Dear Evan Hansen Cast - So Big / So Small Lyrics

I cried when i first heard this song

Maybe it was the buildup, maybe it's personal experience, but THIS song is where I lost it. Ahh, I just don't understand. I hated my mom. Why is this getting to me?

Everytime i hear this song i imagine how important my mother is to me. ❤️❤️

"Is there another truck coming to our driveway? A truck coming to take mommy away..?

DAMN IT EVAN, YOU'VE ALREADY MADE ME CRY *ENOUGH.*

I cry every time I listen to this song because my dad left and he cheated on my mom and me and my brother remember the moving truck out side and the day they got divorced was in February and I am dying and we had a big house and the only thing my mom remembers of the house was when he left it was so much bigger and she felt smaller and the line that is him asking if another truck would take her is so sad because my brother asked her is since she was just diagnosed with cancer if a different truck would take her so this song really hits home for me and to the person who wrote it just why

Also my mom apologizes every day for not being enough for me and my brother and it breaks my heart every day

as the child of a single mother, this song really hits close to home. especially when we argue

I hope my mum will be there for the day when it all feels small.

my sister is singing along to ocean eyes while i listen to this song
my heart hurts
sis please shut up

dont imagine your abusive mom whom your dad divorced gr exactly that reason singing this to you to apolagize for all the shit shes ever done ok dont do that

"A truck that will take mommy away?"
That was it.
That was my breaking point.
I cried like a dude shouldn't ever cry.
Ugly, ugly sobbing.

Didn't cry before that.
Also cried again when
"Did you fall? Or did you let go?"

The saddest thing about this is that after the second part of Words Fail, Evan was going to kill himself. This is when he told his mother about it and she was preventing it

You guys are real downers.

Go hug your favorite people

you know, when I first watched this from my laptop I didn't cry. Why? I was too focused on the coincidence that I had also recently talked with my mom that I thought of committing suicide, and we cried and talked and hugged, like this scene. So my thoughts were more on, "Hah. Good thing I procrastinated on watching this. Because if I had watched this BEFORE I talked to my mom, a part of my attention will be spent thinking about the musical instead of fully on what was happening." So I was too busy feeling a bit thankful to the universe/coincidence, and it lessened the sadness in the song.


Now I listened again and I had tears in my eyes.

the first time listen to this i cried :[

This song makes me appreciate my mom even more for everything she’s done and how she’s always been there while taking on both roles.

I can relate to this song bc my dad did the same except worse and I was able to understand what was happening

My parents are still together and Im..crying..?? *ugly crying* wTF-

Here’s to all of us single Moms. We’re doing one hell of a job.

Ya know, I didn't need my heart

It took me time to appreciate this song, but if I listen to it, it no longer gets me to cry... but if I'm singing it or acting the part, emotions from my childhood I didn't know existed come flooding back and I feel like I can relate to being someone who's been abandoned and the one needing the comfort. Wonderful song.

This song actually reminds me of my sister. She died young and I remember me and my brother would go to the hospital everyday for months to see if it was a joke and that she'd walk out smiling. She never did come back from that hospital, but going everyday brought me and my brother closer.

HOLY CRAP THIS IS SAD

Homestuck number

The guitar on this is beautiful.

She reminds me of Sally Jackson. A single caring mother trying to do the best she can for her son who suffers from mental illness after his father leaves them. We need more moms like them

crying in the club rn

As a relatively unemotional person I don't find myself ever really getting choked up over songs, but this BROKE me. I am literally sitting hear crying my eyes out because its so real.

"One February day"


This got uploaded on February 3rd-

this makes me wanna see my mom so bad but she's across the country T_T

My parents aren’t divorced but this song always gets me

note to self: don't listen to then there's people around

Ok, no offense, it's emotional and all, but why did none of the producers or musicians ever notice the rhythmical mistake of the guitarist right in the beginning? I always get bothered by that soooo much und can't find an explanation. It's such a good guitar play but the first phrase.... my God...

