Citizen Soldier - Never Good Enough Lyrics






Here I am, once again
Way too close to the edge
Terrified, open eyes
I'm seeing red
I would rather die tonight
Then let you down one more time
One more time

Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough

Demonize, criticize
Your words eat me alive
Just like knives
Tearing me from the inside
What you want I'll never be
Why can't you just be proud of me
Proud of me

Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough

I hate to disappoint you but it's in my DNA
Everything you give me I will somehow betray
I never meant to be like this
A grave mistake you can't forgive
A filthy stain, oh what a shame
Can you just wash me away

Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough





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  1. A.... M....

    Dude, this song I can relate. 💘💘- “is misery what I deserve? Am I so void of love? I hate to disappoint you, but it’s in my DNA. I never asked to be like this.” 👊hit me real hard.

  2. B.... B....

    Just found this song. I love it! Relate to it on a real level is the sad part. But what a fantastic song.

  3. A.... ....

    This is my favorite song by you guys by far

    I just got my friend to listen to you guys and he loves it and Since my first song (which was Buried Alive) I deicided to listen of you songs. Love your music because you're epic and awesome

    All I can is keep up the good work.

  4. B.... S....

    I need this song. With everything that has gone on in my life I am struggling just to stay here. Thank you Citizen Soldier. You have help me.
    Let it burn one is good too.

    B.... S....

    Thank you Brandi. So glad to hear it has helped. Appreciate you so much <3

  5. B.... C....

    This song is me

    B.... C....

    You are enough. <3 Hope you enjoyed the song!

    B.... C....

    @Citizen Soldier Thank you

  6. g.... g....

    Why do ya gotta make stuff that hits so close to home.... I relate to this song too much..... This is an amazing album though keep up the good work

    g.... g....

    Thank you so much. That means a lot. <3 Appreciate you!

  7. T.... T....

    i feel so done so unloved so unwanted by everyone my whole world is turned upside down ever since my fiance and my kids were taken from me

    T.... T....

    So sorry to hear you're going through that. Can't imagine how difficult that is. Hope things get better for you friend <3

  8. E.... W....

    How am I only hearing about y'all now? I'm about to spend today listening to all these different songs.
    Wonderful job!

    E.... W....

    So glad you found us! Welcome to the family <3

  9. M.... W....

    This hole song is perfect ever word hits my soul

    M.... W....

    Thank you so much! That means the world to us. <3

  10. N.... K....

    About three years ago, I was just an inch away from killing myself. And it's odd how everyone is always only focused on how great it has to be that you came out of such a thing alive. No one ever talks about how those thoughts don't "just go away", how they keep lingering and how the temptation to do it is still very much present. It doesn't seem to matter that it doesn't mean that your depression, your anxiety and your insecurities are magically healed after surviving. And I think it's also why this song hits me really hard, because I can feel myself into it so, so much. "Mediocre at best, maybe better off dead / Am I a failure from birth?" are thoughts that I find myself thinking every single day. And sometimes, it makes me wish someone would be proud of me for trying. For trying to battle down all those mental struggles, even if some things don't look like much of an accomplishment to people who don't have to deal with those problems; for example, getting up and out of bed. It's an accomplishment to us, to people who have to fight against such thoughts.

    N.... K....

    It's so hard when we feel that no one sees the good we are doing and effort we are putting in. So proud of you for being strong. Appreciate you brother!

  11. R.... B....

    Exactly what I see, as my value.

    R.... B....

    So sorry to hear that. I've felt the same. It's an awful feeling. Building self-esteem is not easy but well worth it!

  12. M.... C....

    Seriously, how many of us just had our thoughts put on screen?

    M.... C....

    It's sad to hear how many people feel this way. We need to validate that emotion and work together to work through it <3

  13. f.... E....

    Man this is freaking good I have a request tho can you make one were it's like your breaking through the chains instead of being held down by them brother with your voice those chains are already weak ✊🏼🤟🏼

    f.... E....

