August Burns Red - Spirit Breaker Lyrics






Staring at the walls to pass the time.
Pinch myself make sure I'm still alive.
I'm not alright.
It's become a disguise.
Friends and family, I'm losing all ties.
Staring at the walls to pass the time.
Pinch myself; make sure I'm still alive.
I've been here before.
I will survive another month under gray skies.
I'm holding on as a tight as I can.
The monotony never seems to end.
Every day feels the same.
Every day I think about the place I'd rather be than here.
I've been here before.
I will survive another month under these grey skies.
We've carried each other through and over the seas.
We live for nights like this.
The ones we won't forget. I hope to open my eyes to see this picture.
I'm throwing it all away. I hope to open my eyes to see this moment that I should treasure forever.
Staring at the walls to pass the time.
Pinch myself; make sure I'm still alive.
I'm not alright.
It's become a disguise.
Friends and family, I'm losing all ties.
I'm holding on as tight as I can.
Coming home, I don't know when.
I'm holding on as tight as I can.
I swear.
My dearest love, I woke up tired today, even more so than yesterday.
How that's possible, I don't even know, nor do I want to. It's hard to find the motivation when you are this drained. My body aches but I'm used to feeling this way.
Seventeen down, seventeen to go.
That's not so bad, right?
I think of home often and of you even more.
Yesterday I saw the sun shining. It appeared for a few minutes just after two.
For a moment I found myself smiling, as if those short rays of light were enough to get me by.
Maybe that was enough.
Thank God, I needed that.
I surely needed that.





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  1. S.... M....

    This song snuck into my life a few weeks back. Nearing 40 yrs old I began getting bored with music. Thank you ABR for being that fresh breath of air. This song will always be a motivation song for me when I need to light a fire inside.

  2. C.... S....

    This 3 song video series is the most beautiful music video story I've ever seen

  3. A.... H....

    Is it weird if i listen to this like people listen to nature sounds to go to sleep?

  4. a.... ....

    Whenever I'm under gray skies I listen to this song. It saves me since 2013, thank ABR, I needed that.

    a.... ....

    This song is my alarm clock it's that good. It wakes me up and gets me pumped for the day

  5. D.... E....

    No matter how beautiful the song and lyrics it always brings back so many memories when I was with my ex . The nostalgia feels good but at the same time I just miss her :/

  6. v.... v....

    how is this still not at 1 milli

  7. S.... L....

    2:23 - 2:41 - Speech Impediment vibe from this bridge. When they go back to Thrill Seeker in their songwriting, it blows any of their new ideas out of the water every single time. Easily one of the finest riffs on the entire album.

  8. T.... P....

    2013 - until I'm gone. August Burns Red forever.

  9. f.... ....

    I still fuccin love this song

  10. h.... h....

    Powerful song . Intense emmotion

  11. M.... W....

    The lyrics abr writes are so powerful. I can’t remember the last time I was moved to tears by a song. Especially by one with so much energy behind the instruments and the vibe of the song. The instrumentals are amazing during that spoken word part. And they resonate with us all who have been in a rut. The last part of the song hits so hard after that, truly a masterpiece. Very inspiring lyrics as well. Thank you August Burns Red for your beautiful thoughts and music

  12. T.... ....

    People who dislike this video are plebs

  13. F.... G....

    One of my favorites.

  14. c.... 0....

    Que buenos recuerdos

  15. J.... K....

    3:04 LEVELER REFERENCE

  16. A.... ....

    When people hear this kind of music they think its always about hatred, killing, rebeling, worshiping satan and ect.
    What they fail to understand is that if the band does it correctly, the amount of emotion the singer can show and connect to the listener is amazing!
    This genre of music can speak to the soul easily. Out of all the genre of music i listen to this is the only one that i feel can connect to the pain a lot of people feel.

  17. S.... ....

    4:01 is orgasmic

  18. V.... C....

    Thank, God!

  19. D.... M....

    As if those short rays of light were enough to get me by......

  20. d.... p....

    Why I love abr u don't need to be religious to understand the meaning of the songs

  21. W.... o....

    This song helped me survive a friend's suicide and my own subsequent breakdown and hospitalization. Thank you ABR

  22. J.... F....

    Does anyone know what “Seventeen Down, Seventeen to Go” means?

    J.... F....

    In dark times Jake was struggling with alcoholism. I feel those lines pertain to counting drinks.

