you up to try and talk sense into you
Now I'm fucking homeboy up, just off the principle
I guess he caught him self antagonizing me
But he's a young nigga, that's no surprising me
Shit I done fucked some of the baddest hoes
I left shorty weeks ago, you can have this ho
I guess the part where I lose
Is now they got my face plastered all over the news, I'm being falsely accused
And I don't understand, was this all part of a plan?
I guess I'll tell the whole truth when on the stand
How you go and tell the cops I had guns in my house?
Now they got a search warrant, just to come to my house
Question: were your feelings worth taking my tomorrow's, kid?
And you know Jersey gun laws, I'm talking hollow tips
So you can tell them niggas you roll with whatever you want
But you and I know what's going on
Nigga that whole night just replays in my mind
Your face is fine, this is a big waste of time
Let's get back to that jealousy
Now you got a nigga facing three felonies
All for what, cause we were no longer dealing
You attack me, but I'm the villain, over a fucking iPhone and feelings
Check, you never see me act like a jerk
I know women will provoke you and get mad when it works
Rather reserved and that always makes matters the worst
Cause I go on about my business and not act like it hurts, but wait
So now the whole world is watching me get burned here
Which is fine, there's a lesson to be learned here
Which is only fuck with strippers and the bartenders
Anytime there's a pole in the bar centered
So even though it's from afar now
I still wish you the best, I know your heart's tender
I'm sorry all, I just got my own scars to tend to
Signing off, truly yours, with love, God's sinner

[Hook x2]





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Joe Budden Only Human Comments
  1. Spicy PiscesTarot

    somebody help my soul 🙏🏼 #onlyhuman

  2. All Around Access

    Wrote lol but wasnt laffin at all😣

  3. D.C

    Timeless

  4. Ernest Frame

    I disagree with that line “it couldn’t be depression, I couldn’t have this long”. 😞😒 12/6/19

  5. NASTY NAS

    ** THIS IS HOW IM FEELING AT THIS MOMENT IN MY DETOUR OF LIFE**

  6. pertti juusalainen

    all the insecure people here cryin and shit.. me with them.

  7. Rohan Lindo

    Joe is slept on. He's sicker than I have him credit for! That verse re his Ma and writing to her with gun in his lap. HARD!

