Blue October - Hate Me Lyrics






(If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me.)

("Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon
I was just calling to see how you were doing
You sounded really uptight last night
It made me a little nervous, and a l... and... well... it made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous, too
I just wanted to make sure you were really OK
And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication
You know I love you, and
Take care honey
I know you're under a lot of pressure
See ya. Bye bye")

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me, just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I'm sober now for three whole months it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling, "Make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered, "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
For you
For you
For you

[Children voices:]
If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me

[Girl:] Hey, Justin! [12x]





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  1. t.... h....

    I'm in love with that man!

  2. R.... L....

    It’s ok to do drugs once in a while just be careful

  3. A.... S....

    My girlfriend just left me because of my alcohol addiction that underlyingly never realized that I also hate myself and she always told me to stop being so hard on myself and it wasn’t till she left that I listen to this and really realize how much this song hits home and ultimately this is the last straw because I lost the most inportant thing to me this song is the one thing keeping me going atm

  4. M.... P....

    14 days today...december 23rd was my last overdose...at the time I was mad my people had Narcan. Today I am grateful

  5. R.... S....

    Only now I understand this clip is dedicated to a Mom ❤️

  6. A.... ....

    I have terrible Anxiety and Depression. Im not a hardcore drug addict or Alcholholic, but do it occasionally. I dont know who I am anymore or where im going. I float thru life in a daze, sedated. I ignore my friends and family but miss them everyday. I want to be a different person but cant seem to get there. When i listen to music like this i want to be a better person. Where do i go from here ? I need something, somebody but Im lost and scared. who's here to help me ? Im to old to go thru this shit. But i live the same nightmare everyday some days worse than others.

  7. D.... ....

    Clean and sober for 17 months... Up until recently, the day after Thanksgiving. Now I'm back on fentanyl and heroin again, plus added Molly to the mix this time.

    I hate the holidays.

    Best wishes to all you recovering out there. I'll get back there again, eventually. God bless.

  8. H.... w....

    1/5/20 4:55 am

  9. F.... N....

    2020 and I'm still listening to this badass song that has so much feeling.

    F.... N....

    Every time I listen to this I'm reminded of the savagery and cruelty of the voices in my head. All the regrets they can play on. It makes me want to fight harder for all those who refused to leave me behind in the darkest days.

  10. K.... ....

    People,get the thelp you need! Quit depending on a damn song to ease your addiction!! This fn singer dont gibe 2 shits aboug you!!!

  11. L.... B....

    I'm here from Nik the Booksmiths channel! Said this was one of her ALL time favorite songs and now I see WHY! For anyone out there struggling with ANYTHING, understand you're descended from warriors and our ancestors didn't make it this far because its EASY!!! They "DID" because they were strong and YOU ARE TOO!!!
    YOU GOT THIS AND CAN HANDLE ANYTHING,JUST DON'T CONFUSE QUESTIONING WITH WEAKNESS BECAUSE IT ISN'T,WITHOUT QUESTIONING WE'RE ARROGANT....LEARN FROM EACH DAY AND IF YOU HAVE TO COUNT YOUR STEPS TILL THE ANXIETY HAS ABATED, TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND REMEMBER YOUR ROOTS and START COUNTING!!!
    YOU aren't here because you have weakness in your blood....you are HERE because you're STRONG!!!
    Always remember THAT!

  12. E.... W....

    Been clean since 2011 best feeling in the world

  13. I.... L....

    I was battling my demons and my father was the only one there only to realize he has his own demons to fight with while he was already weak with all the battles. Sorry dad... But I will see you soon. Sorry for what I have become.

    I.... L....

    I'm sure your Dad forgives you and loves you... now you need to love and forgive yourself

  14. R.... M....

    So I’ll drive so fucking far away,
    That I never cross your mind...

  15. B.... K....

    1/3/20 4:38 am

  16. D.... G....

    3 whole months straight of self harm

    D.... G....

    Thats brilliant! 💖 congratulations (i truly mean that)

    D.... G....