  23. M.... M....

    I really wish I had this song in prison. It's SO real and inspiring. The smallest things like the sun shining can be enough to remind you that you'll be free one day and that becomes so much more beautiful for the fact. Always loved ABR ❤️

  24. 4.... p....

    America fuck yeah

  25. G.... ....

    matt greiner is a fking monster.

  26. K.... N....

    Just want to throw this comment out here that, for one of my music classes in college, we're able to bring in a piece of music for the class for extra credit and I brought in "Majoring in the Minors", and automatically people tuned it out because it just sounds like screams to them... if only they knew what this band, and songs like this by them truly got me through in life... god bless ABR.

  27. A.... H....

    What is this song about??

  28. �.... ....

    whoever created and designed this lyric video has mad, mad skills.

  29. A.... ....

    So many in my Family destroyed by Cancer. I needed this, Thank god.

  30. R.... E....

    Thanks you Jesus for this wonderful music and for giving ABR such talent and a strong Spirit

  31. P.... S....

    Holy crap..

  32. K.... K....

    NOOOOO. To be continued? On that note?? The dove was me man.

  33. M.... K....

    2:22 Masterpiece

  34. O.... ....

    ive listened to this song so many times over the past years and i still get goosebumps at 3:50 every single time i hear this song

  35. T.... S....

    These lyrics are exactly what i felt last year. I was sleeping an hour per night for several months and was in serious pain when awake. ''My dearest love, I woke up tired today, even more so than yesterday.How that's possible, I don't even know, nor do I want to. It's hard to find the motivation when you are this drained. My body aches but I'm used to feeling this way.'' I was thinking of ending it all but things do get better and I'm still here.

    T.... S....

    Tomi Stenqvist You are not alone my friend. I'm very glad you are still here with us. A lot of people are feeling the same as you did and we all have to keep fighting. In the end it is always worth it. Things will definetely get better!
    Keep it up!

  36. C.... O....

    A few years back I was conceited inside my room, I had nothing to do. Just wake up, be on my phone and absolutely no social life. And things weren't going well in my family life. This song helped me a lot, as I could relate to it. Words can't describe how exhausted and depressed my mind was. But this song sure does spoke for me! Thank you, August Burns Red!

  37. T.... W....

    This song was one of my favorite songs through high school. I was bullied a lot and high school and couldn't make any friends. The friends I did have were rarely around and never really seemed to care that much. Sure they were fun to hang around but when I felt broken or defeated, they did nothing to help. Their friendship was just fun and games but never compassion. Here I am 3 years later. Been 2 years since I graduated and I only have a few friends left, and only one or two that actually support me, and I'm thankful for that. But it's still sad to see the many other friends leave as if I meant nothing. I've gone through depression during the transition from high school to the real world and had to fight most of my battles alone. I tried to make new friends, and be a kind person to others, and help others. But everyone just gave me dirty looks as if I was some sort of disease and my help never seemed to matter to anyone. Well, here I am now listening to this song again and this song means more to me now than it did in high school. These words became more true. The ties between friends and family split, and more and more life troubles piled up on me. But I learned that you need to appreciate the small things in life. For some people it's the sun shining through the clouds, for me, it's God, and what few people I have left to call family and friends. I will stay true to my word and continue to be kind and helpful to others, even when it doesn't matter to them. It's better to be kind and get nothing in return than to never have been kind at all. After all, a good friend told me once that the most you can expect from someone is nothing. Funny how it ended up, that friend left too.

  38. J.... R....

    I didn't like this song at first but the lyrics, especially at the end, really got to me. This song is truly a gem.

  39. S.... ....

    This song is my short ray of light.

    S.... ....

    some of us are still here

  40. C.... C....

    i call this song "Space Cow"

  41. T.... C....

    It's sad that this only has half a million views :/

  42. J.... M....

    This song makes me cry Everytime I hear it

  43. J.... N....

    The intro sounds just like One by Metallica

  44. N.... S....

    this is by far one of their best songs. very sad this isnt on spotify anymore...

  45. C.... W....

    I love this song like crazy. But what do he mean when he says 17 down 17 to go.

  46. A.... ....

    What a beautiful track. A work of art.

  47. H.... ....

    This song was written by Brent, it's about being on tour and battling depression being away from his wife and child, and relying on his faith to pull through.

  48. D.... R....

    At 1:40 the feels and chills kick in

  49. g.... ....

    Only if the short rays of light were enough to get Chester Bennington by 😭

  50. C.... ....

    That feeling you get when you see something precious and beautiful in front of you, and you find yourself powerless to stop it as you watch it fall.

