Hamasaki, Ayumi - (Miss)understood Lyrics

[Romanized:]

Daijoubu da tte iikikasete
Tokui no egao ni kirikaeru
Nageyari da tte iu n ja naku te
Hirakinaotta tte iu kankaku

Furueru te o kakushita no wa
Doujou ga samu sugiru kara

Chuutohanpa de misekake dake no
Nukumori nanka ja atatamara nai
Sore nara isso minai furi shite
Atokata mo naku kudakechiru made

Imasara kireigoto da nante
Kiku tsumori mo iu tsumori mo nai
Itami wa fueru ippou darou
Nara ba uketomete iku made sa

Kowai kurai sunda kuuki wa
Arashi ga kuru mae no shizukesa

Shinsetsu sou na ano hitobito wa
Hontou wa nani o shiri tai no darou
Yasashige na me no oku ni surudoi
Kouki to iu na no naifu kakushite

Kimi wa ittai nani ga hoshii no
Kimi wa ittai nani o negau no
Kimi wa ittai doko o mezasu no
Soshite soko e wa dare to mukau no

Kimi ga kimi de ikirareru no wa
Saisho de saigo kono ichido dake
Ookina chizu o hirogeta ato wa
Kimi dake no michi o egake ba ii

[Japanese:]

大丈夫だって言い聞かせて
得意の笑顔に切り替える
投げやりだっていうんじゃなくて
開き直ったっていう感覚

震える手を隠したのは
同情がさむすぎるから

中途半端で見せかけだけの
温もりなんかじゃ暖まらない
そらならいっそ見ないフリして
跡形もなく砕け散るまで

今更きれい事だなんて
聞くつもりも言うつもりもない
痛みは増える一方だろう
ならば受け止めて行くまでさ

こわいくらい澄んだ空気は
嵐が来る前の静けさ

親切そうなあの人々は
本当は何を知りたいのだろう
優しげな目の奥に鋭い
好奇のいう名のナイフ隠して

君は一体何が欲しいの
君は一体何を願うの
君は一体どこを目指すの
そしてそこへは誰と向かうの

君が君で生きられるのは
最初で最後この一度だけ
大きな地図を広げた後は
君だけの道を描けばいい

[English translation:]

I convinced them that I'm OK
And showed my usual, practiced smile
Not like in an aloof manner
But a feeling of audacity

The reason I hid my trembling hand was
Because their sympathy was so hollow

The half-hearted and superficial
Warmth can't warm me up
I rather want them to pretend not to look
Until I crumble away without a trace

By now, I don't have any intention
Of hearing nor speaking eloquent sounding words
The pain will probably only be spreading
So all I need is to go and accept it

The dreadfully clear air
Is the calm before the storm

Those people who seem so kind
What do they really want to know
Deep beneath their seemingly gentle eyes
They hide the sharp knife of curiosity

What exactly do you want?
What exactly do you wish for?
Where exactly do you aim for?
And with whom will you head there?

For you to be able to live as yourself
This is the first and last, this one time
After spreading out a big map
You should draw a path just for yourself