    @DominosAndHearts Thank you so much. I feel like I can just drop the knife now whenever I'm depressed. And not even struggle with it.

  17. L.... M....

    I'm not sure why this song is in my recommended all of a sudden but I dont mind. I used to really love it back in the day.

  18. K.... B....

    And then she whispered, How could you do this to me"? I whispered that to my nephew who I raised right before we made him leave for the last time. He is now almost a year and a half clean and understands the tough love we tried to show him. He is dating a sweet girl with her head on straight and he couldn't be more happier. I thought for sure he would never get his life together, even though I prayed and prayed for it, but he did. He simply wanted a better life and he's worked and work for it. I do listen to this song A lot though. It always makes me cry when I hear it, partly because of what we went through and partly because we don't have to go through that now. Such a good song.

  19. T.... S....

    I LOVE THIS SONG

  20. c.... A....

    2020 da like

  21. T.... ....

    Who's here in 2020??????

  22. J.... D....

    43 Years and 224 Days Sober this Response... Never looked back.. i'm a better person for it.

    Btw, im 43 years and 224 days old!

  23. E.... W....

    This reminds me of a really fucked up time of my life.
    I guess it does everyone else.
    Oh, memories. You suck sometimes.

  24. G.... d....

    Im 31, started coke and heroin at 15. Started stripping crack and Xanax was added. I'm on methadone and prescribed Xanax. I haven't touched heroin since. Crack is still a problem. But I just keep trying.

    G.... d....

    You can do it. I have faith in you.

  25. X.... g....

    I have a abousiv mom an alcoholic dad i been beating with a metal pipe mom also tried to drown me her boyfriend sexuly asulted me she told me no one loves me and no one will pushed me out a window my dad is currently addicted to alcohol so I am not allowed to see him by court orders same for my mom I have anger issues and have night terrors but I'm fighting strong and trying my best

  26. J.... O....

    I'm over 8 months clean...

  27. L.... F....

    I had a girl, an angel, but I chose to drink instead. Addiction fucking sucks.

  28. I.... M....

    This song reminds me of my mom

  29. M.... F....

    Tears from pain are a biproduct of disaster.

  30. D.... P....

    That scene where he is unresponsive on the floor, I put my mom through that, I resent myself for so much of what I put her through, and try to make up for it every day now that she's in her twilight years

    D.... P....

    I did too.....she kicked me out of her house after that.....I'm doing much better now and I thank her for giving me no choice but to figure shit out and fast. Sink or swim....I decided to swim.

  31. k.... ....

    Saw these guys in concert 12 years ago, their songs helped me through alot

  32. T.... N....

    Clean 11 years! Almost dead three times, everyone dig deap, love yourself more than anything! You are worth it ❤️❤️❤️

  33. R.... A....

    Hate me hate me.. Forever...

  34. Z.... D....

    I really like this song, but every time I listen to this it makes me miss my ex. Wtf do I do now? lmao

    Z.... D....

    damn.. that happens. We all got that one song that reminds us of someone we try to forget...

  35. J.... P....

    I lost him😭😭😭

  36. #.... #....

    "So I'll drive so fuckin far away that I'll never cross your mind..."
    #AlienFrequency

  37. a.... c....

    Hate ne today and forever i deserve it

  38. A.... A....

    drinking watching this. hating my life i want to change

    A.... A....

    You got this.

    A.... A....

    Start now ❤

  39. e.... k....

    this is such and inspiration I'm 1 years clean off of morphine, opioids, and pills I mean I gave in a couple times during that year but at least I'm not into drugs anymore there's so much I have to deal with fixing but that's one I practically beat. I love this song because it give me strength

  40. D.... W....

    For all the drug addicts. May God lead you the right way, my friends. There are people that care about you even if you don't see them. Fight for your lives and freedom and find a way to prosper. The world may seem cruel but if you turn the page you will see that's it's also the most beautiful thing there is and it's worth living it and fighting to live it free.