  8. Rage Tek978

    2019 my shit Joey 🔥

  9. QMERT

    One of the best mc who ever touch a mic

  10. TheEndo-SymArmor

    This song is the reason is why Joe is one of my favorite rappers

  11. zach dri

    Mic check, mic check
    One two, one two
    New Joe Budden!
    Uhh
    Please somebody help my soul (x4)
    Talk to 'em (talk to 'em)
    I let the Man have a talk with the beast in me
    I'm holding onto my last bit of decency
    I need a vacay, a change of scenery
    But mama said wherever I'mma go, I'm taking me with me
    I told her shit is on my mind and it's been eating me
    She got me pissing in a cup, she don't believe in me
    It's not the drugs that got me out of my zone
    Going days without eating, in a crowd I feel alone, mama
    Then she ask why it seems I never sleep at night
    I told her when I close my eyes my brain just keeps the fight
    She said my friends wanna have an intervention with me
    I speak to niggas daily, that was never mentioned to me
    She told me there's a higher power and a lower power
    And that I'll die if I don't find the strength to overpower
    Then I replied, "well aren't we all"?
    She said "yeah, but that should be on God's terms, not yours"
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human
    Tryin' to weather the storm
    I thought that black cloud was gone
    It's been beside me all along, not the song
    I wanna sit in silence, don't speak for a minute
    Tired of being strong, please let me be weak for a minute
    Kinda thought that my disease tried to kill your man first
    It was easy to get my hands on 30 milligram Percs, worse
    Can't be depression, couldn't have it this long
    So many secrets I only told through a glass of Patron, my nigga
    Speaking of secrets, that's when I got the Kaylintext
    Read it and cried, couldn't believe what she was saying next
    She said "you're going through a lot
    I'm hoping you ain't in the grave and dead
    Cause not too many people know your brain's a mess"
    Who knew that she was keeping track of it all?
    I wrote back "lol" but wasn't laughing at all
    I ain't tell her just the other day that that gun was in my lap
    Pen and pad in my hand, and I was writing a note
    Didn't get far, as soon as I wrote down "mom" I just stopped
    Couldn't lie to her, couldn't figure out how to say bye to her
    Couldn't explain the "why" to her
    Couldn't picture her getting a call or somebody saying her son had died to her
    And shortly after that my pastor called
    Which at first I kinda thought it was weird
    But that convo preserved me, 'bout God's grace and mercy
    He ain't even say goodbye, he said "let us pray"
    And then he went into a prayer, gripped the phone, closed my eyes
    Just so happy he appeared nigga shed another tear
    Maybe he could sense that something had the god devoured
    Just thankful he shed some light upon my darkest hour
    All my thoughts are corrupt, this shit is whack
    If everybody calls you a duck, will you just quack?
    Guess a part of me really gives a fuck, way in the back
    Cause when I had that burner ready to bust, I didn't clap
    Joe
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human
    Guess I'm insanity's definition
    Trying to step over in sanity's repetition
    But I can't it got me tripping
    Whatever love we had was dead that night
    Looking back, we both needed cooler heads that night
    Was going off no sleep, eyes red that night
    While you was drunk texting me, I hope I read that right
    You was beefing bout Giselle, beefing bout Alexa
    Suddenly you was jealous, must've thought that I had sexed her
    I was laughing, thought it was funny
    Giselle's the homie, Alexa's twenty
    With hip withdrawals
    Nothing bout your story shoulda been sticking at all
    I wouldn't dick her at all
    I'm guessing, maybe you were insecure and never knew me
    Was there for four months, yet you said this was a new me
    In your head, guess the answer to this jealousy
    Was to turn around and try to make me jealous, B
    But the part that you neglect
    Was never mind jealousy, this was 'bout respect
    Y'all Instagramming pictures, trying to get me upset
    You turned that into a night we both would never forget
    We both said some things we both probably regret
    You was lying to my face and them dots didn't connect, but cool
    Only picked you up to try and talk sense into you
    Now I'm fucking homeboy up, just off the principle
    I guess he caught him self antagonizing me
    But he's a young nigga, that's no surprising me
    Shit I done fucked some of the baddest hoes
    I left shorty weeks ago, you can have this ho
    I guess the part where I lose
    Is now they got my face plastered all over the news, I'm being falsely accused
    And I don't understand, was this all part of a plan?
    I guess I'll tell the whole truth when on the stand
    How you go and tell the cops I had guns in my house?
    Now they got a search warrant, just to come to my house
    Question: were your feelings worth taking my tomorrow's, kid?
    And you know Jersey gun laws, I'm talking hollow tips
    So you can tell them niggas you roll with whatever you want
    But you and I know what's going on
    Nigga that whole night just replays in my mind
    Your face is fine, this is a big waste of time
    Let's get back to that jealousy
    Now you got a nigga facing three felonies
    All for what, cause we were no longer dealing
    You attack me, but I'm the villain, over a fucking iPhone and feelings
    Check, you never see me act like a jerk
    I know women will provoke you and get mad when it works
    Rather reserved and that always makes matters the worst
    Cause I go on about my business and not act like it hurts, but wait
    So now the whole world is watching me get burned here
    Which is fine, there's a lesson to be learned here
    Which is only fuck with strippers and the bartenders
    Anytime there's a pole in the bar centered
    So even though it's from afar now
    I still wish you the best, I know your heart's tender
    I'm sorry all, I just got my own scars to tend to
    Signing off, truly yours, with love, God's sinner
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human

  12. Calicoe 313

    Joe buttons thinks his some sort of above average rapper.There was a show called slaughter house Eminem put up everything the battle rappers had to live in one house togeather and each day two battlers had to battle and they just keep going till there’s one last last battler to survive who has to battle buttons.It was a 3rd battle and buttons did not have a single rd to say well it was 2-1.Do bad he got bodied bagged 3-0 And the guy he battled even said he wasn’t really in his bag Yhats Hollow tha don and Buttons he got 3-0 Said stuff battler rappers re easy to beat he learnt that pretty quick.

  13. Dezentz

    How have I only just found this song

  14. Timothy Olofson

    Emanny is A best kept secret.

  15. Timothy Olofson

    Wow, this is popular lol Joey is A Legend.

  16. Bruce Fizer

    Better late than never... Thank u Joe

  17. James Bartee

    I noticed that "New Joe Budden" tag is used on his podcast

    Skrap_Gap

    Yeah he's used it for years. Its Esther baxters son that recorded the drop when they were dating.

    90's Cloth

    You wasn't outside Clearly lol

  18. TheNdege1

    Someone out here understands what it feels like. Hold on, Rise Up. When you meet them, let the color of your blood be your bond, not your skin, not your creed nor your religion. We are only HUEMAN..

  19. Sedrick Bernard

    Whos Back here because of the podcast

  20. J3RDI1

    Genius level shit

  21. Montana Mugga

    One of da realist songs ever 👌🏿✔

  22. Nuraan Orain

    Powerful song
    #2019

  23. Billy Mo

    i love Em and Joey. Hate the fact they're not fond of each other cause i feel like they could create some great music. I wish Joey handled it all better, took some advice from his music and tell Diddy to kick rocks. With that said i also recognize the fact that if Em wrote this song it would be a major hit

  24. Dutchmaster412

    Joey!!!

