Boyinaband - I'm Not Dead Lyrics






I'm not dead
I'm not fixed, but I'm not giving up yet
I'm sick of saying that I still don't have anything done
I hate telling friends I'm trying something just to give it up

I'm still unsure of my emotional state
I'm still incapable of focusing lately
I don't feel like creating
I'm tired of asking Google how to find motivation
I don't think I've ever made something that's as good as I'm capable of

I hate not having a reason to look my best
I only ever take care of myself with the intent to show the internet
If what made me successful was an imposed sense of stress then
I am so so glad that I hated myself

I didn't luck into this position
I struggle with decisions
I wouldn't be my own friend, I'm too inconsistent
Without immense pressure nothing ever gets finished
If these words make it to your ears it'll be a fucking miracle

I'm fortunate to know more good people than most do
I wish I had more friends I could be physically close to
I'm pretty good at like 20 different skill sets
At the expense of never being great at any one of them

I wish this beat hit harder
I wish more syllables rhymed
I know 99 percent of people really don't mind
I think collaborating forced me to finish things 'cause
I was terrified of wasting famous people's time

I wish I could focus on what I define priority
I wish I was as grateful as I want to be
I wish I knew more people who were mentally stable
But if I did, I wouldn't let them waste their time on me while I'm disabled

I feel alone
I know I'm not
I used to talk to lots of people. Lately I've stopped
They didn't deserve it, I've been a terrible friend. But
I couldn't bear to let myself become boring to them

I don't let myself get my hopes up. I love people who do
Ah, I never know if what I say I feel is the truth
I wish I didn't instinctively try to be less specific
So more people could relate when they read along with the lyrics

I can be happy in the moment
I am not when I reflect
I distract myself with gaming, waiting to get better
I hate it

I wanna do the most good, and prevent the most hurt
But I've gotta put on my own oxygen mask first

I can't predict what I'll do. I can never be sure
I am terrified of making promises any more
I can't face my work, I feel sick from the word
I genuinely believe I'm capable of changing the world

I still think I can get better
I still think I can create and get pleasure from it
I'll keep aiming to make my emotion and my logic agree
And become the best version of me

I don't want to stop
I don't want to stop
I don't want to stop
I don't want to stop





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  1. A.... C....

    Holy shit this is literally me rn and I didnt even realize it until watching this

  2. c.... ....

    "I feel alone - I know I'm not, I used to talk to lots of people, lately I've stopped"

    hits pretty fucking hard ngl.

    I keep coming back to this video, if you want to talk, cass#1201 on discord, hit me up.

  3. M.... C....

    For me im not lacking motivation I'm just so bored with life everything feels sad pointless boring except well personal but it feels so empty.....

  4. a.... ....

    This song has always hit close to home for me.Personally,the lines,"im pretty good at like twenty different skill sets,at the expense of never being great at any one of them" are the most relatable.People consider me to be,"gifted" with my grades and all,but there is always a way I could have done better,even if it's the slightest bit.I'm not a competative person,yet whenever I win second or third place for something big,I can't help but feel guilty while others around me tell me that I did such a great job.

  5. P.... ....

    Get better comrade may mother russia be in your life and make your life better continue making your content...

  6. A.... J....

    I started cry when listening to this and am now trying to learn it, it's helping me a lot, thank you

  7. S.... m....

    It's true

  8. p.... ....

    “I don’t want to stop.” That’s a line that hits me hard. I’m struggling with suicide and anxiety, I don’t want to stop living but it’s so hard to live. Dave thanks, thanks for letting me relate with you <3

  9. L.... B....

    This is why I love your music, you’ve helped me so much for so many years now!!

  10. c.... K....

    "I am terrified of making promise' anymore" that hit hard

  11. K.... C....

    just remember we are hear for you

  12. H.... S....

    Thanks for putting such accurate words on what I'm going through these last months. Really helped. Don't wanna stop either.

  13. s.... h....

    prove it

  14. E.... C....

    When he turns arounf he looks like a girl

    E.... C....

    “Oh wow, I had no idea”

  15. S.... S....

    This is a awesome song

  16. R.... T....

    How does this omly have 5.3 million views? I feel like it would really help more people if they saw it

  17. J.... A....

    This just made me realize I'm depressed.