  51. C.... H....

    Depression and addiction are so similar, it's not surprising that they seem to go hand in hand so often. Causation, correlation, it doesn't matter. The only thing I really know is that it never goes away. It just gets a little bit easier.

  52. S.... S....

    Man.....I keep discovering gems from this band. The absolute saviors of metalcore, lets see if Parkway Drive can keep up!

  53. O.... ....

    I loved this song before. The guitars were amazing.

    I loved this song even more after that. The lyrics were so good.

    Now I love this song even more now that I understand it better. Right now August Burns Red is one of the very few things making me smile.

    But I've been here before. I will survive another day under these gray skies.

  54. C.... ....

    4 years later, still my favorite song, and my favorite album

  55. A.... G....

    this is the only way I can worship is by listening to abr

    A.... G....

    You ever tried some of The Devil Wears Prada's stuff? Like their track "Holdfast"?

  56. J.... A....

    are these offical videos or fan edits these are amazing esp the fault line one

  57. R.... B....

    I'm not that religious, but I think that, in this moment I've found myself crying singing the lyrics. I've become through though moments this year, maybe this is the hardest one in my life. Friends have gone and I've ended relationships because I got little time cause of my career. This is my last year of medschool and I'm still struggling of letting go people in my life cause I got little time for that, even for a relationship, which makes the thing even sadder. And listening to this is like, maybe, just maybe, i felt that "god's touch" that some people have in their lives. Maybe that was enough, finding myself screaming the lyrics and smiling to get myself by, and it surely was enough to make me cry and realize that I needed that. If god trully exists, thank you, I surely needed that :')

    R.... B....

    He does exist my friend. He finds ways to get you to listen. And music is one of em. I listen to it to get my depression away from me

  58. s.... 1....

    hands down the best song by ABR

  59. T.... S....

    This song has helped me through some rough times.

  60. B.... ....

    This song pretty much sums up my life as an IT engineer student...

  61. M.... ....

    dis sung is xit

  62. j.... v....

    I think this song is about drug addiction

    j.... v....

    john van ryken how so?

    j.... v....

    Drew Mexidepp listen to that little thing they talk

    j.... v....

    The lyrics are about being stuck in a depressing time/place in your life but trying to remember there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
    The song sounds more as if it is geared towards military and deployment life, keying in on the depression and struggle that comes with being gone from home for long periods at a time. Not being able to see your loved ones and families; looking for something that was enough to hold on to and give him hope, like thinking of home and his love often. The short rays of light to get him by.

  63. R.... H....

    oh how i relate the feelings he describing in this song makes me cry most of the times. glad to be able to meet Jake. thanks for relating

  64. h.... ....

    That "letter" he says towards the end of the song is just so well written. You can almost hear his pain through it and then that little ray of hope at the end of it is just amazingly written. ABR is an amazing Christian metalcore band! Keep blessing us with your music

  65. D.... C....

    To me, this sounds like a song about recovery in a ward. That was exactly what I felt like when I was horribly depressed, and that letter sounded like those I wrote back then.

  66. C.... L....

    Fuck, man... That little speech.

  67. M.... C....

    I love absence of hate in ABR's video comments. They have some of the most inspirational lyrics. They're amazing and underappreciated.

    M.... C....

    Now watch me ruin it. Core isn't metal.

  68. K.... P....

    Another great metalcore song about depression is "Gray Matter" by Winterfold. Check it out if you like this song. It made me cry.

  69. M.... M....

    I miss this old solid state feel.

    M.... M....

    I personally think they just want evolve their music and not have it sound the same. Their songs are more melodic now but it still feels very much like August Burns Red.

  70. d.... d....

    My dearest love, I woke up tired today, even more so than yesterday.
    How that's possible, I don't even know, nor do I want to. It's hard to find the motivation when you are this drained. My body aches but I'm used to feeling this way.
    Seventeen down, seventeen to go.
    That's not so bad, right?
    I think of home often and of you even more.
    Yesterday I saw the sun shining. It appeared for a few minutes just after two.
    For a moment I found myself smiling, as if those short rays of light were enough to get me by.
    Maybe that was enough.
    Thank God, I needed that.
    I surely needed that.

    d.... d....

    amazon prime anyone know where that letter is from?

  71. H.... R....

    Their transitions from distortion to clean is always fucking amazing.. but this clean part gets me everytime moreso than the other videos of the rescue and restore trilogy

  72. S.... ....

    whats this kind of animation style called?

