Autumn, Emilie - Gaslight Lyrics




The wheels are turning
Broken machinery
It grinds below us
And all around I see
The crooked ceiling
The old familiar halls
The dirty paper
That’s covering the walls
The shattered staircase
The bed I’m bleeding in
We’ve tried to fight this
But we can never win

And in the gaslight that brings both life and death
If it’s like last night this could be my last breath
And so I hold tight to any hands I see
But nothing’s alright they’re always watching me
And no one’s coming, coming to take me home
And no one’s coming, coming to take me home

He takes my picture
Although I don’t know why
His hands are shaking
Although I see him try
To look collected
He thinks it doesn’t show
We are connected
But what he doesn’t know
Is when the guard comes
To take me away
I will be tortured
Until the break of day

And in the gaslight that brings both life and death
If it’s like last night this could be my last breath
And so I hold tight to any hands I see
But nothing’s alright they’re always watching me
And no one’s coming, coming to take me home
And no one’s coming, coming to take me home

He’s at the window
He’s always looking down
As we are beaten
How can this fucking town
Not know what’s happening
To all their little girls
They’ve got the Pirate
They’re cutting off her curls
And she is screaming
They won’t leave her alone
And I am dreaming
Of joys I’ve never known

At least I’m breathing
At least I have my wits
But when the cart comes
Who’s buried in the pits
Below my window
I hear a horse go by
And in the next cell
An inmate starts to cry
We try our best though
To quiet down the fuss
We know tomorrow
It could be one of us

And in the gaslight that brings both life and death
If it’s like last night, this could be my last breath
And so I hold tight to any hands I see
But nothing’s alright they’re always watching me
And no one’s coming, coming to take me home
And no one’s coming, coming to take me home
And no one’s coming, coming to take me home





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Autumn, Emilie Gaslight Comments
  1. Cait Clark

    Coming back to this song after binge watching Handmaiden's Tale and I'm in tears

  2. Katie

    This song is probably how it feels to die

    Simren Bajaj

    Katie she’s a suicide attempt survivor, she would know

  3. Edgar Butcher

    I've been keeping falling in love with this gem for the past two years

  4. Hannah Cameron

    Gaslighting is a form of manipulation that makes the victim questions their own sanity

  5. Simran Bajaj

    I’m playing this in the background while doing a school project on solitary confinement

  6. Sarah Randall

    This reminds me of the story I've been working on, in where a girl (Beatrice Ignatius) is captured by a rapist (Bennett Loren). She is also in a cell with 18 other girls (Ashanti Ottah, Trixia Buster, Lilith Hassan, Yen Chen, Millicent Franklin, Belle Russel, Lorelei Derek, Selena Achilles, Sarah Ahab, Fallon Mahon, Dai Yasuo, Kachina Mingan, Valera Dimitri, Karena Lennart, Roslyn Alastair, Marisol Jorgeai, Kim Nguyen, Guinevere Llewellyn, Odelia Feoras, and Persephone Feoras).

    Beatlesque

    Whoa! Have you finished your story yet? Perhaps you could publish it on one of the online story websites, like An Archive Of Our Own.

  7. AsinusSum

    This all smells like suicide

  8. Patrick Batemans Waifu

    cried the first time i heard this

    Lidda

    saaaaaaaame

  9. PrincessJinx100

    I sang this song to myself every night in a mental facility.

  10. Neko LoveDoll

    this song bring back flashbacks of my childhood..

  11. Leah Katherine

    I was in a mental hospital when she realsed the lyrics to this song and I got special permission to print them and put them on my wall and literally cried when the actual song came out

  12. Patrick Batemans Waifu

    2016 and im still cryin

    Patrick Batemans Waifu

    "and i am dreaming of joys ive never known"

    Arianna Gillespie

    Patrick Batemans Waifu omg I'm not the only one x.x

    Gen Franklin

    2018 ! 😭

    Balázs Dukát

    @Gen Franklin 2019

  13. G-d kins me BITCH

    the last part oml

  14. SpecificallyKate

    This song is just so so beautiful. It makes me cry.

  15. Strawberry

    She my wife.

  16. Quinzel Wang

    this song :/

  17. Kayden Draws

    Actually the 'Pirate' if you have read the Emilie Autumn book would be the pirate Emily meets when she is first stuck into the asylum, not captain maggot.