  18. O.... K....

    This song hit me right in the heart. Brilliant.

  19. D.... D....

    If you read this can you please reply (;-;(

  20. S.... D....

    ‘I hate telling my friends I’m trying something, just to give it up’ 🙃

  21. F.... ....

    I'm so glad the laptop (her name is Lafayette) played this next... So good. ;_; Lol.

    ...You think so much. I do too. Your words look deep down.

    Life is one big videogame, relating most currently to the game SIMs, I feel I'm always looking for that "best version of me", the Ashliest Ashley, much like the Rickest Rick, but that takes.... Time. For everyone.

    I also liked your AI video. I'll have to go back to it. You're very intelligent, and I love your long hair, it reminded me of what I had before the "voices" (SN training- It's romantic to look into things, isn't it?) wouldn't shut up about shaving it off.

    Ahh, well... These are the thoughts I had with this video. Technology & objects are just as alive as we are, we created it. Just because we created it, doesn't make it any less real for us. What are emotions? Programmed into us. At first, just basic with babies, happy, sad, hurt, love. Then, they grow into desire, passion, greed, envy, lust, love, heartache, love... Passion & love are such important ones, I'm finding. But, so are they all, because, without the little things, we wouldn't be able to fully appreciate those things, but we were always going to do these specific things, at specific times, for something greater, but also for happiness? I don't know, we don't have all the answers yet, but it's fun to shoot the shit & learn.

    "...Terrified of wasting famous peoples time."

    1:42 - I've had this problem. I feel like I actually would've become boring to them, because it wasn't my time to have that dialogue.

  22. G.... O....

    Most of my junior high school is discribed by this song.

  23. �.... A....

    Oh okay, I love this song

  24. C.... S....

    god fucking damn.

  25. p.... ....

    What a coincidence. I just reserved session witch psychologist and discovered this song day later. If asked what is wrong I could just show it to her. Amazing job.

  26. T.... L....

    This literally made me cry....! I HATE seeing Dave like this!.......

  27. l.... 8....

    It feels weird watching this .
    Sounds like you read my mind and wrote everything

  28. P.... L....

    But it is good

  29. P.... L....

    Why you put the F word -_-

    P.... L....

    Dude, if you can't handle it, don't listen to anything other than nursery rhymes. Literally nowadays everything has profanity.

  30. A.... W....

    People are pulling phrases from the song that "hit them hard." But tbh, this entire song hit hard.

  31. g.... ....

    jeez I actually relate to literallye very single lyric. especially "I want to do the most good, and prevent thr most hurt, but i gotta put on my own oxygen mask first" "they didn't deserve, but i couldn't bear to let myself become boring to them" "i hate not having a reason to look my best"

  32. H.... ....

    Is it bad that every single line relates to me except for the famous people’s time part

    H.... ....

    Seriously for years I’ve been wondering if I have depression

    H.... ....

    Get counseling if you're feeling like this. And it may be anxiety.

    H.... ....

    I’ll try

  33. �.... C....

    I feel uncomfortably identificated

  34. S.... ....

    For anyone who says that there depressed this Is consistently every single day of depressed people life and its hard to not to just give up and die

    S.... ....

    Exactly. I try to numb my pain by cutting, but I often contemplate suicide all the time. That is always on my mind. I seriously struggle. Everytime something goes wrong, the first thing I think of is slitting my wrists, but the second thing is my suicide strategy.

    S.... ....

    Amanda Wolfe same I know how it is

  35. k.... ....

    I wouldn't be my own friend I'm too inconsistent
    That's shits hitting harder than the homophopes

  36. D.... S....

    “I can be happy in the moment. I’m not when I reflect.” Damn that’s what I feel like a lot tho

  37. x.... W....

    Also I don’t care how long ago this was but i know how it feels I don’t even feel like I have a reason to get out of bed every morning

  38. R.... ....

    If I had to explain having depression to someone that doesn’t have it, I think this song would be it

  39. V.... K....

    I was so into the screaming part, unfortunately while slicing bread. Guess you know how that ended 😂

  40. B.... K....

    Hey BiaB, why are all of your songs depressing?

