Hotel Books - From Porterville Lyrics






There's a solution to every problem
I want us together and I love you
And I don't want you to leave because we're here together
We're not gonna make it out alive without each other
Please don't go
Stay

I chased away a prophecy cause there's a side of me that subscribes to thrive in apathy
This blasphemy redeemed the seams inside of me
Feeling better for the red letters and the sake of breaking from the fair weather to fulfill my capacity
When my love for anything is a mirage of joy with petty jokes and laughing
I wanted to be the next prophet, but once I got sick I started chasing prophets
Performing for an audience and plotting this artifice of sacrifice and rolling dice to silence a mistress kissing the lips of a nihilist
Every secret I ever had is back on a discount rack for sale to a consumer that doesn't know any better living in this fair weather
Cause I can't love anything that doesn't look like me, but doesn't love like you
And I learned to love Jesus before I learned to love me
And now I can see why I have this fast paced, in-your-face approach grace, but no self esteem
So I desperately sing
One time for the sake of payment
One time for the sake of rendering
One time for the sake of self-proclamation but saying it's all for ministry
Hindering the [?] of the petty weeks I spent writing and fighting the silence
The past doesn't change because the future tells it to and I'm telling you I'm selling you the swelling youth in melting skin within this dim-lit broken fist to finally balance salute
Cause I love you
And I fed us all truth, made another excuse
Cause it's easier to say I love you too than to point blank say I love you
It's nothing but a broken melody and I'm sorry but I'm still listening
Cause I was not smart enough to question this, but I was foolish enough to try
Once we get honest, it's so pretentious, but watered down is so cowardice
And I'm a little bit of both
Just trying to push a boulder over a mountain just to watch it fall
Praying to God it doesn't fall again
Every thought that ate me alive was published for public consumption
Is there anything more pathetic than packaging honesty as entertainment?
Existing extremes feeding pain and big dreams were the epitome of self hate or were the epitome of self praise
And none of us know what love means
So darling salt the wound so I won't forget that every moment I'm not with you is a moment I'm in regret
And I love you now but I won't know you when I'm dead
Cause the response to a generation that did too little was to do too much now we're both sick
Cause I saw when you were drowning I was wearing a grin
So I'll leave you now before the thick of it
Cause darling I can promise you this:
I love you, but I'm also sick
And I hope you can see some day this will make sense like back when I told you I was old
I was told I would make some money
We'll shove out another hit and call it 'Nicole'
And every echo needs a voice and every echo has a choice
But I didn't choose you





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  1. R.... T....

    You can't be a real emotional masochist if you aren't listening to this band

  2. x.... J....

    Bro this band has helped me in so many ways, they saved my life....I wish there was some sort of a way to show my appreciation to them

  3. M.... ....

    I just found this band from pandora and I absolutely love them

  4. J.... T....

    Being born and living in Porterville all I gotta say is thank you Cam.. you’re going places. Just kudos for remembering where you’re from. Only seen you two times. Intersection lights of Main St. & Henderson. The other was at Target. Didn’t get a chance to say hey :/

  5. H.... i....

    Holy shit the beginning of this song gives me chills

  6. n.... v....

    [Intro]
    There's a solution to every problem
    We're in this together and I love you
    And I don't want you to leave because we're here together
    We're not gonna make it out alive without each other
    Please don't go
    Stay

    [Verse 1]
    I chased away a prophecy 'cause there's a side of me that subscribes to thrive in apathy
    This blasphemy redeemed the seams inside of me
    Feeling better for the red letters and the sake of breaking from the fair weather to fulfill my capacity
    When my love for anything is a mirage of joy with petty jokes and laughing
    I wanted to be the next prophet, but once I got sick I started chasing prophets
    Performing for an audience and plotting this artifice of sacrifice and rolling dice to silence the mistress kissing the lips of a nihilist
    Every secret I've ever had is back on a discount rack for sale to a consumer that doesn't know any better living in this fair weather
    Cause I can't love anything that doesn't look like me, but doesn't love like you
    And I learned to love Jesus before I learned to love me
    And now I can see why I have this fast paced, in-your-face approach to grace, but no self esteem
    So I desperately sing
    One time for the sake of payment
    One time for the sake of rendering
    One time for the sake of self-proclamation but saying it's all for ministry
    Hindering the [?] of the petty weeks I spent writing and fighting the silence
    The past doesn't change because the future tells it to and I'm telling you I'm selling you the swelling youth in melting skin within this dim-lit broken fist to finally balance salute
    'Cause I love you
    And I fed us all truth, made another excuse
    'Cause it's easier to say "I love you too" than to point blank say "I love you"
    It's nothing but a broken melody, and I'm sorry but I'm still listening
    'Cause I was not smart enough to question this, but I was foolish enough to try
    Once we get honest, it's so pretentious, but watered down is so cowardice
    And I'm a little bit of both
    Just trying to push a boulder over a mountain just to watch it fall
    Praying to God it doesn't fall again
    Every thought that ate me alive was published for public consumption
    Is there anything more pathetic than packaging honesty as entertainment?
    Existing extremes feeding pain and big dreams we're the epitome of self hate or we're the epitome of self praise
    And none of us know what love means
    So darling salt the wound so I won't forget that every moment I'm not with you is a moment I'm in regret
    And I love you now but I won't know you when I'm dead
    'Cause the response to a generation that did too little was to do too much now we're both sick
    'Cause I saw when you were drowning I was wearing a grin
    So I'll leave you now before the thick of it
    'Cause darling I can promise you this:
    I love you, but I'm also sick
    And I hope you can see some day this will make sense like back when I told you I was old
    I was told I would make some money
    We'll shove out another hit and call it 'Nicole'
    And every echo needs a voice and every echo has a choice
    But I didn't choose you

  7. A.... L....

    I still think about who i was the last summer-old gray.

  8. L.... ....

    "Every thought that ate me alive was published for public consumption, is there anything more pathetic than packaging honesty as entertainment?"
    "I was told I would make some money, we'll shove out another hit and call it 'Nicole'."

  9. A.... S....

    This is beautiful... I can´t stop crying

  10. S.... P....

    hello i need friends im lonely

  11. H.... ....

    First time hearing this song, love it! right in the feels man, hotel books never disappoints.

  12. l.... ....

    i've been listening to hotel books for 3 years and despite me loving every single one of their songs, this one has to be my favorite. i can't wait to listen to the whole album, especially since their music seemingly numbs the pain and i've been going through a really tough time. anyhoo, everyone have a good day out there!

  13. C.... J....

    SO DEEP

  14. w.... o....

    f i n a l l y

  15. �.... ....

    OHOHHOGOFIGJSJC I WAS LEAVING MY EMO PHASE BUT *N E V E R M I N D*

    �.... ....

    charleigh penn ME TOO BITCH OMG

  16. M.... K....

    I'm so confused is this a new album??

    M.... K....

    Root well then what's it called??

    M.... K....

    john smith yes your stupid

    M.... K....

    NightBladeBlood you're**

    M.... K....

    john smith called equivalency

  17. J.... ....

    I love this 😢

  18. t.... ....

    YEEESSS

  19. H.... a....

    Omgomgomgogomgomgogmgomg i love it!!!!!!!

  20. T.... B....

    I love this song so much 😥❤

  21. M.... H....

    First i luv yall <3

  22. A.... ....

    OOF! MY HEART