  18. Patrick Batemans Waifu

    or the blood is referring to her tryng to kill herself..her poems are alive

    Mendax Intentions

    I love this chick

  19. Roach

    why is she so perfect..

    Mendax Intentions

    Far from perfect, if she was there will be no need to express what digests her heart beneath her voice and shallowed breath,

  20. Eugenia123345

    /watch?v=WWiXF59uiEs

  21. Eugenia123345

    You posted this on my Birthday of 2012!!!!!! How awesome. I LOVE EMILIE AUTUMN!!!!!!

  22. Code Name Albino

    This song is absolutely beautiful(:

  23. Rose_Tazz

    I've always thought, in the "I Don't Understand" song, the nice young man, it's about when you go to inpatient or any mental hospital, they take your picture so they know who you are and they are giving medicine or therapy to the right patient. It's kind of a big deal there.

  24. Lu Lima

    I'm crazy to learn how to play this on my piano. :)

    Thorned Knight - Composer

    Hey! I'm glad you are ^^ In case you're still wanting to learn it I just uploaded a piano tutorial of it to my channel. Hope it helps you!

  25. negative74

    beautiful. thankyou so much for posting.

  26. Cara Antoinette

    Captain Maggots.

  27. outermosttoe

    You're welcome. I'm glad I could be of use.

  28. cyanidepancakes

    i thought "her" was referring to one of the little girls from the line "how can this fucking town not know what's happening to all their little girls?" i never once occurred to me that the pirate could be the girl herself. thanks for telling me that. i'll be sure to consider that from now on.

  29. outermosttoe

    I thought of that after I posted, but I just got into EA's stuff a few days ago, so I hadn't seen anything mentioning Captain Maggot at that point... Nice to see I was right, though. ^_^

  30. Catherine Summers

    That's what I thought, too. Maybe the girl was delusional and thought she was a pirate, or she was really a pirate girl, or it was just a nickname, but either way, it makes sense that she's the inmate whose hair is cut.

  31. Jantessa

    captain maggot, kids. it's maggot ^^

  32. outermosttoe

    ...Wouldn't 'the Pirate' be the nickname of the one whose hair is being cut off? Seems to make most sense with the whole set of four lines there:

    "They've got the Pirate
    They're cutting off her curls
    And she is screaming,
    They won't leave her alone."

  33. cyanidepancakes

    i assumed it was some sort of Victorian surgical device or something because I've always thought her symbol of her abusers was "doctors".

    Chihiro Fujisaki

    cyanidepancakes I think it's the girl who's hair is getting cut

  34. cyanidepancakes

    what exactly is "the pirate"

    Kissa Ukkonen

    cyanidepancakes the pirate is Jolie she's from her book

  35. cyanidepancakes

    It's called "I Don't Understand"
    /watch?v=xOmMrGhvQf0

  36. Renan Colombini

    What is the name of the song? Do you know?

  37. cyanidepancakes

    she's referencing a song of hers about a man who takes photos of suicidal girls.

  38. Anya Heart

    I own everything has has ever released, and then some,, but this album is a true marvel. Not only does her book, The Asylum For Wayward Victorian Girls come to life, BUT! Emilie sings with a sharp and feral grace that I love.

  39. Lisa Cucchetti

    Its another one of Emilie's songs, and was incorporated into this song at that point.

  40. melonka100

    I don't get it... could you explain?

  41. Renan Colombini

    What? What did I miss?

  42. tylie62269

    absoluty beautiful emilie, i can't wait to see this one live

  43. Ναταλία Σώφρα

    Oh!Fine then!

  44. Aliceris

    I know, but I rarely comment videos, in case nobody else notice such.. :I

  45. Ναταλία Σώφρα

    Well I'm not in the mood for a fight to be honest but I don't see any comments about noticing that...

  46. Aliceris

    Yay, someone else that noticed.. ; u ;

  47. Ναταλία Σώφρα

    1:47-2:06 "Ι don't Understand"! :')

  48. xxBloodyMachetexx

    Beautiful :)

  49. BonnyBlackSwan

    Thank you for the video :D And what a perfect picture of Emilie to go with the song...!