  25. Rebaone Poo

    "But they act like I'm more than human"

  26. SenZ

    Mic check, mic check
    One two, one two
    New Joe Budden!
    Uhh
    Please somebody help my soul (x4)
    Talk to 'em (talk to 'em)
    I let the Man have a talk with the beast in me
    I'm holding onto my last bit of decency
    I need a vacay, a change of scenery
    But mama said wherever I'mma go, I'm taking me with me
    I told her shit is on my mind and it's been eating me
    She got me pissing in a cup, she don't believe in me
    It's not the drugs that got me out of my zone
    Going days without eating, in a crowd I feel alone, mama
    Then she ask why it seems I never sleep at night
    I told her when I close my eyes my brain just keeps the fight
    She said my friends wanna have an intervention with me
    I speak to niggas daily, that was never mentioned to me
    She told me there's a higher power and a lower power
    And that I'll die if I don't find the strength to overpower
    Then I replied, "well aren't we all"?
    She said "yeah, but that should be on God's terms, not yours"
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human
    Tryin' to weather the storm
    I thought that black cloud was gone
    It's been beside me all along, not the song
    I wanna sit in silence, don't speak for a minute
    Tired of being strong, please let me be weak for a minute
    Kinda thought that my disease tried to kill your man first
    It was easy to get my hands on 30 milligram Percs, worse
    Can't be depression, couldn't have it this long
    So many secrets I only told through a glass of Patron, my nigga
    Speaking of secrets, that's when I got the Kaylintext
    Read it and cried, couldn't believe what she was saying next
    She said "you're going through a lot
    I'm hoping you ain't in the grave and dead
    Cause not too many people know your brain's a mess"
    Who knew that she was keeping track of it all?
    I wrote back "lol" but wasn't laughing at all
    I ain't tell her just the other day that that gun was in my lap
    Pen and pad in my hand, and I was writing a note
    Didn't get far, as soon as I wrote down "mom" I just stopped
    Couldn't lie to her, couldn't figure out how to say bye to her
    Couldn't explain the "why" to her
    Couldn't picture her getting a call or somebody saying her son had died to her
    And shortly after that my pastor called
    Which at first I kinda thought it was weird
    But that convo preserved me, 'bout God's grace and mercy
    He ain't even say goodbye, he said "let us pray"
    And then he went into a prayer, gripped the phone, closed my eyes
    Just so happy he appeared nigga shed another tear
    Maybe he could sense that something had the god devoured
    Just thankful he shed some light upon my darkest hour
    All my thoughts are corrupt, this shit is whack
    If everybody calls you a duck, will you just quack?
    Guess a part of me really gives a fuck, way in the back
    Cause when I had that burner ready to bust, I didn't clap
    Joe
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human
    Guess I'm insanity's definition
    Trying to step over in sanity's repetition
    But I can't it got me tripping
    Whatever love we had was dead that night
    Looking back, we both needed cooler heads that night
    Was going off no sleep, eyes red that night
    While you was drunk texting me, I hope I read that right
    You was beefing bout Giselle, beefing bout Alexa
    Suddenly you was jealous, must've thought that I had sexed her
    I was laughing, thought it was funny
    Giselle's the homie, Alexa's twenty
    With hip withdrawals
    Nothing bout your story shoulda been sticking at all
    I wouldn't dick her at all
    I'm guessing, maybe you were insecure and never knew me
    Was there for four months, yet you said this was a new me
    In your head, guess the answer to this jealousy
    Was to turn around and try to make me jealous, B
    But the part that you neglect
    Was never mind jealousy, this was 'bout respect
    Y'all Instagramming pictures, trying to get me upset
    You turned that into a night we both would never forget
    We both said some things we both probably regret
    You was lying to my face and them dots didn't connect, but cool
    Only picked you up to try and talk sense into you
    Now I'm fucking homeboy up, just off the principle
    I guess he caught him self antagonizing me
    But he's a young nigga, that's no surprising me
    Shit I done fucked some of the baddest hoes
    I left shorty weeks ago, you can have this ho
    I guess the part where I lose
    Is now they got my face plastered all over the news, I'm being falsely accused
    And I don't understand, was this all part of a plan?
    I guess I'll tell the whole truth when on the stand
    How you go and tell the cops I had guns in my house?
    Now they got a search warrant, just to come to my house
    Question: were your feelings worth taking my tomorrow's, kid?
    And you know Jersey gun laws, I'm talking hollow tips
    So you can tell them niggas you roll with whatever you want
    But you and I know what's going on
    Nigga that whole night just replays in my mind
    Your face is fine, this is a big waste of time
    Let's get back to that jealousy
    Now you got a nigga facing three felonies
    All for what, cause we were no longer dealing
    You attack me, but I'm the villain, over a fucking iPhone and feelings
    Check, you never see me act like a jerk
    I know women will provoke you and get mad when it works
    Rather reserved and that always makes matters the worst
    Cause I go on about my business and not act like it hurts, but wait
    So now the whole world is watching me get burned here
    Which is fine, there's a lesson to be learned here
    Which is only fuck with strippers and the bartenders
    Anytime there's a pole in the bar centered
    So even though it's from afar now
    I still wish you the best, I know your heart's tender
    I'm sorry all, I just got my own scars to tend to
    Signing off, truly yours, with love, God's sinner
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human

  27. Cozman sibbs

    Which planet are you from bro........ you're so so gifted.........

  28. D.C

    This is different.. definitely slept on ..

  29. Ra Moon

    You know when emanny show up its bout to get real.