    S.... ....

    pretty sure its flash

    S.... ....

    maybe after effects

  73. C.... H....

    17 down, 17 to go... That was my thought exactly. Two years later I'm infinitely happier. 15 to go. Who knows what 10 to go will bring, six to go, two to go. Here's to hoping "two to go" is around the same time I say, "Two for here, please."

  74. T.... ....

    I like coming on abr videos because the comments are filled with interesting stories of hardship. Makes me appreciate what I have

  75. D.... S....

    When I was 17 years old I had 11 feet of my bowels removed due to Crohns Disease. I have a extreme fear of having bowels removed and feared what it would do to me, not just physically but mentally and emotionally. I became extremely depressed and attempted to kill myself a month after the surgery. This song personifies my state of mind after my attempted suicide (by hanging myself. Rope broke) "staring at the walls to pass the time, pinch myself to make sure I'm still alive. I'm not alright it's just become a disguise. Family and friends I'm loosing all ties, another month under these grey skies I'm holding on as tight as I can."

    D.... S....

    +David Smith I'm sorry to hear that you have had a rough experience. I too live in sleep-depriving fear - for different reasons, but the same pain. It's been a long journey. You re NOT alone, brother. I'm so thankful that rope broke. Hell, your comment is the "short rays of light" that are enough to get me by. Thank God, I needed this.

  76. D.... K....

    their best song ever!

  77. R.... M....

    My parents have the heat to call this song and August Burns Red devils music.... their ignorance infuriates me.

    R.... M....

    Reagan Moreno People who don't listen to metal, especially Christian metal, will never understand how this sort of music influences the lives of others and brings joy to those who listen. They see this kind of music as anger and noise, but I see it as joy, and beautiful melodies. To be honest, I'm glad that music isn't just some 1 size fits all sort of thing. There's so many different genres and each genre inspires and encourages listeners in it's own unique way. I wish more people could just push stereotypes about genres of music aside and learn to respect other genres for what they mean to the people that listen to them.

  78. s.... ....

    3:02 reminds me of my pet snail. RIP 2-14-2015

  79. C.... P....

    This song is so powerful! So much raw emotion! #ABR

  80. W.... L....

    I'm not Christian or anything but I found myself crying happy tears. I've struggled with depression over the years, and the line "for a moment I found myself smiling as if those short rays of light were enough to get me by." Thank you ABR. Those short rays of light were enough to get me by.

    W.... L....

    I've struggled and battled severe depression and suicidal thoughts and I can thankfully say that Jesus spoke to me and gave me inner joy again.
    He is not a character from a story book but truly is real and as the album title, rescuing and restoring people to joy.
    I know you aren't a Christian, but I definitely encourage you to talk to a mature Christian about Jesus and just hear what he/she has to say about Him.

    W.... L....

    being christian it's not a bad thing, everyone need's to found God and jesus, you're not the expection, hugs bro is a great decisition to take but is at the same time the best for you and your soul 💙

    W.... L....

    Things are looking up!

    W.... L....

    If this music makes u feel that way then Well start being a Christian you’ll never suffer from depression again . It’s time to change and me too

    W.... L....

    All day everyday man. These guys are criminally underrated.

  81. J.... ....

    this kinda sums up my life at this momen :/

    J.... ....

    +John Dawson Don't worry, everything gets better over time. Patience is the key. It's what the message of this song and many others is. We have to go through the tough times to see the very true side of the beauty of this world.

  82. r.... ....

    FOR A MOMENT I FELT MYSELF SMILING

    r.... ....

    +React DF .

    r.... ....

    React DF

  83. S.... ....

    Thank god, I surely needed that...

  84. p.... ....

    That spoken word bit hit me right in the feels.

  85. M.... ....

    When anyone tells me metal is all negative and is meaningless noise I'll show them this album. There are so many songs that touch on a deep level. It's so beautiful. They can maintain a certain amount of heaviness while also being light with their sound at times. I find it an art to maintain a metal sound and still be so touching and real. There are those that will say this isn't metal but I really don't care if they do, I find it great no matter what genre people say they are.

    M.... ....

    +Moonbath216 don't worry, this is metal...i gotta say that people who listen to metal are lucky cause we're able to comprehend this kind of "complex" music...wooh! \m/

    M.... ....

    I dropped out of an Ivy League school (Cornell) due to an anxiety and depression issue, potentially the most debilitating combination of disorders I'v ever had to face head on (started at 19).

