Hotel Books - I'm Almost Happy Here Lyrics






I think I'm almost happy here
But I will never regret venturing despite fear
Because everyone wanted me to see that we could not thrive
So if this is reality, then I guess I don't regret the nights I thought that I had died
Cause sometimes I feel like nothing, and nothing ever changes when changes consume me through these changing stages
Everything we could have done differently is now just a memory
And the love I hoped for is hanging on a rope and it's funny how artistic we become when our hearts are broken
Through this constant collapse, the thought of relapse

I guess it's safe to throw our bones back in the sea
I guess it's safe to throw our bones back in the sea

With this saltwater for blood and fear of falling in love
I'm almost happy here but I'm still moving
I just want us to run wild, young beauty
Because I always thought I would be okay, and some days I still feel the same, but everyday the same way I feel afraid to embrace grace
Cause I know I don't deserve it
And I know that I can't earn this, and I know that I can hurt this heart that I have grown within
But it's a a given to even someone as sick as me
Now I can breathe seeing that I'm not living in apathy

So I guess we'll throw our bones back into the sea
I guess it's safe to throw our bones back into the sea

Come with me
And I hope I stay alive because ghosts can't love through this broke love and turn to above
In a quick dash, feel the impact on this car crash, and pray to God I can be forgiven and have my friends back
Where we sleep is where we dream, and I haven't slept for days
REM cycles are a memory of when I was sitting in a dorm room, thinking of how much greener the grass would be if I became a touring act someday
But now I'm dreaming or sinking, most nights they feel the same since I can lose one friend, lose all friends and still not keep those demons at bay
And I said all my friends are trees, with the roots in the earth, what hurts is that the branches in a community, we've labeled our hearts into a collective scene, into a collective faithless dream of empty courage and empty hearts
Hollow light, hollow lovers, always falling apart
So I'll love life and let go and try my best to understand there's nothing new to know
Though I didn't say it's true, I still feel the same, like I died with you
And I feel the strain, taking two steps back on these wooden floorboards, I'll beg for more, and pray this isn't just a retrospective moment
Not just a soul begging for catharsis, but rather the start of a new me and a real movement

God forgive me





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  1. i.... t....

    I just want us to run wild, young beauty...

  2. x.... t....

    "It's funny how artistic we become when our hearts are broken"


    *screams*

  3. D.... N....

    This band has invoked so many spiritual moments in my life. I wish I had more people that could listen to this and enjoy the moment with me.

  4. Y.... L....

    All the song titles in this song

  5. A.... H....

    THIS IS A HOLY EXPERIENCE IM NOT CRYING YOURE CRYING

  6. T.... M....

    love how a lot of the old songs are brought together to make a masterpiece

  7. G.... C....

    Goosebumps for 3 years

  8. T.... D....

    I'm waiting for him to sing but it never happens.

  9. G.... R....

    i just want us to run wild young beauty

  10. N.... M....

    I still...fucking...miss you...

  11. N.... M....

    I fucking miss you Issy...

  12. C.... L....

    I love how he mixed all his older tracks in this 💯❤

  13. T.... M....

    i like this song, he reads the lyrics not by singing, but by speaking.

  14. C.... P....

    If you like Hotel Books, you should check this out!!! https://soundcloud.com/user-577429566/love-me-or-hate-me

  15. C.... P....

    If you like Hotel Books, you should check this out. https://soundcloud.com/user-577429566/i-love-you-1

  16. D.... G....

    "...almost held failed potential;
    that it represented our ability to be just not good enough; that we had come to the brink of something beautiful, but fell short so many times, we crafted a word for it…"

  17. J.... R....

    tears tears tears

  18. K.... S....

    This is the song you use to intro your friends to Hotel Books cuz he references all his popular songs

  19. I.... C....

    My favorite song is still mm/dd/yyyy. Such a powerful song!

  20. B.... D....

    I like all the nods to all the past songs

  21. J.... R....

    Absolutely amazing. Cam smith never disappoints. This is probably my favorite spoken piece of work I️ have ever heard.

  22. S.... ....

    I ordered my copy of the album today ❤️❤️❤️

  23. R.... D....

    I was interested when I met him at a concert that he played at. It was different.

  24. M.... L....

    Cam is so talented

  25. B.... J....

    SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL

  26. E.... ....

    Fuck this is so good.

  27. m.... s....

    I seriously love how he incorporates old song lyrics into almost all his songs! So amazing!!!