  30. Powerwordhug

    Tryin' to weather the storm
    I thought that black cloud was gone
    It's been beside me all along, not the song
    I wanna sit in silence, don't speak for a minute
    Tired of being strong, please let me be weak for a minute
    Kinda thought that my disease tried to kill your man first
    It was easy to get my hands on 30 milligram Percs, worse
    Can't be depression, couldn't have it this long
    So many secrets I only told through a glass of Patron,

  31. Lana Montana

    All up in my feels rn.. Am i the only 1? . I swear Joe writes his music for me .. I have never related so deeply to an artist til i found Joe .
    It's wild how real the words in his music ring true for me. Joe Budden kept me from killing myself at my lowest- i discovered his music by chance thank God cuz had i not had Some love lost & all love lost in particular (in addition to his other bangers) when i did i very well may not be here today
    Love u Budden xoxo

  32. Some ToMFoOLeRy

    Every time I seem to finally find happiness and peace in my life, it’s short lived and I always find myself coming back to this song. Sometimes I wonder if the cycle will ever stop. It’s exhausting.

  33. Ernest Frame

    Daily dose (04/19/19)

  34. Ernest Frame

    Emanny sounds kinda like R Kelly on the hook though.

  35. Ernest Frame

    My daily dose of joey gets me thru. 04/15/19

  36. jer bar

    DAMN you all are TRIPPIN

  37. ToInfinity AndYourMom

    Joe buddens music got me through my hard times because he put everything I've ever felt in every one of his songs. When I get a little bit of upset I listen to my music therapy music which consists of most his songs

  38. Connor Denton

    Joe's scream adlib at 3:00 gets me every time!

  39. I. R.

    😢😢😢😢😢

  40. Ameur Herkous

    Since I started listening to him , the meaning of rap has changed . only few can deliver real life lessons and emotion but Joe's blessed with this gift

    Dave J

    Ameur Herkous swear. It changed my views on a lot of people that i used to have in my top 3

  41. Ron Brown

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zXCfhdU7wVU

  42. Walter Waterz

    You never seen me act like a jerk
    I know women will provoke you, then get mad when it work.

  43. phuti tladi

    Thanks to this song i survived horrible situations in my life which might have let me take my life but i didnt and now im happy and i can testify that it thanks to this song

  44. John Gonzales

    The 2nd verse is out of this world. Im so thankful

  45. Grimz 928

    Joe is on that grown up shit.. we relate

  46. Yaboi Lil'Otaku

    Mic check, mic check
    One two, one two
    New Joe Budden!

    Uhh
    Please somebody help my soul (x4)
    Talk to 'em (talk to 'em)

    I let the Man have a talk with the beast in me
    I'm holding onto my last bit of decency
    I need a vacay, a change of scenery
    But mama said wherever I'mma go, I'm taking me with me
    I told her shit is on my mind and it's been eating me
    She got me pissing in a cup, she don't believe in me
    It's not the drugs that got me out of my zone
    Going days without eating, in a crowd I feel alone, mama
    Then she ask why it seems I never sleep at night
    I told her when I close my eyes my brain just keeps the fight
    She said my friends wanna have an intervention with me
    I speak to niggas daily, that was never mentioned to me
    She told me there's a higher power and a lower power
    And that I'll die if I don't find the strength to overpower
    Then I replied, "well aren't we all"?
    She said "yeah, but that should be on God's terms, not yours"

    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human

    Tryin' to weather the storm
    I thought that black cloud was gone
    It's been beside me all along, not the song
    I wanna sit in silence, don't speak for a minute
    Tired of being strong, please let me be weak for a minute
    Kinda thought that my disease tried to kill your man first
    It was easy to get my hands on 30 milligram Percs, worse
    Can't be depression, couldn't have it this long
    So many secrets I only told through a glass of Patron, my nigga
    Speaking of secrets, that's when I got the Kaylintext
    Read it and cried, couldn't believe what she was saying next
    She said "you're going through a lot
    I'm hoping you ain't in the grave and dead
    Cause not too many people know your brain's a mess"
    Who knew that she was keeping track of it all?
    I wrote back "lol" but wasn't laughing at all
    I ain't tell her just the other day that that gun was in my lap
    Pen and pad in my hand, and I was writing a note
    Didn't get far, as soon as I wrote down "mom" I just stopped
    Couldn't lie to her, couldn't figure out how to say bye to her
    Couldn't explain the "why" to her
    Couldn't picture her getting a call or somebody saying her son had died to her
    And shortly after that my pastor called
    Which at first I kinda thought it was weird
    But that convo preserved me, 'bout God's grace and mercy
    He ain't even say goodbye, he said "let us pray"
    And then he went into a prayer, gripped the phone, closed my eyes
    Just so happy he appeared nigga shed another tear
    Maybe he could sense that something had the god devoured
    Just thankful he shed some light upon my darkest hour
    All my thoughts are corrupt, this shit is whack
    If everybody calls you a duck, will you just quack?
    Guess a part of me really gives a fuck, way in the back
    Cause when I had that burner ready to bust, I didn't clap
    Joe