  41. J.... R....

    I never struggled with drugs, but have for many many years with depression and anxiety. Constantly fighting suicidal thoughts.

    J.... R....

    What helped me was understanding that the world is a hard place to be intelligent and in that way to feel different. I have always felt different from all around me and that lead to some depression but there are people just like you fighting the same fights and I grew to realize that I have to put twice the effort on everything which seems the others do effortlessly so that I can just keep up but that also lead me to bloom late and the late bloomers bloom in the most beautiful way. I hope you find your way and bloom my friend.

  42. G.... D....

    I can't wait to be 3 months in again....& not f'n relapse. Constantly judged by fam

  43. S.... G....

    2 years clean as of June 18, 2020

  44. T.... a....

    Sober ten months now

  45. T.... R....

    My mom told me this is the song she would listen to while high off of heroin xanax meth ect. while looking at my picture crying and wishing she didnt do this to me. I cried so many tears for her and loved her the whole way and she feels so terrible and doesnt understand how much i lover her and idc what she did to me ide always love her but i still sometimes think how she could have done this to me but now she has been clean for 6 years and life has never been better

  46. s.... o....

    I have to block out thoughts her so I dont lose my head 😞

  47. M.... M....

    To alll that are clean and sober, i hope you all are doing good now. And still sober i hope you all are living amazing lives.

  48. J.... 7....

    My momma played this song constantly while i was growing up...she was so loving and did the best she could for me but she battled with addiction....she was found dead in a creek in mississippi and i find myself taking everything to feel nothing because it hurts so bad...please pray for me and my family.

    J.... 7....

    best of luck I hope things get better it hurt to lose people to drugs and it makes you want to do drugs, I get high a lot but at least I'm not doing pills. Just strive for better and try to get help. My brother was the same we were both based and he found drugs to cope with it after it got really bad for him where he almost died I said fuck it a joined him. I've been sober off morphine and opioids for a year now and pills for 4 months. You can do it you just gotta believe!

    J.... 7....

    @eijiro kirishima dang bro thanks...thats amazing though man im proud of you, keep it up!

    J.... 7....

    Holy fuck bruh, im so sorry for your loss and pain, i cant imagine! Please dont leave this world, it gets better... i promise!

  49. T.... B....

    i remember when this song came out i was suicidal and it was all that saved the 14 year old me

    T.... B....

    Glad youre still here with us. Happy holidays:)

  50. M.... M....

    And she whispered how could you do this too me ? <\3

  51. C.... B....

    Thank you. Simply, thank you

    Unfortunately, sometimes we have to jusr srjve away to find our own peace. But at 46 years old, a stint in the Marines..a toxic family

    .a wife that left me with three young kids to struggle. Through left snd right ideology

    I finally understood this great song. It was always me. And it feels so freeing
    .to say hate me for everything

    Magic of artistry. And yes,I understand the last round we retain. Sometimes, its any means possible to end fight...or pain if we are not successful

    I'm thankful for this song...thank you...fkr sharing your common pain

  52. M.... T....

    Hate me today hate me tommrow mary dawes im srry i will always love you. Gtg

  53. J.... M....

    2 months clean today from heroin but I also do everything! ✊✊

  54. J.... ....

    Your phreaking black eye liner dude, is what kills this video for me, And the fact that your kind of fat.

  55. K.... A....

    7 years clean - to those struggling I believe in you. You got this.

  56. K.... W....

    Iatwmituhmfattiddfy...

  57. B.... M....

    Depression kills

  58. B.... M....

    I remember almost dying due to Necrotizing Fasciitis back in 07. This song got me through so much teenaged angst amidst the worst point in my life. Hate Me for all the things I should've been but wasn't...

  59. P.... B....

    5 months clean

  60. O.... N....

    One of the greatest songs ever written, and Justin's delivery just makes it all that much more powerful, nicely done Blue October!

  61. J.... S....

    Hating myself HUGE tonight I'll never be free...waiting on "lidocaine" now....God PLEASE let me out

  62. d.... ....