  41. E.... E....

    I'm crying. This is me. I'm literally dying...

  42. M.... ....

    This is, in all seriousness, the best song I have EVER heard. It puts my life in words in ways I didn't know was possible. Thank you, and I'm sorry you feel this way. You're great, Dave.

  43. L.... T....

    Dude I know your a little depressed it's just that everybody has stuff to hide and this all just hit me like a wrecki g ball when I listened to it

    L.... T....

    I just realize how much it doesn't make sense

    L.... T....

    No trust me its very heavy depression

    L.... T....

    @astro vlogs meh who gives a shit wait but if it was he would be dead I've know smeone people who commit suicide over heavy depression

  44. x.... W....

    The only part I remembered was the first line “I’m not dead”

  45. T.... t....

    this whole song just smacks me in the face like a sack of wet mice.

  46. R.... E....

    When a man has better hair than u 😂😅🤣😄

    R.... E....

    when a comment has better than me 😂😅🤣😄

    R.... E....

    Bru he has heavy depression if u have it worse than him the holy crap ur life must suck

  47. L.... E....

    This is one of the best things I've listened to yet. I've remembered possibly hearing your amazing music before, but recently I found "Don't Stay in School" in my recommended. It makes me honestly so happy that you speak out the words that always stay in my head. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, you always make the emotions I never knew I still have, seem... possible again. ^^.. and don't push yourself too hard, it's understandable for breaks and such, no one should be pushed to do something they don't truly want to do...

  48. s.... s....

    This is my 8th time to listen to this song but the first to watch...HE IS SO ATTRACTIVE

  49. N.... P....

    I see all these comments about how this piece speaks to their mind and soul but like



    *can we just admire how hot the thumbnail was?*

  50. P.... ....

    I listened to this song back when it was first out it made me feel said but I didn't fully understand it! These last three months I now do understand everything he's talking about in the video! Good job Dave

  51. G.... H....

    I remember I had a friend had for8 years we’re not in the same class we haven’t talk since hope I’ll see him again

  52. N.... D....

    "I dont wanna stop" the feeling of being afraid to fail and the little hope left in you

  53. k.... ....

    👌👍

  54. k.... ....

    I feel. Bad. For. You

  55. j.... ....

    So relatable

  56. A.... L....

    I can relate to that ......

  57. Y.... i....

    Wow you literally just made a sound track for my life. Thank you for doing this ,so many people think they are alone, this song proves they are wrong . Thank you for putting your soul out there it just may have saved life's 💚

  58. Z.... ....

    the line about not making a promise hit me hard

  59. E.... d....

    This is the most relatable song I've ever heard.

  60. Q.... S....

    "I feel alone...I know I'm not"
    That shit hits hard, I know I have a loving family and friends, I know I have support systems and people I can go to for help, but there are just the moments where I feel like nobody really cares about me and nobody's actually there for me and it scares me that my mind can make me think like that

  61. T.... t....

    when i first heard this song in may of last year it punched me in the gut with every word because i finally understood why i was alone, why my friends had stopped talking to me and just everything that was wrong with me. i was so insecure back then that i had to lie and cheat and steel to get any sort of recognition. i was ruining my own life and i didnt get why people werent talking to me anymore. but all that is behind me now and i think im in abetter place. im not perfect, no one is but i can accept that now and make life worthwhile for me and the friends i have left and that means so much to me so, to wrap up the entire damn essay i just wrote in the youtube comments of a 4 year old song, thank you. thank you making realise the problem and how to fix my life. my hands are shaking and im holding back tears as i write this closing statment. thank you David brown.


    sincerely,
    Nicholas crocker, a changed person. thank you.

  62. L.... T....

    This is me how I feel I feel alone but I'm not I feel like I hate myself I think this is acurate to whats on my mind

  63. C.... L....

    I know it wouldn’t help (year it’s been thee years and all) but I just wanna give him a hug

    He’s perfect the way he is and I hope everything is improving.

    Love his channel.