    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human

    Guess I'm insanity's definition
    Trying to step over in sanity's repetition
    But I can't it got me tripping
    Whatever love we had was dead that night
    Looking back, we both needed cooler heads that night
    Was going off no sleep, eyes red that night
    While you was drunk texting me, I hope I read that right
    You was beefing bout Giselle, beefing bout Alexa
    Suddenly you was jealous, must've thought that I had sexed her
    I was laughing, thought it was funny
    Giselle's the homie, Alexa's twenty
    With hip withdrawals
    Nothing bout your story shoulda been sticking at all
    I wouldn't dick her at all
    I'm guessing, maybe you were insecure and never knew me
    Was there for four months, yet you said this was a new me
    In your head, guess the answer to this jealousy
    Was to turn around and try to make me jealous, B
    But the part that you neglect
    Was never mind jealousy, this was 'bout respect
    Y'all Instagramming pictures, trying to get me upset
    You turned that into a night we both would never forget
    We both said some things we both probably regret
    You was lying to my face and them dots didn't connect, but cool
    Only picked you up to try and talk sense into you
    Now I'm fucking homeboy up, just off the principle
    I guess he caught him self antagonizing me
    But he's a young nigga, that's no surprising me
    Shit I done fucked some of the baddest hoes
    I left shorty weeks ago, you can have this ho
    I guess the part where I lose
    Is now they got my face plastered all over the news, I'm being falsely accused
    And I don't understand, was this all part of a plan?
    I guess I'll tell the whole truth when on the stand
    How you go and tell the cops I had guns in my house?
    Now they got a search warrant, just to come to my house
    Question: were your feelings worth taking my tomorrow's, kid?
    And you know Jersey gun laws, I'm talking hollow tips
    So you can tell them niggas you roll with whatever you want
    But you and I know what's going on
    Nigga that whole night just replays in my mind
    Your face is fine, this is a big waste of time
    Let's get back to that jealousy
    Now you got a nigga facing three felonies
    All for what, cause we were no longer dealing
    You attack me, but I'm the villain, over a fucking iPhone and feelings
    Check, you never see me act like a jerk
    I know women will provoke you and get mad when it works
    Rather reserved and that always makes matters the worst
    Cause I go on about my business and not act like it hurts, but wait
    So now the whole world is watching me get burned here
    Which is fine, there's a lesson to be learned here
    Which is only fuck with strippers and the bartenders
    Anytime there's a pole in the bar centered
    So even though it's from afar now
    I still wish you the best, I know your heart's tender
    I'm sorry all, I just got my own scars to tend to
    Signing off, truly yours, with love, God's sinner

    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human

    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human

  47. Christopher Johnson

    Some love lost is incredible but his All Love Lost is a masterpiece. Joe has been introspective since his debut but folks can't let that Pump it Up joke fade. It's a shame we don't have more rappers like this. Tsu Surf, Trev Rich, Ryshon Jones just to name a few. Thank me later.

    ancient aztec warrior

    this was on some love too, but i i personally like some more based off of tone, it damn near saved my life. i got the cover ttatted

  48. James

    Joe and AZ the most underrated

  49. Noir94

    6:20 - 7:07 the reason that im here

  50. SoHSmoove

    I listen to this atleast once a day 💯

  51. Hassium_108

    I let the Man have a talk with the beast in me
    I'm holding onto my last bit of decency
    I need a vacay, a change of scenery
    But mama said wherever I'ma go, I'm taking me with me
    I told her shit is on my mind and it's been eating me
    She got me pissing in a cup, she don't believe in me
    It's not the drugs that got me out of my zone
    Going days without eating, in a crowd I feel alone, mama
    Then she ask why it seems I never sleep at night
    I told her when I close my eyes my brain just keeps the fight
    She said my friends wanna have an intervention with me
    I speak to niggas daily, that was never mentioned to me
    She told me there's a higher power and a lower power
    And that I'll die if I don't find the strength to overpower
    Then I replied, "well aren't we all"?
    She said "yeah, but that should be on God's terms, not yours"

    [Chorus: Emanny]
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me, I'm only human

    [Verse 2: Joe Budden]
    Tryin' to weather the storm
    I thought that black cloud was gone
    It's been beside me all along, not the song
    I wanna sit in silence, don't speak for a minute
    Tired of being strong, please let me be weak for a minute
    Kinda thought that my disease tried to kill your man first
    It was easy to get my hands on 30 milligram Percs, worse
    Can't be depression, couldn't have it this long
    So many secrets I only told to a glass of Patron, my nigga
    Speaking of secrets, that's when I got the Kaylin text
    Read it and cried, couldn't believe what she was saying next
    She said "you're going through a lot
    I'm hoping you ain't in the grave and dead
    Cause not too many people know your brain's a mess"
    Who knew that she was keeping track of it all?
    I wrote back "lol" but wasn't laughing at all
    I ain't tell her just the other day that that gun was in my lap
    Pen and pad in my hand, and I was writing a note
    Didn't get far, as soon as I wrote down "mom" I just stopped
    Couldn't lie to her, couldn't figure out how to say bye to her
    Couldn't explain the "why" to her
    Couldn't picture her getting a call or somebody saying her son had died to her
    And shortly after that my pastor called
    Which at first I kinda thought it was weird
    But that convo preserved me, 'bout God's grace and mercy
    He ain't even say goodbye, he said "let us pray"
    And then he went into a prayer, gripped the phone, closed my eyes
    Just so happy he appeared, nigga shed another tear
    Maybe he could sense that something had the god devoured
    Just thankful he shed some light upon my darkest hour
    All my thoughts are corrupt, this shit is whack
    If everybody calls you a duck, will you just quack?
    Guess a part of me really gives a fuck, way in the back
    Cause when I had that burner ready to bust, I didn't clap
    Joe
    [Chorus: Emanny]
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me, I'm only human