    Yes, all of those you hurt and destroyed hate you.

  63. f.... A....

    Still listening in 2019 dec

  64. A.... ....

    ২০১৫ তে প্রথম এই গান শুনি, মন খারাপ থেইক্যা৷ তো, ভিডিও দেহি নাই, খালি মন খারাপ থাকত যহন শুনতাম৷ ইংরেজিও তেমন বুঝতাম না৷

    আইজকা ভিডিও দেখলাম। And, I can't hold my tears! এত্তো কষ্টের গান ক্যা এইডা?

    loving it again & again

  65. K.... R....

    Borderline amongst other mental illness contributed to me being abusive to my ex. My cutting addiction was the last straw for his family, and they took him away. I'll never see or hear from him again. Since Friday I've been clean. I hope he hates me for what I did to him. I've been a horrible person to him and plenty of other people.

  66. d.... ....

    🤘😑🤘

  67. c.... l....

    I have this one still I like this cd but I have it still

  68. T.... X....

    Sorry I’m still an active meth user

  69. J.... R....

    Currently losing my mom to meth😭

    J.... R....

    Take her back! That person on meth is not your mom get your mom back whatever way nessesary

  70. R.... V....

    Sometimes you just don’t know what people have been through......

  71. F.... F....

    The part with the mom leaving the voicemail gets me. My mom passed away on her birthday last year & I wanted to either use or drink again after 15yrs but somehow made it through it.

  72. m.... G....

    I amways come back to this song its so fucking good even tho its very sad it as something that reach me in it

  73. J.... R....

    This song hits everyone of us one way or another helps me a lot when times are hard helps me gain strength to pick my self and move forward

  74. J.... C....

    My demons are winning the fights. I wish I had the strength.

    J.... C....

    Josh Cross don’t ever give up I don’t know you you don’t know me but I see people like this can be the best thing for each other to reach out to for help heads up if we try we can all donit

  75. S.... D....

    This video always gets to me with tears especially the limo at the cemetery. Also reminds me of my father and grand parents who are not here and rip. Rip to all deceased. Happy holidays.

  76. B.... W....

    I have been clean since July 21, 2016. This is officially the only post I have ever made a comment on, I remember this song when it first came out, I was born in 1990 and I'm 29 years old, I started doing drugs at 12 I'm talking about coke, meth, heroin anything I could get my hands on, I tried so hard to block out the horrible childhood I had and what I was going through I felt so alone then I remember when I heard this song for the first time and remembering that sickness in my stomach, my heart speeding up and the break down I had because of the the lyrics to this song just made since to me I knew I wasn't alone and that there was a reason everyone who has ever been through anything horrible was put on Earth bc we are God strongest soldiers cause there is a end to this but only you can do if for you and when you finally realize that the pain you were trying so hard to numb it's the pain you need to feel to know how strong you really are. My addiction took 3 kids of mine, I hurt the people I truly care about just to push them away so they didn't have to see the darkness fill my eyes, I lost what was left of my family after my parents died, my sister who needed me just as much as I needed her couldn't be around the person I had become, I played this song over and over again and 1 day before I went to jail which was July 21, 2019 I was listening to this song and prayed for God's will to do what he thought was best for me I begged him for his help at that time I was on the run living in a building with my husband now but then we were engaged and we were co dependent, anyway after being up for days I crashed waking up to a loud banging on the building in which I knew God heard me and did what was best for me a few weeks later I found out I was pregnant with my daughter Serenity although I had been in and out of jail and prison several times this was different I not only wanted but needed to stay in jail, I stayed in there up until I was 5 and a half months and I remember when I made a promise to my little nephew who was losing his father to brain cancer and said to me Aunt Brandy will you get better bc I don't want to lose you 2 I was ready to be the mother and a Aunt I should have been all those years so I made a promise to him I wouldn't and before I came out of jail my husband now I told him that we can be together but he has to quit or I will do it on my own. He ended up get sober for me and now we have another daughter Khloe' who was born May 26, 2019 , we have a home, a truck, and know he has his own business. But don't get me wrong we have been through a lot and we still are fair share of arguments but we thrive to live the life we only dreamed of. I don't care if your so we for 1 day 6 hours 10 year I'm proud of you that's the first thing you have to do is see it through your own eyes that you have a problem not bc someone says you do but you do fight for your life because it's worth it and if you have someone along the way to help you don't push them away it doesn't make you look weak for wanting help it's admitting you have a problem and you already know some things are just hard to do by yourself. Just know that there are millions of people you don't know that pray for your strength to fight this demon bc you may not see it yet but your a soldier! I love y'all hope this help and thank you Blue October for helping so many people by fighting the war of addiction and self inflicted pain!