Stop. You're not allowed to say "I'll be here" after Ordinary Days.

My favorite song in the DEH

oh shit.......i listened to this in public and i started to cry and people just stared.......but then i saw someone who had a deh tee and they were crying and i just nodded and they nodded back to me. it felt good to know someone else was listening to something broadway(i hope they were)

I ugly cried uncontrollably when I saw this song performed.

This is probably Heidi trying to stop Evan from committing sudoku

I swear if they don't get Rachel Bay Jones to play Heidi in the DEH movie, I want her to be played by Meryl Streep. She's got her looks if she puts on a blonde wig, she's played a grieving mother before and her voice sounds similar to Rachel's too.

Please, can someone help me? When Evan says " Is there another truck coming to our driveway, a truck that will take mommy away " did he says that like "I hope there will be another truck" or "I don’t hope there will be another truck"?

Pikatrochu he means it in a scared way.

Lili ! Ooooh okay thank you (I was scared he was like " I didn’t like my mom " who would be heartbreaking too

My parents arent divorced but i still cry because it just reminds me of how my half brothers mom took him away from my family and know we never get to see him, he doesn't know we exist and he thinks his step dads his biological dad

I didn't expect that out of the entire musical this song would hit me the hardest. This is honestly the first time a song made me sob and actualy cry

I cry quietly throughout most of this song, but what gets me full on sobbing is when she sings, "And I knew I'd come up short a million different ways". The melody is so cathartic, and the way she belts out those lines with peak vulnerability and honesty... 😭

About a year ago I downloaded the whole soundtrack and my mom decided to go to the mall with my sister
Them this song came up and i cried while strolling to the mall

I wanna give my mom a hug now. She’s a single mom😭😭😭

a truck that will take mommy away😭 i can’t stop crying someone help

[HEIDI]
It was a February day
When your dad came by, before going away
A U-Haul truck in the driveway
The day it was suddenly.. real

I told you not to come outside
But you saw that truck, and you smiled so wide
A real live truck in your driveway
We let you sit behind the wheel

Goodbye, goodbye..
Now it's just me.. and my little guy..
And the house felt so big, and I felt so small
The house felt so big, and I felt so small

That night, I tucked you into bed
I will never forget how you sat up and said
"Is there another truck coming to our driveway? A truck that will take mommy away..?"

And the house felt so big, and I felt so small
The house felt so big, and I
And I knew there would be moments that I'd miss
And I knew there would be space I couldn't fill
And I knew I'd come up short a billion different ways
And I did..
And I do..
And I will..

But like that February day
I will take your hand, squeeze it tightly and say
"There's not another truck in the driveway.."

Your mom isn't going anywhere
Your mom is staying right here
Your mom isn't going anywhere
Your mom is staying right here
No matter what
I'll be here

When it all feels so big
'Til it all feels so small
When it all feels so big
'Til it all feels so small
'Til it all feels so small

hamilton fans - imagine eliza singing this to philip 🥺💔

This had me crying. Every time... so sad.. don't take mommy away

Try not to cry: *EXTREME*

I have no emotions. I haven't cried at this show once. I don't cry at Hamilton or Heathers. Or the parts of Six where everyone says they're sobbing. I don't cry anymore. I guess I just don't. If I cry, whatever made me cry actually broke me. I guess I've become too strong...

No one will care but I wrote a story of Joyce, Will, and Jonathan based on this song.

I bawled my eyes out when I saw the show live and I ain’t afraid to admit that

Same, this song and Requiem brought me to tears

It gives me depression see the comments that saw it at Broadway 😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣

I think Heidi is maybe the only "hero" in DEH.

I saw this with my Dad, and we had an amazing night, but during this song, I wanted my Mom so badly xD

I put dear evan hansen on shuffle and this is the first song. I immediately started crying

this song NEVER fails to make me cry, but i love it. so i play it on repeat while bawling my eyes out. it’s great.