    [Verse 3: Joe Budden]
    Guess I'm insanity's definition
    Trying to step over in sanity's repetition
    But I can't it got me tripping
    Whatever love we had was dead that night
    Looking back, we both needed cooler heads that night
    Was going off no sleep, eyes red that night
    While you was drunk texting me, I hope I read that right
    You was beefing bout Giselle, beefing bout Alexa
    Suddenly you was jealous, must've thought that I had sexed her
    I was laughing, thought it was funny
    Giselle's the homie, Alexa's twenty
    With hip withdrawals
    Nothing bout your story shoulda been sticking at all
    I wouldn't dick her at all
    I'm guessing, maybe you were insecure and never knew me
    Was there for four months, yet you said this was a new me
    In your head, guess the answer to this jealousy
    Was to turn around and try to make me jealous, B
    But the part that you neglect
    Was never mind jealousy, this was 'bout respect
    Y'all Instagramming pictures, trying to get me upset
    You turned that into a night we both would never forget
    We both said some things we both probably regret
    You was lying to my face and them dots didn't connect, but cool
    Only picked you up to try and talk sense into you
    Now I'm fucking homeboy up, just off the principle
    I guess he caught him self antagonizing me
    But he's a young nigga, that's no surprising me
    Shit I done fucked some of the baddest hoes
    I left shorty weeks ago, you can have this ho
    I guess the part where I lose
    Is now they got my face plastered all over the news, I'm being falsely accused
    And I don't understand, was this all part of a plan?
    I guess I'll tell the whole truth when on the stand
    How you go and tell the cops I had guns in my house?
    Now they got a search warrant, just to come to my house
    Question: were your feelings worth taking my tomorrow's, kid?
    And you know Jersey gun laws, I'm talking hollow tips
    So you can tell them niggas you roll with whatever you want
    But you and I know what's going on
    Nigga that whole night just replays in my mind
    Your face is fine, this is a big waste of time
    Let's get back to that jealousy
    Now you got a nigga facing three felonies
    All for what, cause we were no longer dealing
    You attack me, but I'm the villain, over a fucking iPhone and feelings
    Check, you never see me act like a jerk
    I know women will provoke you and get mad when it works
    Rather reserved and that always makes matters the worst
    Cause I go on about my business and not act like it hurts, but wait
    So now the whole world is watching me get burned here
    Which is fine, there's a lesson to be learned here
    Which is only fuck with strippers and the bartenders
    Anytime there's a pole in the bar centered
    So even though it's from afar now
    I still wish you the best, I know your heart's tender
    I'm sorry all, I just got my own scars to tend to
    Signing off, truly yours, with love, God's sinner
    [Chorus (Extended): Emanny]
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But he tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me, I'm only human
    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But he tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me, I'm only human

  52. Osiris Osiris

    how people sleep on this shit

  53. Rolando Cruz

    👍💯💪

  54. Adam Jorgensen

    Please somebody help my soul!!

  55. D.frmMiddside

    Mic check, mic check
    One two, one two
    New Joe Budden!

    Uhh
    Please somebody help my soul (x4)
    Talk to 'em (talk to 'em)

    I let the Man have a talk with the beast in me
    I'm holding onto my last bit of decency
    I need a vacay, a change of scenery
    But mama said wherever I'mma go, I'm taking me with me
    I told her shit is on my mind and it's been eating me
    She got me pissing in a cup, she don't believe in me
    It's not the drugs that got me out of my zone
    Going days without eating, in a crowd I feel alone, mama
    Then she ask why it seems I never sleep at night
    I told her when I close my eyes my brain just keeps the fight
    She said my friends wanna have an intervention with me
    I speak to niggas daily, that was never mentioned to me
    She told me there's a higher power and a lower power
    And that I'll die if I don't find the strength to overpower
    Then I replied, "well aren't we all"?
    She said "yeah, but that should be on God's terms, not yours"