    Have you listened to Unbreakable?

  14. A.... N....

    This Song speaks to me. 🖤❤

    A.... N....

    So happy to hear that. Much love to you!

    A.... N....

    Thank you ❤🖤

  15. N.... H....

    I know someone wants a kit, but we're strong. I want to be with you forever.

  16. S.... H....

    Never given a choice. 💔

  17. S.... H....

    Neverending complaints. 💔 Years gone, pain, no orange EVER, and everything else. You krt hem and you watched for over a year and weren't there for me. 💔💔💔💔💔

    S.... H....

    So sorry to hear you're hurting <3

  18. M.... J....

    "what you want I'll never be, what can't you be proud of me, sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" that hit me hard cause my parents are trying to make me into what they want and I feel like I'm letting them down

    M.... J....

    You are enough friend :)

    M.... J....

    @Citizen Soldier thank you

  19. M.... J....

    "what you want I'll never be, what can't you be proud of me, sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" that hit me hard cause my parents are trying to make me into what they want and I feel like I'm letting them down

  20. S.... H....

    Never orange. Fix that.

    S.... H....

    come again?

  21. J.... D....

    I just found you guys and I absolutely love what I'm hearing! This song as resonated with the most so far. I absolutely love it

    J.... D....

    Welcome to the family friend! We don't want to just be a normal band. We want to speak for YOU. Any ideas for what we should write about in 2020? We want our music to represent your journey and would love your ideas :)

  22. S.... H....

    You abandoned me and let me get extremely crucified. You are the reason. If l never met you l would've been happy.

    S.... H....

    We have no idea what you're going through, but sincerely hope things get better. Sending tons of love <3

  23. M.... R....

    This one too hits really close to home. I wish it wouldn't but it's entirety reminds me of my mother.
    No matter what I do, I feel like it's never right. I'm never good enough.

    The lines "maybe better off dead" and "why can't you be proud of me" resonates in a very specific way when you combine it with the bridge "I never asked to be like this, a grave mistake you can't forgive. A filthy stain, oh what a shame. Can you just wash me away?".

    It resonates with me because I was born to a young mother, she was around my current age (20) when she had me, so in the back of my mind the question " was I conceived knowingly or was I a surprise?" lingers. Plus, right from the start I wasn't what she thought I was going to be.

    I was born with a kind of heart condition that doctors in our area at the time could not seem to diagnose and they would always tell my parents I wouldn't live longer than a year. So they worked their butts off to find someone able to help us and they did. I was told that story countless times, from a very early age.

    And when years went by, bringing their cargo of new experiences (most of which were bad ones but I hold on to the good ones now), I often found myself wondering if my family wouldn't have been better off if I had actually died. I actually still do because I can't seem to get rid of the guilt knowing all the time and money they must have used to keep me..
    Anyways that's a longer story and this comment is long enough as it is.

    Once again thank you Citizen Soldier for creating and producing such great pieces and sharing them with us.. 🌹

    To anyone reading : take care and keep shining, you might end up brighten someone's day up 🌹

    M.... R....

    What a story. Thanks for sharing it. You are exactly what we want to be about, a support group for people to strengthen and love eachother through their darkest days. You are amazing for what you have been through and sharing light with others. Never doubt that. Any ideas for what we should write about in 2020? We want our music to represent your journey and would love your ideas :)

    M.... R....

    @Citizen Soldier That is why I love you guys so much. You've brought together, thanks to your talent and selflessness, people from very different backgrounds and created a safe place for us to enjoy great music and vent. We will never be able to thank you enough. I truly believe though that it should be normal for people to share experiences and/or advices. I never would want anyone to make the mistakes I made (that's why I shared another story under "Kill my memory") and that's why I speak up and i find hard to see why that makes me "amazing", because it shouldn't. Some friends and I actually went to a journal and testified of what we had lived and witnessed during our time in one of our schools, because we had heard that the same kind of problems were still going on there.