  77. B.... !....

    Gosh this song.

  78. C.... D....

    Wherever you are, whoever you are, I believe in You, I believe in You.

  79. L.... J....

    This got me through some really tough times.

  80. E.... W....

    Im me never changing

  81. A.... M....

    No hablo inglés :v

  82. D.... M....

    Back on the alcohol and Xanax I want to stop

  83. t.... p....

    My ex played this song as he was leaving me. I'll never hate him. Every word of this song hits home. I tried to help him stop the war that was raging in his head but my opponent was stronger & won the battle. .. He left me because I wasn't as strong as the things he was battling. I hope someday he realizes how much I really love him & I pray the demons release him so he can finally see whats good for him. .. I want to ask him everyday "How could you do this to me"

    t.... p....

    We hate ourselves and our addictions. We always hurt the ones closest to us. I write this while in a treatment facilty. I pray your bf will find his bottom soon and seek help

  84. B.... B....

    I love you!!! And any fans of yours!!!

  85. J.... B....

    Not an addict but I do have a lot of self loathing. I still bump this when I’m down

  86. R.... D....

    Always thinking of you mi amor

    R.... D....

    And I always think of you about you being with you

    R.... D....

    I love you MI corazon

    R.... D....

    I love you papi and I always be thinking of you

    R.... D....

    I love you

  87. T.... V....

    6 1/2 years clean. From a 20 year habit.
    I feel anguish for those of you still struggling.
    You are not alone.

    T.... V....

    My hero, keep fighting the good fight Vinyl...

  88. L.... T....

    Good Song.

  89. C.... W....

    Love u guys u guys got me thur so many days!!!

  90. r.... d....

    good song
    cool

  91. M.... C....

    To all of you fighting demons and depression. GOD believes in you. HE believed in me and I'm still here. STAY STRONG!

    M.... C....

    Michael Celentano
    Salvation is from Christ and only in Christ.

  92. O.... M....

    I'm sorry....do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind. I'm so sorry.

  93. J.... F....

    I can’t believe it she was that sad she thought she had no purpose I wished I told her that I loved her but I didn’ I love you my wife Jennie 2/29/72 12/9/19 I’m sorry I didn’t get to you sooner all you ever did was love and made everyone including me gave everyone joy compassion love always about others Love you My Jennie Love your Husband Albert

  94. G.... F....

    I hope that all of you get clean. Been there and I truly hated myself. Self hate is what I truly is what I believe takes us down this horrible road. Ironically I and I am sure that you love the people that you care for. But they don't understand. Anyway there is help. Please learn to love yourself. You may not love you at times. But so many people do love you. If you need to? Please get help. life can be great! Even after the worst of times.

  95. P.... M....

    OMG this song....I have walked in on that exact scene too many times, a mother or father cradling and begging their dead child to please open your eyes, please wake up, please stay....

  96. J.... K....

    im on my 3rd relapse, had a year clean in July and messed up 2 weeks later and havent gotten off the heroin yet. Im hopping to stop this week, never realized this song was about that. I came by it randomly today funny how that wsorked out.

    J.... K....

    You got this, I believe in you.

  97. S.... D....

    In January, I will be 12 years sober. ♥

    S.... D....

    Congratulations!