    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human

    Tryin' to weather the storm
    I thought that black cloud was gone
    It's been beside me all along, not the song
    I wanna sit in silence, don't speak for a minute
    Tired of being strong, please let me be weak for a minute
    Kinda thought that my disease tried to kill your man first
    It was easy to get my hands on 30 milligram Percs, worse
    Can't be depression, couldn't have it this long
    So many secrets I only told through a glass of Patron, my nigga
    Speaking of secrets, that's when I got the Kaylintext
    Read it and cried, couldn't believe what she was saying next
    She said "you're going through a lot
    I'm hoping you ain't in the grave and dead
    Cause not too many people know your brain's a mess"
    Who knew that she was keeping track of it all?
    I wrote back "lol" but wasn't laughing at all
    I ain't tell her just the other day that that gun was in my lap
    Pen and pad in my hand, and I was writing a note
    Didn't get far, as soon as I wrote down "mom" I just stopped
    Couldn't lie to her, couldn't figure out how to say bye to her
    Couldn't explain the "why" to her
    Couldn't picture her getting a call or somebody saying her son had died to her
    And shortly after that my pastor called
    Which at first I kinda thought it was weird
    But that convo preserved me, 'bout God's grace and mercy
    He ain't even say goodbye, he said "let us pray"
    And then he went into a prayer, gripped the phone, closed my eyes
    Just so happy he appeared nigga shed another tear
    Maybe he could sense that something had the god devoured
    Just thankful he shed some light upon my darkest hour
    All my thoughts are corrupt, this shit is whack
    If everybody calls you a duck, will you just quack?
    Guess a part of me really gives a fuck, way in the back
    Cause when I had that burner ready to bust, I didn't clap
    Joe

    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human

    Guess I'm insanity's definition
    Trying to step over in sanity's repetition
    But I can't it got me tripping
    Whatever love we had was dead that night
    Looking back, we both needed cooler heads that night
    Was going off no sleep, eyes red that night
    While you was drunk texting me, I hope I read that right
    You was beefing bout Giselle, beefing bout Alexa
    Suddenly you was jealous, must've thought that I had sexed her
    I was laughing, thought it was funny
    Giselle's the homie, Alexa's twenty
    With hip withdrawals
    Nothing bout your story shoulda been sticking at all
    I wouldn't dick her at all
    I'm guessing, maybe you were insecure and never knew me
    Was there for four months, yet you said this was a new me
    In your head, guess the answer to this jealousy
    Was to turn around and try to make me jealous, B
    But the part that you neglect
    Was never mind jealousy, this was 'bout respect
    Y'all Instagramming pictures, trying to get me upset
    You turned that into a night we both would never forget
    We both said some things we both probably regret
    You was lying to my face and them dots didn't connect, but cool
    Only picked you up to try and talk sense into you
    Now I'm fucking homeboy up, just off the principle
    I guess he caught him self antagonizing me
    But he's a young nigga, that's no surprising me
    Shit I done fucked some of the baddest hoes
    I left shorty weeks ago, you can have this ho
    I guess the part where I lose
    Is now they got my face plastered all over the news, I'm being falsely accused
    And I don't understand, was this all part of a plan?
    I guess I'll tell the whole truth when on the stand
    How you go and tell the cops I had guns in my house?
    Now they got a search warrant, just to come to my house
    Question: were your feelings worth taking my tomorrow's, kid?
    And you know Jersey gun laws, I'm talking hollow tips
    So you can tell them niggas you roll with whatever you want
    But you and I know what's going on
    Nigga that whole night just replays in my mind
    Your face is fine, this is a big waste of time
    Let's get back to that jealousy
    Now you got a nigga facing three felonies
    All for what, cause we were no longer dealing
    You attack me, but I'm the villain, over a fucking iPhone and feelings
    Check, you never see me act like a jerk
    I know women will provoke you and get mad when it works
    Rather reserved and that always makes matters the worst
    Cause I go on about my business and not act like it hurts, but wait
    So now the whole world is watching me get burned here
    Which is fine, there's a lesson to be learned here
    Which is only fuck with strippers and the bartenders
    Anytime there's a pole in the bar centered
    So even though it's from afar now
    I still wish you the best, I know your heart's tender
    I'm sorry all, I just got my own scars to tend to
    Signing off, truly yours, with love, God's sinner

    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human

    My every thought is scary
    And it makes it hard to breathe again
    Like I'm blinded while I'm staring in the mirror
    Asking God to help me see again, please help me
    But He tells me I'm only human
    And that I'll be back on my feet again, please help me
    But they act like I'm more than human
    I prove them wrong again
    Don't fault me I'm only human

  56. -ZEN-

    Yup! Definitely part of the contribution that's better than Eminem in the past decade.

  57. Michael Crabb

    Most under rated rapper. He speaks the truth! Sad but real recognize real!!!

  58. Aychef

    The most powerful song ever recorded

  59. Mr. Clown

    "I wrote back lol but wasn't laughing at all" well that's a lyric that fits my life. Damn.

    TheEndo-SymArmor

    That hit me hard😭😭😭😭😭

  60. Justin Bee

    This album is amazing! Every song is quality!

  61. chrisNdee LEON

    This right here, took the words right out my mouth 😟

  62. King B

    “I wanna sit in silence don’t speak for a minute...Tired of being strong please let me be weak for a minute.” Exactly how I feel...no one seem to understand.

    Random Name

    When you got to be strong for everybody around You cus they struggling, but the fucked up part is you also struggling. I get it my guy, I understand it 100%.