    You don't have to change anything, your music represents my journey among a lot of others, and I can't sit here and pretend to know what everyone would like to hear about.

    But I believe that, in the same tone of Buried Alive where it was about people being misunderstood/unheard/mental health problems, a song about being used/taken advantage of could be very cathartic to a lot of people.
    Because when I first heard "Buried Alive" it automatically drove me (and I assume unfortunately many others) back into my early teenage years (full of bullying, people being manipulative, and sexual assaults to name a few) and it also made me remember how dealing with the consequences of these experiences made me the person I am today.
    Not necesseraly stronger, but wiser.
    That's also what made me realize how ephemeral things are (and made me call myself Mayfly, which is a pseudo I use everywhere, especially when I publish writings on the internet).

    Thank you guys again, a lot. You rock !
    Lots of love ♥

  24. T.... D....

    damn that chorus hit pretty hard

    T.... D....

    Hope you enjoyed the song! Thank you for checking it out. <3

    T.... D....

    @Citizen Soldier thank you for doing what you do :)

  25. T.... ....

    Found your song randomly...but damn man hit me like a train good stuff

    T.... ....

    So glad you found it and like it! Thank you for giving us a chance :)

  26. P.... ....

    i love that group, my top 1º 15 minutes of fame

    P.... ....

    So glad you love that song!

  27. C.... ....

    Oh my gosh I feel this song on a personal level. I feel like I’m never good enough

    C.... ....

    I have felt that too. We need to be there for eachother <3

  28. D.... C....

    U song are very emotional and I love them thx for more songs for my Rock/Metal playlist

    D.... C....

    We appreciate you adding them so much! Thank you <3

  29. R.... T....

    Love the songs you guys make, keep up The fantastic work! 💙💙💙

    R.... T....

    Thank you so much! Appreciate you <3

  30. E.... M....

    This song was describing my life... I'm broken af

    E.... M....

    Hope things bet better friend. Sending love your way! <3

  31. M.... E....

    This song I feel on such a deep level its crazy but I can't stop coming back to it this and devil inside I love them both

    M.... E....

    So glad you like both. Thank you for supporting us friend <3

  32. P.... F....

    Damn this is hits me hard, because I know how you feel.

    P.... F....

    So sorry to hear that. We need to look out for eachother.

    P.... F....

    Yes I agree 👊🏻

  33. J.... C....

    Sounds like someone is depressed and needs a hug, poor guy

    J.... C....

    We all need a hug every now and then <3

    J.... C....

    Citizen Soldier, thanks for the warm comment, but the meaning of the song hits close to home for me, I feel like I’m worthless, I need a hug :(

  34. I.... ....

    Bruh tf why you guys so underrated this shit rocks I’m in love with it keep the good shit going 😈🩸🖤

    I.... ....

    Thank you so much! That means the world to us. Honored to have your support <3

  35. Z.... ....

    I literally discovered this band a few months ago and I was having a really hard time and this music really helped me. I love how each of your songs has an actual meaning behind it and how they're so relatable (especially this one). Still can't decide which song is my favourite tho

    Z.... ....

    We are honored they have helped. Thank you so much for the kind words and support Zoe :)

    Z.... ....

    Same Zoe, totally with you there

  36. S.... K....

    And fuck yeah found a new band worth listening to 🤘🏻

    S.... K....

    So glad you like it. Thank you so much <3

  37. E.... ....

    I love this song.. But now that I'm feeling like a failure... I realize how much I relate to this..

    E.... ....

    This song is about a feeling in time. It's a moment. Not the ending. Your ending can still be incredible. You are enough. <3

  38. P.... S....

    Oh boy.
    Yeah that. That fuckin stings.
    Ow.

    P.... S....

    Hope you liked the song!

  39. N.... ....

    Me: *fails at stuff and shit, but tries to stay positive and puts music to cheer up*
    Also me: *listens to music that reminds me that I'm never good enough* yay

    N.... ....