  64. G.... V....

    2:16 to the end hits me hard

  65. V.... R....

    Are you ok ? 😰😰

  66. I.... D....

    Dave we love you, don't be negative to yourself your the best person i know in youtube you helped a school

  67. B.... -....

    It breaks my heart when he screams "I don't want to stop".... so relevant

  68. D.... ....

    OMG I'm not alone!!

  69. E.... -....

    0:00 - 0:01 alright then

  70. W.... A....

    damn dave this perfectly describes how life feels for some of us

  71. B.... P....

    "I still think I can get better I still think I can create and get pleasure from it" this hits me hard because I was a builder I built small things but my mom loved everything I made and one day that all ended and but I still create for my siblings and I can still get pleasure from it because it makes them happy no matter what.
    Thank you Dave you helped me a lot

  72. L.... ....

    I liked this song so much that it's legit one of the most listened to in my playlist.

  73. L.... K....

    My depression was even worse but i overcame it for the most part it will always haunt you like a rain cloud just over your head while everyone else is having a good time

  74. p.... j....

    I wasn't prepared...it crushed, and it crushed my soul as it was better explanation of my own thoughts that I could ever voice while I wass battling my depression for years. Every imperfect lyric and word makes it better in this case... Thank You Internet person, You don't know how much I appreciate it.

  75. E.... m....

    I don’t cry often to songs well done
    You are so skilled

  76. E.... S....

    I understand this song so much because lately I have been shuting people out afraid to let them in... afraid to get hurt again... afraid to put my trust in someone... afraid to leave my room and be with my family...I feel so empty and scared.

  77. E.... W....

    I feel so much sad 😭😭😭😭 this is soo sad 😞

  78. M.... R....

    I feel like more people care than you think. 😐😐😐😐😑😐

  79. D.... U....

    “Ive been a terrible friend but i couldnt bear to let myself be boring to them”
    That.. that describes my whole life
    I just realized at the end of the song if you put subtitles it leaves a really nice message dave should really see it!

  80. S.... C....

    Your songs inspire me to write my own and help me understand so much more about what I need to do and how to say what I feel and how to get through to people
    Thank you

  81. M.... ....

    I relate so much to feeling unmotivated and like a terrible friend because of it. THANK YOU for making this song it makes me feel less alone.

    M.... ....

    i can relate to this so much.

  82. B.... ....

    “I genuinely believe I am capable of changing the world”
    Well you help change my world with this song
    And many others so thank you Dave

  83. t.... ....

    this song helped me put my own mental state into words, even though its not as severe. Thank you

  84. s.... c....

    it's weird how i don't feel so alone when i'm reading the comments.

  85. �.... ....

    This is so incredibly relatable to me, especially right now. As a music producer myself even more of the lyrics in this song have meaning to me than someone who isn’t. “I can’t face my work, I feel sick from the work” and the idea that “you’re not good enough at it.” Those really hit hard for me. I remember watching this video when it dropped, I still come back to it on a regular basis.

  86. U.... ....

    me...everyday....

  87. H.... C....

    WHO DISLIKED THIS?!!!!! I WILL PERSONALLY BREAK THEIR ANKLLES!!!!!

    H.... C....

    Wait, no. Send them to me so I can torture them! :D

    H.... C....

    No let’s torture them one by one

    H.... C....

    We'll do it together!

  88. J.... t....

    This is a song that describes the pain I fell on the inside

  89. Q.... S....

    I hate how this only has 5mil views on YouTube ... Can't relate lyrics anymore

  90. S.... K....

    This is how I felt before but nowI realise, life sucks and you can’t do nothin about it, it’s better to just hat the rest and not yourself

  91. A.... K....

    This has been me for the past few years, been trying really hard lately to get out of this "state" of waiting for things to get better, and actually doing things to make it better.

  92. C.... S....

    This song rellay helped my not fell alown

  93. C.... S....

    I have ADHD and this song is like my everybay life

  94. B.... A....

    I'm absolute trash at talking about my depression and anxiety, but this song describes everything I feel when the days get really dark. It's kept me here for a long time now. Hopefully it will continue to keep me here.

  95. K.... T....

    I love all of your songs. There so just... true. So real. That’s rare in a lot of music. Your an amazing person.

  96. W.... T....

    Hello you want that that beat was harder well idc

  97. A.... M....

    You go to barber 😁😂