I felt alot of pain listening to all the other songs. But so help me god this is the one that made me cry.

this is literally my mom and I

Why is he so happy to see a truck that is taking his dad away

He didn't understand initially that it was taking his dad away, at first he was just excited to see a huge truck in the driveway. Of course, later he realised it had taken his dad away.

okay, no one attack me, but can someone explain this song to me, I'm new to DEH

So, Evan lied about being friends with a boy who killed himself. He gets in a lot of trouble for it, and he finally admits the truth. This is the moment when he comes back home to his mom (with whom he never really connected because she works a lot, as she's a single mother and has to handle her family on her own), and she reminds him of the promise she made when his father left

Ryan Faure thank you so much

@Savannah Elizabeth You're welcome ✨

Ugh, this song makes me cry every time. I think of my mom and how she did so much to raise 7 kids on her own. This song is dedicated to the best of moms who do so much to raise kids on their own.

I had never shed a tear to any of the songs until friggin 2:39 in the morning when I was thinking how much emotion Evan’s mom had and how she said she was gonna be there and I was sitting here thinking to myself how my mom has never been like that and never will be. So there was that one little tear at the part where she said how there were gonna be moments she missed and space she couldn’t fill and that was it, my breaking point. I love this musical so much and it was the one thing that got me through 5th through 8th grade, so thank you Evan Hansen!

Does anybody else listen to this song and not cry because you've cried to this so many times that you just don't have the tears for it anymore?

i always cry when i bear this song but i make myself listen to it anyway

*reads title*
that's what she said

Fun fact: this song was so emotional that after Rachel sang it she needed someone to tell her a joke to cheer her up

Someone listening to this all the way through for the first time: UGH words fail is THE SADDEST song on here, like, nothing can be sadder then this





*So big/so small has entered the chat*

i’m not crying you are 😭😭💕

I'm not crying, you are!

1:30 heart hurtie

I remember showing this to my mum, because the show had just come out and she hadn't heard it yet, and she looked unbothered/focused on something else/idk, until she heard "Is there another truck coming to our driveway? A truck that will take mommy away" and I saw her heart SHATTER. Like mother like daughter, this song absolutely destroyed us.

I'm broken.

Shouldn't be listening to this at work.:-(((((

How come I have never heard this song? Like, I have listened to every song in Dear Evan Hansen and was in the fandom for a year and I'm just finding this song

MISHEARD LYRICS (their normal at first):


It was a February day
When your dad came by before going away
A YOU HALL truck in the driveway
Blah blah normal lyric crap
I told you KNOT to goo outside
But you saw that truck and you smiled so WILD
A real live truck in your driveway
Yada yada


Goodbye (x2)
Now it's just me, and my little GILD.
And the house FELL so big,
and I FELL so SMOL.


The house FELL so big,
and I FELL so SMOL.


That night I tucked you to bed,
I will never forget how you sat up and said:


"Is there another truck coming to our driveway?
A truck that will take BOBBY away?"


And the house FELL so big,
and I FELL so SMOL.


The house FELL so big,
and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH--


And I NOOT there would be moments I'd MIST.
And I NOOT there would be space that I could fill ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
And I NOOT I'd CUM UP ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) short, a failure every weeks!


aNd I dId.
And I DOOT.
And I YOUNG?


And like that February day,
I will TAPE your hand, squeeze it tightly and say:


"There's not another truck in the driveway"
"Your Bob isn't going anywhere, your Bob is staying right here,"
"Your Bob isn't going anywhere, your Bob is staying right here, no matter what!"



"I'll bee here..."


When it all feels so big,
When it all feels so smol,


When it all feels so big,
When it all feels so smol,


When it all feels so smol...







I just ruined the song pls don't like this comment.