    The song is about a feeling in a moment in time. It doesn't have to be the end of the story <3

  40. D.... V....

    Why have I never heard them before they are amazing

    D.... V....

    So glad you found us. Welcome to the family. Would love to hear what you think of our other songs!

  41. Z.... J....

    oh no someone put it in words

    Z.... J....

    Just keeping it real. We all feel this way sometimes. Hope you know you are enough and the story doesn't have to end this way <3

  42. N.... ....

    Don't care if some people will make fun of me cause of the "edge" of this song, but I really do connect with this song.

    N.... ....

    So glad you like it. thank you <3

  43. T.... P....

    I just found out about this band and I LOVE IT!🤟🏻

    T.... P....

    Welcome to the family. Appreciate you so much <3

  44. Z.... A....

    Why am I so invisible. Everything feels so miserable. How could you be this terrible. I know I am incredible. Oh God I'm drowning in a sea of forgetfullness. This path is filled un cloudiness. Tired of tryin to impress. Filled with unending stress. Help me. Save me. Free me be me

    Z.... A....

    Hope things get better friend. Hope writing your feelings helps 🖤🤘🏻

  45. S.... N....

    Damn good song just lost someone who I thought I’d see every day so this songs hits me so hard 😔

    S.... N....

    Sorry to hear that Skyler. Really hope things get better for you <3

  46. O.... I....

    this group alongside with linkin park is one of the dew with hella good instrumental music and such deep lyrics. just so good

    O.... I....

    Thank you so much 🖤

  47. F.... ....

    ah yes, another band to love

    F.... ....

    We appreciate the love 🖤🤘🏻

  48. T.... O....

    Those who fall into their end, will never see their begining again...

    T.... O....

    Very well said. Thank you!

    T.... O....

    @Citizen Soldier no problem, i love the music, keep it up.

  49. R.... ....

    Just came across this, i love it. Have a Good Day!

    R.... ....

    You too friend. Appreciate you 🖤

  50. S.... ....

    Great song. But remember is you are feeling the same as this song discribes you can always find someone to speak to and help you, don't think your alone, there is always someone

    S.... ....

    Absolutely. That’s what this community is for. To talk about the things we far too often keep to ourselves and support each other 🖤

  51. D.... ....

    I struggle with Inattentive ADHD, and every damn line in this song is how I feel daily.
    The lines _"Am I a failure from birth?"_ and _"I hate to disappoint you, but it's in my DNA"_ Hit especially hard.

    D.... ....

    Glad you felt validated by the words. Hope things get better for you. You are enough 🖤

    D.... ....

    @Citizen Soldier Thank you, I really needed to hear that ❤

  52. F.... W....

    My friend sent this to me and said "it relates to me and it might relate to you"... shes a good friend

    F.... W....

    That’s an amazing friend. Thanks to you both for listening 🖤

    F.... W....

    @Citizen Soldier any time

  53. m.... p....

    Lyrics videos in 60fps feel weird but good, oh and amazing song nice job guys! :)

    m.... p....

    Thank you so much! Appreciate you 🖤

  54. H.... ....

    Emoooooooooooo

    jk, i love it

    H.... ....

    Hahaha so glad you like it :)

  55. r.... m....

    Damn I'm really struggling right now and this shit hit me HARD 😭 amazing song tho!! idk how I've never heard this band before today

    r.... m....

    So glad you found us. Would love to hear what you think of our song let it burn!

  56. S.... &....

    This song is how I see myself every day and yet I'm still here.

    S.... &....

    So glad you’re still here. You are enough 🖤

    S.... &....

    @Citizen Soldier hehe thanks.

  57. S.... ....

    This is really hitting home for me right now. She left me because I let her down. I'm trying so hard to change.

    S.... ....

    I have been there friend. Be patient with yourself. Much love to you 🤘🏻🖤

    S.... ....

    @Citizen Soldier Thank you. Your songs are really helping me get through this.