  28. M.... S....

    it's like one day Cam just decided to see how many of his old song titles he can sensibly put in one song

  29. d.... d....

    This speaks to my soul

  30. D.... D....

    Just met him literally 30 min ago....he is the chillest person ever and just looking at him made me happy <3

  31. B.... P....

    Literally in love. Can't wait for the album to come out.

  32. S.... F....

    I think I'm almost happy here but I will never regret venturing despite fear, because everyone wanted me to see that we could not thrive so if this is reality, then I guess I don't regret the nights I thought that I had died cause sometimes I feel like nothing and nothing ever changes when changes consume me through these changing stages everything we could have done differently is now just a memory, and the love I hoped for is hanging on a rope and it's funny how artistic we become when our hearts are broken through this constant collapse and thought of relapse I guess it's safe to throw our bones back in the sea I guess it's safe to throw our bones back in the sea, with this salt water for blood and fear of falling in love I'm almost happy here but I'm still moving I just want us to run wild young beauty, because I always thought I would be okay and somedays I still feel the same but everyday the sameway I feel afraid to embrace grace cause I know I don't deserve it and I know that I can't earn this and I know that I can hurt this heart that I have grown within but it's a given that even someone as sick as me now that I can breath seeing that I'm not living in apathy so I guess we'll throw our bones back into the sea, I guess it's safe to throw our bones back into the sea (come with me) and I hope I stay alive cause ghosts can't love through this broke love and turn to above and a quick dash feel the impact on this car crash and pray to god I can be forgiven and have my friends back, where we sleep is where we dream and I haven't slept for days rem-cycles are a memory of when I was sitting in a dorm room thinking of how much greener the grass would be if I became a touring act someday but now I'm dreaming or sinking most nights they feel the same since I can lose one friend lose all friends and still not keep those demons at bay and I said all my friends are trees with roots in the earth what hurts is the branches in the community we've labeled our hearts into a collective scene into a collective faithless dream of empty courage and empty hearts, hollow light hollow lovers always falling apart so I'll love life and let go and try my best to understand theres nothing new to know, though I didn't say it's true I still feel the same like I died with you and I feel the strain taking two steps back on these wooden floorboards I'll beg for more and pray this isn't just a retrospective moment not just a soul begging for catharsis but rather the start of a new me and a real movement. GOD FORGIVE ME.

  33. B.... ....

    I feel like i know this song due to all the references

  34. B.... ....

    I'm almost happy Cam, thanks to yourself and Hotel Books for everything you've done for myself and thousands of people who take in every word you say to us.

  35. I.... B....

    Love all the references to your older songs. 💕

  36. T.... A....

    Once again, he’s created a goddamn masterpiece. He deserves to be on the radio NOW. ❤️

  37. A.... H....

    I hold this band so close to my heart <3

  38. D.... ....

    Also sounds like Nicole

    D.... ....

    if you mean nicole as in ex-twiabp, one hundred year ocean nicole, i'm very happy i'm not the only person who thinks this

  39. D.... ....

    And I love how he uses older references and explains how.he feels about them now

  40. D.... ....

    Note just The lyrics but also the begging sounds like July and august

  41. B.... ....

    It's finally become a full circle with all these nods to the very beginning

  42. A.... ....

    What the fuck

  43. I.... I....

    This was an epic journey through the entire Hotel Books catalogue. Starting with essentially a Nicole part 2, absolutely beautiful. All the hours of listening to their songs made this song that much better.

  44. p.... ....

    I loved hearing this live last Wednesday and I'm glad I get to hear it again <3 Love to everyone who's here, and love to anyone who's been hurt. No matter how painful something in your life is, no matter how painful life itself is, you'll find solace in something, you'll find something or someone who's able to make you feel more than you've ever felt before. You'll feel better, until then, just wait until the future, and do what makes you happy in the time being. <3 Jah bless <3

  45. H.... A....

    Omfg this is beautiful omfg 😭

  46. T.... K....

    Every single song makes me cry god damn it.

  47. L.... ....

    My friend just told me she loves me but she can't be with me because her head says no but her heart says yes... going to listen to this song on repeat 🖤

  48. C.... A....

    Everything y’all put out I definitely relate to...