    They are very real, and very terrifying. Sometimes REM will literally turn into a slew of nightmares, choking in your sleep becomes normal, fearing sunrise gets you an immediate membership into The Lost Boys. Above it all, trying to schedule my anti-depressants in a way that I could booze after my Paxil had metabolized, and blasting uppers (namely coke or MDMA).

    I'm currently 25, still taking 30mg of Paxil daily, my best advice to anyone out there still suffering from anxiety or depression, KEEP YOURSELF BUSY, get a gym membership, pick up an instrument, book, find a genre of music worth exploring (Grab a guitar, a drum set, a keyboard, a mic or a mixer and the most recent version of Logic).

    After I dropped out of Cornell, all of my friends were enjoying residence in McGill, Guelph, Western, Laurier and U ofT. In the meantime I was living in my parents basement, I would sleep for 12-20 hours a day, and for a MOMENT I FELT MY SELF SMILING, AS IF THOSE SHORT RAYS OF LIGHT WERE ENOUGH TO GET ME BY, THANK GOD...I SURELY NEEDED THIS.

    * After the Burial "Disconnect", The Ghost Inside " White Light",
    Have a listen! Miss this.

    "Cobwebs", Motionless In White, " The Taste of Regret" In Fear and Faith

    *"Don't Ask Don't Tell" Chelsea Grin, "Donner Party of Five", Drop Dead Gorgeous.

    Couple of good tracks for anyone that read this entire thing, feel free to message me personally. It's been a long road out of hell but I'm glad to help anyone struggling!

    Connor

    M.... ....

    Jm Cresencie Fun sidenote on the "Comprehend this kind of complex music"! Metal fans were actually found to have the most in common with fans of classical music (which kinda explains why a lot of metal bands use classical instruments I guess haha), in regards of appreciating innovation, complexity and multiple layers!
    Found the link!
    https://mic.com/articles/87385/science-reveals-something-surprising-about-metal-fans-and-classical-music-lovers#.WVRWLX7N1

    M.... ....

    very well said, i try to do the same! very misunderstood genre.

    M.... ....

    I have always enjoyed the responses to my comment but never gotten to respond. I'm glad others feel the same, you all constantly remind me why I made my initial comment. We all can bask in the beauty and greatness of this song. Others can say what they want about metal but we know exactly how much this song, and all the music of ABR, means to us.

  86. A.... G....

    The meaning to this song is so fucking beautiful. Not only is it coming from a personal experience, but any one can relate on their own level.

  87. J.... N....

    this song personifies my emotions haha. I can't help but tear up; it's so real. thank you abr.

    "maybe that was enough. thank GOD. I surely needed that. I surely needed that. thank God."

  88. V.... ....

    After so long, that last part just almost gets my emotions every time I swear, such powerful words (to me anyways).

  89. V.... ....

    I'm new to ABR, can anyone tell me the songs that are as meaningful as spirit breaker ?

    V.... ....

    listen to their song redemption on the album messengers.

    V.... ....

    +Vico #Prae Personally, I think this is one of their songs that I can not help but tear up at and get a lump in my throat but they do make a lot of songs that are really meaningful in many ways. You just have to find the meaning in your own way. I will forever say ABR is one of my favorite bands, not just in metal, but any genre. They pour their heart and soul into their music and it shows. This album especially has so much meaning and I still listen to it often ever since it came out. I can't say you'll find every album is like this but if you like them enough and have imagination I think you'll find your own meaning in everything they write.

    V.... ....

    +Vico #Prae Everlasting Ending is pretty epic

    V.... ....

    @Moonbath216 wooh we have a true fan here haha 
    I found Beauty in Tragedy and this is (almost) as good as Spirit Breaker imo !
    I also really like Treatment and White Washed

    V.... ....

    @Robbie Culp thank you, great "tunes" in it !

  90. J.... ....

    People say that August Burns Red songs are emotional. After being a fan of them for many years, I can confidently say that this song is the only song to make me feel any emotions. And those emotions, my friends, are very strong.

  91. J.... E....

    I surely needed this song

  92. m.... h....

    Dota brought me here...

    m.... h....

    mikhail haris lol.. spirit breaker (barathrum), normally played as nuker/ganker, sometimes as carry.. top class hero

  93. J.... C....

    I cry every time I listen to this song! Never fails...

    J.... C....

    +Jessica Carlisle I feel you