  58. E.... L....

    "I would rather die tonight, than let you down one more time." "Sick of coming undone, letting down everyone, mediocre at best, maybe better off dead." "Am I a failure from birth? is Misery what I deserve? Am I just so void of love, that I'm never good, never good enough." The entire song really relates to how I feel, but these parts are where I really relate. They hit really hard.

    E.... L....

    So glad you felt it. You are enough. Hope you know that 🖤🤘🏻

  59. Z.... A....

    This song appeared on my scroll. As I went to play music to drown out the pain and hurt I was feeling. I clicked on it cuz with Gid there is never coincidence. And to awesome... the lyrics were exactly to the core how I was feeling today.



    I wrote these a while ago.

    "Born Again Forevermore "
    Left in this place of desolation.
    Trapped here alone in isolation.
    The sores are choking my neck.
    I can't hear anything out of here.
    Where are you my saviour.
    I'm lost in this box of chaos.

    I try to climb my way out of fear
    But it hits me down to my feet again.
    There is no way out. No way out.
    If there is a way it would be a miracle

    Yahusha come be my miracle now
    Where you are there is hope found
    I'm crying out in desperation.
    I can't take this seperation.
    Hold me now. Hold me now.
    I need you now. I need you now.

    The windows are sealed shut
    The doors are nailed to the floor
    The blackness has covered the air
    This bleakness is more than I can bare.

    Oh dear God what have I done.
    Oh dear God where have I gone.
    I cant escape this reality I'm in.
    I'm wrapped to the core in sin.

    Come find me. Come find me.
    Where are you? Where are you?
    Help save me. Help save me.
    I am dying. I am dying.

    The saviours light is brighter then a thousand suns.
    The heavenly glow more beautiful then a thousand rainbows.
    His glorious steed more elegant then any a flock of horses.
    When you least expect it He'll come save you from the forces.

    I put my trust and faith in the God of abraham and isaac.
    Because when all my hope fails he is sure to be there.
    I may neglect the truth for a while; Ill stand on his promises.

    Oh God let me see you. Let me see you.
    Oh God I wanna be you. I wanna be you.
    Let them see you and not me anymore.
    Help me be born again forevermore.

    "My Last Plea"
    I can't help this emptiness brewing inside my bones.
    It's like I'm trying stay within the cones.
    But there is a force driving me out of my comfort zone.
    I cant help this looming feeling of being all alone.

    Where are you God and why do I feel so distant from you.
    My story feels like its ending, but you say its jus the preview.
    I'm so alone with no one to talk to about this pain I hold.
    Trying to stay in the game, but I think I'm about to fold.
    I wish this frost in the air, didn't make me feel so cold.
    I wait and wonder, if I will make it through and grow old.

    I look at my children; that forces me to try keep it all together.
    Every day goes by and the pain slips out worse for the weather.
    I think of the bottle and I think of the gun.
    But if I give up now what would I have won.

    The saying goes "fight the good fight of faith and run the race".
    But why do I feel like the enemies have been spraying me with mace.
    How can I reach the finish line when I am blinded and in pain.
    I gotta keep on going and jump right onto the train.

    The wind and the waves crash over me and I start to drown.
    As I breath my last breath; I wonder if I lost my crown.
    I'm so lost in the echo without a map to be found.
    This marathon has led me to crawling on the ground.

    My last breath leaves my aching body with a tear.
    This weather is cold and there is so much to fear.
    How can you tell me God, not to fear anything but you?
    When I obviously don't know anything, no not a clue.

    God come rescue me before my heart stops beating.
    I'm lying there lifeless with my souls helper screaming.
    There's not much time left before the blackness takes over me.
    So hurry down Yahusha, I beg you save me; my last plea.