    Harley Weedwax

    who gonna support the person who supports everybody? my dad used to say that & I know what he means now Ive helped so many advance in life that dont even care to know my fav color , never call to check on me ,etc

  63. God in My DNA

    My life in a sentences.
    Thanks Joe

  64. sixmillion pesoman

    I cried so much listening to this song....joe is the only one to make me feel his heart through the music. We are lucky that god has given him a second chance and didn’t let him pull the trigger

  65. Samuel Beneche

    I wonder why this song is under 500k views, oh yeah it's not gibberish. That's straight 🔥

  66. Hair by Tha Royal Dutchezz Dutch

    Still joey! 👌🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 Incredible!

  67. Jose Flores

    I hate that I still relate years later smh God help me please

  68. zodiac

    Shout outs to Joe Budden, these rappers they really don't know nothing

  69. Iso Joe

    Nn nnnn Nn n nnn NEW JOE BUDDEN!!

  70. Iso Joe

    Yo Joe jokes around like a crakhead on his podcast sometimes lmao but this is some deep stuff 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

  71. Shay S

    Goosebumps shit relates

  72. joel rojas

    This song is an almost exact replica of my life. The all love lost album changed my life.

  73. 90's Cloth

    I'm a artist who loves lyrics but you gotta appreciate what emanny was doing at 7:08 & after this dude was showing off, if you understand breath control and the amount of times he switched his pitches or his notes or octaves whatever you wanna call it up, youll see the beauty in that

  74. Sphephelo Bheka

    i am from japan but this track drives me crazy

  75. Jacabo Blanco

    Joe and Emanny were made to make music together. Every single of their tracks is a fucking classic.

    Christopher Johnson

    It's unfortunate that Joe retired, his music is truly remarkable.

  76. gordochulo78

    Song is raw uncut lyrics with a lot of feeling.....joe they will never understand your lyrics

  77. Sadie Masai

    He is one of the most slept on artist ever!!! 👑💎🔥

  78. Shawn Grunbaum

    Brings up painful memories. If anything, this music helps me get past it, or at least cope with it.

  79. Ana Angelica Sanchez

    this song gives me goosebumps everytime I hear it

  80. quitblazing

    https://youtu.be/i6etOfB_H5E

  81. Jamal Rozier

    I relate on many levels!! Joey is the 🐐

  82. Curtis Jackson

    The emotions this evokes in me gives me the chills

  83. Dramahawk Promotions

    love this

  84. Sibz Jakuja

    Joe Budden saved my life

  85. Sibz Jakuja

    Joe budden saved my life

  86. Meenz

    "I ain't tell her just the other day that that gun was in my lap
    Pen and pad in my hand, and I was writing a note
    Didn't get far, as soon as I wrote down "mom" I just stopped
    Couldn't lie to her, couldn't figure out how to say bye to her
    Couldn't explain the "why" to her
    Couldn't picture her getting a call or somebody saying her son had died to her"
    shit gets me every time

    Iso Joe

    Meenz Music thats some gems right there. Puts into perspective what you leave behind when you doe or even more unfortunate you take your own life.

    Meenz

    Ghost Note straight facts. Joe always talking real shit

    farrellcityking1

    The pain it takes to make this into a song is incredible.

    zach lajoie

    "I guess a part of gives a fuck way in the back because when i had that burner pressed i didnt clap"
    Joey really has spoken alot to me in the past 10 yrs
    Hes helped me through me n babymoms break up and right after that my mom died joey has helped me overcome the depression...

    zach lajoie

    Big facts

  87. Prod. Stress

    Nobodys music has ever quite spoken to my soul like Joey's!!

  88. Edwin H

    When the second verse comes on at work or wherever I always lose track of time and just focus on that the most. Leaves you speechless and choked up when you can relate to certain parts. I get so mad when people diss joe. He has given more in life than he knows.

  89. ONMYOWN UP

    💯🔥💯🔥

  90. Michael Sangobanwo

    "You never see me act like a jerk, I know women will provoke you and get mad when it works which makes matters the worse"

    Joekuh

    I feel this on a SPIRITUAL level!!!!!

  91. Brother Humble

    Joe u got me through a lot

  92. Charles Page

    This song honestly has saved my life on more than one occasion. “As soon as I wrote down Mom I just stopped”

    Justin Bee

    Charles Page Very deep that line!

    Paul Fearon

    I hope all is well with you.

  93. Liam 'LeRoy' Mcghie

    I hear tupac thru this, fkn love it joey

  94. Brian Letlhabane

    something needs to happen to you for you to even think of finding this song. Joe. Thanks for making this song. Your understanding of relationships is out of this world

    Justin Bee

    Brian Letlhabane very true!

  95. OzzyKamikaze Zzzz

    This is what joey does best, we all looking at the same thing (music) we just got different perspectives. Thank u budden! U showed me threw Ur songs, helped me cry and find what it's to be a real RAPPER!

  96. Sean Callahan

    hollow da don u won the a audience was fake nigga had no bars dancing around the stage like he was dancing w da stars

  97. Sean Callahan

    Joe hands down u the best. stacks to. ransom was a beast and u scorched him. 201

  98. Jacob Castle

    CAN SOMEONE PLEASE FIND THE INSTRUMENTAL TO THIS