  49. B.... B....

    FHE AMOUNTS OF REFERENCES TO OLD SONGS OH MY GOD

  50. S.... ....

    This is like a combination of all hotel book's songs.... Perfection, im out of words

  51. j.... ....

    love this

  52. C.... B....

    lyrics



    I think I'm almost happy here, but I will never regret venturing despite fear
    Because everyone wanted me to see that we could not thrive, so if this is reality, then I guess I don't regret the nights I thought that I had died
    Cause sometimes I feel like nothing, and nothing ever changes when changes consume me through these changing stages
    Everything we could have done differently is now just a memory
    And the love I hoped for is hanging on a rope and it's funny how artistic we become when our hearts are broken
    Through this constant collapse, the thought of relapse

    I guess it's safe to throw our bones back into the sea
    I guess it's safe to throw our bones back in the sea

    With this saltwater for blood and fear of falling in love, I'm almost happy here but I'm still moving
    I just want us to run wild, young beauty
    Because I always thought I would be okay, and some days I still feel the same, but everyday the same way I feel afraid to embrace grace, cause I know I don't deserve it
    And I know that I can't earn this, and I know that I can hurt this heart that I have grown within
    But it's a a given to even someone as sick as me
    Now I can breathe seeing that I'm not living in apathy

    So I guess we'll throw our bones back into the sea
    I guess it's safe to throw our bones back into the sea

    Come with me
    And I hope I stay alive because ghosts can't love through this broke love and turn to above
    In a quick dash, feel the impact on this car crash, and pray to God I can be forgiven and have my friends back
    Where we sleep is where we dream, and I haven't slept for days
    REM cycles are a memory of when I was sitting in a dorm room, thinking of how much greener the grass would be if I became a touring act some day
    But now I'm dreaming or sinking, most nights they feel the same since I can lose one friend, lose all friends and still not keep those demons at bay
    And I said all my friends are trees, with the roots in the earth, what hurts is that the branches in a community, we've labeled our hearts into a collective seam, into a collective faithless dream of empty courage and empty hearts
    Hollow light, hollow lovers, always falling apart. So I'll love life and let go and try my best to understand there's nothing new to know
    Though I didn't say it's true, I still feel the same, like I died with you. And I feel the strain, taking two steps back on these wooden floorboards, I'll beg for more, and pray this isn't just a retrospective moment. Not just a soul begging for catharsis, but rather the start of a new me and a real movement
    God forgive me

    C.... B....

    Carolin Baker you the real MVP

    C.... B....

    Thank youu

  53. E.... T....

    Ma hart, ma soul

  54. L.... ....

    Love love love. As always.

  55. R.... E....

    Just another comment talking about how he put old song references in here.

  56. l.... a....

    Holy shit, did anyone any one else get really excited when they heard all the song titles being used right on top of one another like this !!!¡

  57. d.... b....

    I love them, so much.

  58. B.... ....

    I’m so emo ?? Fucking bless you Cam ❤️

  59. T.... ....

    something new intertwined with some things old, good as always n yet :(((

  60. M.... ....

    pray this isnt just a retrospective moment, not just a soul begging for catharsis, but rather the start of a new me and a real movement

  61. D.... A....

    Has someone got lyrics for this please ? :D

  62. G.... H....

    Freaking hotel books

  63. S.... G....

    once again, never clicked on a video faster.
    hotel books you continue to deliver masterpieces.

    S.... G....

    Saarah Gilbert Ditto.

    S.... G....

    I saw this for second and clicked on it

  64. T.... ....

    Hotel Books is love, Hotel Books is life. ❤

  65. S.... ....

    This is such an amazing band. I’m so excited for this album

  66. M.... ....

    there's parts of older songs in this, omg i loved it

  67. S.... E....

    This is what i need right now. i just know that my ex are married a few months ago and having a baby soon. thanks cam 😭

  68. M.... ....

    I love the nods to old songs in this. Beautiful track, guys. You never disappoint.

    M.... ....

    right?? the whole song gave me goosebumps but those parts. Oh my god.

    M.... ....

    I love your remixes!!

  69. d.... p....

    i swear Hotel Books never disappoints 😭🙌🏽

  70. T.... G....

    I love that he put old song titles and heavy lyrics from each song into this

  71. B.... I....

    Ugh my heart.

  72. G.... F....

    One of my favorite groups, glad they released another single.

  73. P.... ....

    My eyes are sweating

  74. N.... B....

    i love how the lyrics allude to old tracks 🌻

  75. J.... R....

    I'm not crying, it's just raining a lot over here.