    "LOST in the Frost"
    I feel the noose around my neck.
    I'm choking and I'm dying.
    This world waring my insides in sin
    I'm drowning and I'm crying.
    My heart stomped in pieces on the floor.
    I'm falling and I'm crawling.
    Cant reach the open door.
    I'm locked and I'm loaded
    Don't know how much I can endure.
    I'm hanging and I'm straining.
    Where is my saviour at right now.
    I'm faded and im fated.
    Come save me from this misery I hold.
    I'm lost in the frost.
    Where is the act of true love to thaw.
    This pain I cant hold it anymore.
    Yahuah if your love is so real.
    Come rescue the chosen few.

    Z.... A....

    Very cool!

    Z.... A....

    @Citizen Soldier is it really? Is there potential in my lyrics

  60. S.... L....

    I discovered you guys from your song "Let it burn" and i am now obsessed if you guys ever come to edmonton I'll be sure to get tickets to see you guys live asap that would seriously be a dream come true

    S.... L....

    We would love to play there! Keep sharing us with friends and family and we will make it happen 🖤🤘🏻

  61. P.... t....

    i heard this song in november and its been one of my favorite song since i heard it

    P.... t....

    That makes us so happy to hear. Thanks for listening friend 🖤

  62. y.... m....

    this song is how I feel almost all the time.

    y.... m....

    Sorry to hear friend. Sending love your way 🖤🤘🏻

  63. Y.... A....

    What a song and the lyric hit me hard (almost crying here)... I really glad I found this while searching randomly... Good song to start 2020

    Y.... A....

    So glad you found us. Welcome to the family. Much love to you! Hope it’s a great year 🖤

  64. B.... ....

    This song describes me perfectly

    B.... ....

    Glad you connect with it. Just know that you are enough 🖤

    B.... ....

    To who?

  65. l.... ....

    Sad, but I can relate very well ...

    l.... ....

    Sorry to hear that friend. You are enough. Hope things get better 🖤

  66. P.... B....

    Damn guys! You really know how to write a song that hits you right in the gut!

    P.... B....

    We do our best. Glad you like it 🖤🤘🏻

  67. S.... C....

    Oh God why didn't I find this sooner.

    S.... C....

    So glad you found us! Thanks for giving it a chance 🖤🤘🏻

  68. X.... ....

    Not gonna lie, I’ve never heard of this band before tonight.. however, they’ve more than earned a place in my playlist with this song alone.. not sure I could relate any harder.

    X.... ....

    We love to hear that. We are honored we made your playlist. Thanks for taking a chance on us friend 🖤🤘🏻

  69. B.... H....

    The last time I heard a voice so distinct and powerful was Adam from three days grace. Your music is truly amazing and hits me to the core. Vastly underrated band. Your time will come soon.

    B.... H....

    Thank you so much. That means everything to us. So glad you found us 🖤🤘🏻

    B.... H....

    Three days grace suck live however I love em so much. Their songs helped me when i was young get through some tough shit.

  70. L.... l....

    I thank my awesome sister got showing me these guys!

    L.... l....