When i heard this musical a lot of emotions swirled around me i cant even describe them. The songs and the characters story. Conner, Evan, Everyone. I just wanted to say i love this even Evans personality. This is amazing i just love the mix of emotions this can give you. Its beautiful. Thank You!

Batbolt AJ DEH is such a beautiful show. I relate to Evan's anexity because i have mild autism.

My fave song from DEH...so raw and heartbreaking.

Check out my cover on my channel, would appreciate all the support! Positive vibes = happy world :)

Y'all are crying now listen to bedroom down the hall I dare ya

I forgot what all was in this song and there was such a stab in my heart from "is another truck coming to take mommy away" I could FEEL it and the floodgates to my eyes were IMMEDIATELY opened

Everyone’s talking how they cried at “is another truck coming to take mommy away?” I cried when she talked about how she’s not leaving him no matter what

If you think about it, this song is in the same key as only us for the most part. It’s like Evan had one last strand left in only us and at the key change, he completely left his mom’s trust. Then this song comes after his life crashed down and now they’re rebuilding. It’s only Evan and his mom now.

“It was a February day” -> “Can we try to have an optimistic outlook”
“When you dad came back” -> “Can we buck up just enough”
Anyone else realize that? Or is that obvious?

That drawn out goodbye goodbye is so forlorn and it makes my heart ache so hard😭 this song really hits me in the emotions so hard😭

I listened to this entire soundtrack 3 times and I didn't cry until I heard this for the third time and haven't cried on any other songs (on my 6th time through)

Fuck I'm crying

I just... am I the only one that breaks with the "No matter what." because HOLY TEARS BATMAN

*calls my mom* ;m;

this is the song that brings the waterworks for me. Jeeeeeezzzzzzz :'(

Pro tip: play this over Kindergarten Boyfriend from Heathers at exact time it’s beautiful

I didn't cry when I listened to "I am damaged"
I didn't cry when I listened to "Michael in the bathroom" (mostly because my mom was in the room, but still)
But THIS SONG
THIS FREAKING SONG- *cries loudly in the corner*

As soon as it hits that “and I knew there would be moments that I’d miss...” my heart aches and I’m bawling

2:58 I broke down right around this part... Gdi I am so emotional. I love my mom

Being a child of a single mum this song makes me cry every time.
My mum is the one who left my dad in our case, because he was an absentee dad and borderline abusive to her. But the feelings are still there. The fact that he hasn't called for six years now, except he sends me "Happy birthday!" once a year on facebook (and sometimes he even forgets to to THAT), doesn't help.
The part that breaks me every time is "you're mum isn't going anywhere (...) no matter what" as that is the EXACT kind of thing my mum would say and does say.

[HEIDI]
It was a February day
When your dad came by, before going away
A U-Haul truck in the driveway
The day it was suddenly real

I told you not to come outside
But you saw that truck
And you smiled so wide
A real live truck in your driveway
We let you sit behind the wheel

Goodbye, goodbye
Now it's just me and my little guy
And the house felt so big, and I felt so small
The house felt so big, and I felt so small

That night, I tucked you into bed
I will never forget how you sat up and said
"Is there another truck coming to our driveway?
A truck that will take mommy away"

And the house felt so big, and I felt so small
The house felt so big, and I—
And I knew there would be moments that I'd miss
And I knew there would be space I couldn't fill
And I knew I'd come up short a billion different ways
And I did
And I do
And I will

But like that February day
I will take your hand, squeeze it tightly and say
There's not another truck in the driveway

Your mom isn't going anywhere
Your mom is staying right here
Your mom isn't going anywhere
Your mom is staying right here
No matter what
I'll be here

When it all feels so big
'Til it all feels so small
When it all feels so big
'Til it all feels so small
'Til it all feels so small

Hit
Everyone:cry
Hit
Everyone:cry
This song
Everyone:im dead

Casually listening to Dear Evan Hansen at work and now casually crying in a cubical

Ack this right after “Words Fail” broke me...I’m sobbing so hard