    Thank your sister for sharing our music! Hope you liked it 🖤🤘🏻

  71. M.... T....

    Hey, first i wanna wish a happy new year to everyone 🤗 and second i will say that i have no idea how many people will read this, i know some of you might agree others might disagree but thats life we cant be all on the same side, we are too many anyway...
    I have no idea how to start this... dont take it as i want to offend someone, i am just sharing. People tent to be proud of themselfs when they have it worse. if you havent slept in 2 days and someone comes up to you and tells you they have insomnia and havent really slept in years and our brain tries to find a way to think of how you might have it worse. You start explaining how you were abused as a child, no! Thats not something to be proud of. I am not telling you not to share and keep it in, dont even think it
    Its not about making people feel sorry for us so that we get attention, we simply just dont want to feel bad for this other person and we find bigger comfort in trying to show them we have it worse.
    I have noticed that Americans (nooo offense please) tent to get diagnosed with things like depression, seasonal depression ugh anxiety, insomnia or some other mental illness. And when they get diagnosed they get more into it and make it worse for themselfs, thats not just the usa and everywhere but i know more about the usa. "I have night terrors and i cant sleep bc of that" we are have nightmares and night terrors from time to time. I still have this nightmare in my head since i was in 2nd grade.
    "I have depression and anxiety and i have no friends and i am better off dead" i am not trying to make fun of those mental problems, i am trying to show you that some diagose by a doctor that wants your money isnt everything. Yes you may have there thoughts and if you have them share them with someone you trust and believe will be there for you whem you need them. But if you keep telling yourself you wont make it and that you are alone ofc you will feel that way
    I forgot what year it was but lets say that before around 150 years (not sure if its right) people believed that you cant run a mile for les than 4 mins. One day some guy did it and everyone saw it is possible. Not most of the world can do it. High school kids run it with no problems. If we see that someone can do it we know we can too. I will go back to the start of this thing. You shouldnt be pround for the sad things happening to you. You should be proud someone beat you up, that you didnt sleep, that you had a miserable life, that you have some disorder or mental illness. Instead you have to proud for runing that one mile. You should be proud that you dont have it so bad.
    Is it interesting? When ever we dont have it bad we might feel guit for not having it bad but when it gets hard we wish it gets better and breakdown wishing that things get better? Be happy and thankful that you have good food, water, that you are warm and sleeping on a bed. Be happy that you got the chance to live and dont feel that sorry abour yourselfs. Dont over do yourselfs. Every each and one of you is unique and amazing and you shouldnt let things bring you down. I am sorry for everything bad that is happening to you. I am sorry your parents were abusive or that school sucks for you.
    But check out this person who took care of themselfs and was smart and brave enough to call the cops on thier parents. You shouldnt let the world make you feel like you dont belong there. I am saying this now tho just a few hours ago i drew my hand with a blade, or maybe after some time i would cry over some friend that i have known and hope to see for 15 years but they just hate me now.
    I am someone who doesnt give a single drop of water for herself. I dotn care what happens to me, i just wish for everyone else to be happy. The truth is i cant make the world happy. But me qnd you have to learn how to make it a better place for ourselfs. Bc if you are reading this it means you deserve it. I saw that maybe 15 people read what i said so far, dont ask how lol, more people will see it and i hope you understand.
    Get up! Stop listening to depressing music, if you like it so much just add it to your playlist.
    Everything we do, say, watch or listen to has an impact to our mood. Even weather. For example i feel fine bc its sunny outside. But yeah... i hope this was helpful, i love you all and i appreciate you all even if i dont know you and you dont know me, you are amazing and keep living. Be that person you want to be :)
    Like you cant live miserably right? Stop feeling bad about being happy and just go and be that happy person you always wished to be ❤❤💚
    I know how this pain feels... I know.. but it will be alright
    :)

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    Thanks for sharing your thoughts! Have a great day friend 🖤🤘🏻

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    @Citizen Soldier you too! Also your music is amazing, I love it ❤

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    I really needed this, Thank you ❤

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    Thank you, Joseph. Hope you have an incredible day 🖤🤘🏻

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    This is how my friends have made me feel about myself.

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    Sounds like you deserve better friends. Sending tons of love to you 🖤

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    I'll be your friend

  74. S.... ....

    Last song of 2019 I've listened to

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    Hope you enjoyed it :)

  75. I.... r....

    These lyrics are so raw, my god. I love your band so much, and your music is so good!!!!! please never stop making music

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    We don’t plan to ever stop. Thanks friend 🖤

  76. F.... P....

    Here I am once again! Listening to their songs 💕💕💕

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    We love to see that more than we can say 🖤

  77. N.... F....

    Always enjoy a good citizen soldier song

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    Thanks Noah! We appreciate so much friend 🖤

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    Your channel, music, etc are SUPER underrated. I found your channel sometime in October when YT recommended me the song "If these scars could speak". I have no regrets at all with finding your channel/music. Your songs truly speak to me and it makes me feel less alone. Thank you for your songs! I hope you receive LOTS more attention soon!

    I.... T....

    You are so kind. We are working hard to deserve that attention and support. Thank you for everything friend. Welcome to the family 🖤

  79. M.... H....

    This song resonates with me. It and many other of your songs have kept me from going to that very dark place. It gives me hope. Thank you so much for your music.

    M.... H....

    It makes us so incredibly happy to hear that. Thank you for supporting us and being so kind. Sending love your way 🖤

  80. P.... P....

    That's it. I'm buying this damn album.

    P.... P....

    Thank you so much. That means the word to us. What was your favorite from the album? 🖤

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    @Citizen Soldier It is totally no problem!! Y'all have already hit my heart hard.💕 My favorite is between If These Scars Could Speak and Say Goodbye. Those two made me cry the most.

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    What you want, I'll never be.
    Why can't you just be proud of me?

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    Hope you enjoyed the song 🖤

    S.... D....

    I love it! I'm trying to figure out where I can buy your CD! All I can find are mp3 tracks.

  82. M.... B....

    I just discovered you again and i can’t stop thinking « what an awesome band »

    M.... B....

    Thank you so much. So glad you found us. Appreciate you 🖤

  83. B.... ....

    You guys never disappoint me <3

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    Thank you so much. We do our best not to 🖤

  84. M.... F....

    I love it but can someone explain like what the meaning of this song is, what's it talking about mainly?

    M.... F....

    The song is expressing how demoralizing it can be to feel that no matter how hard you try, you always seem to be falling short. It’s an awful place to be emotionally but we wanted people feeling this way to know they are not alone 🖤

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    Ha new favorite song 💕

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    That’s so amazing to hear 🖤

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    Have you heard any of our other songs?

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    I rarely comment on videos but this one and if these scars could speak hit right at home to the point it makes my PTSD kick into overdrive. It's like you guys are in my head.

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    Hope it helps and doesn’t trigger. We appreciate you listening friend and are so glad you connect with it 🖤

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    Good song but I hate these words.

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    We do too. Really tough song for us to write.

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    All the peeps who gave this a thumbs down, are down syndrome retards..

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    Our music isn’t for everyone. We understand that. What did you think of the song?

  89. B.... ....

    I really love this :)

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    So glad to hear it. Thanks for listening 🖤

  90. I.... M....

    Why do i relate with this song so much? Apart from that keep up the good work.

    I.... M....

    Hope things get better for you friend 🖤

    I.... M....

    @Citizen Soldier Thank you. Also have a good new year!

  91. M.... F....

    "sick of coming undone, tired of letting everyone down" this is me hard

    M.... F....

    Hope things get better friend. Much love 🖤

    M.... F....

    @Citizen Soldier thank you! you know how it is you just feel you know... that way. Thanks!

  92. M.... ....

    This song hits me so hard. Every word breaks past all the barriers I use to protect myself and stuffs onions into my soul. Thank you for making this song, thank you from my heart. ( ╯︿╰ ) /

    I've never pressed subscribe with so much conviction before.

    M.... ....

    We are honored to hear that. Thank you for subscribing. We hope the music continues to help friend. Welcome to the family 🖤🤘🏻

  93. B.... D....

    Citizen Soldier has made a lot of fantastic music but this is resonates with me the most and I've been bingeing this song

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    So glad you like it! Appreciate the kind words! Thanks again 🖤

  94. C.... W....

    Never thought I would find a song so perfect for my mental state rn.

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    Hope it helps! Hope things get better for you friend 🖤

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    When youtube recommendations are actually good, this is awsome!!!!

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    So glad you found us and enjoy it! Thank you 🖤🤘🏻

  96. L.... W....

    "I never asked to be like this" . I want to say this to all the guys who don't understand me.

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    Lonely Wolf glad you feel it speaks for you. Hope things get better for you friend 🖤

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    This song hits me hard because of my dad problems with communicating with him

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    This is my Username sorry to hear that friend. Hope the song helps 🖤🤘🏻