Allison Iraheta - All I Have Lyrics

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Dear dad,


Why wasn’t I good enough?

😜😜😜

I’ve had suicidal thought back since I was seven without knowing it was suicidal. Lately, they’ve gotten worse, but in four years I’ll get help.

guys stay strong I was gonna kill my self BUT IM STILL ALOVE AWOOO

Monster High anyone?

I'm so sick of it.

I'm such a failure

Why can't I fit in I try so hard but I end up as a failure..

age 2 called chubby and chunky smiled not realizing it's bad
age 4 depressed when I find out it's not good to be fat
age 5 saw my friend shot by her dad before he shot himself
age 6 was blamed for the death of my grandpa I found hanging from his favorite tree
age 7 saw the wold for all its black and darkness wished I was never born
age 8 cried myself to sleep nightly
age 9 wrote pomes of death and slit my wrist just to know I was alive since I was so numb
age 10 fist attempted suicide my sister stopped me
age 11 4&5th trip to mental health hospital
age 12 next attempt at ending it all after being raped
age 13 cut daily still being raped daily
age 14 trips 19 &20 to mental health hospital pageant and didn't know it
age 15last attempt at suicide found out that day I was nearly 6months pregnant.
age 15.5 homeless till 19
age 24.5 still depressed and don't want to live but to afraid to try knowing the pain of death

pry my daughter who I placed at birth age 15 will never feel this way
pray my son who I am raising will never feel this way age 21 when had
if anyone needs a friend to talk to I am here for you

I am trying to make myself feel worse about mu situation and this song is not depressing enough . Coz I love it

_Its 10 years now. We miss you Allison, we really miss you._

I'm 34 and I still fucking feel like this.

At a school most people would say “ Jolie is the fun one”, “Jolie is always happy” yes I am Jolie I always wear a smile and I always look happy everyone on my class would say I’m the happiest and the most energetic. On my real side I never want to get out of bed or wake up. Don’t judge a book by its cover. Keep fighting we can do this together

has anything improved in the past week
i care about everyone of you even if i dont know you

Thank you Iv been suicidal most of my life and just reading Aye GRMC's comment means alot to me thank you for caring.

I ran away and slit my wrists at eleven
And now im 16 and live with my best friend and he sings this to me😭❤️

I'm very skinny get humilaited about it
I'm 14 and 2 months 15 boy
I'm treated of weak and girly
And i discovered I'm gay last year
My relationship with my parents is very complicated
They don't understand me
I'm afraid of what I will do in future I don't want to hurt myself
I have a huge crush on a boy but he is not gay and he is a little bit pretentious but I love it but I want to talk him I can't I don't now how
In my life friends wasn't a word I've never got true friends until this year a group of new girls came to school and I really love them but everyone tell me just forget him he is older 1 yearthan me by the way he is 16 but I can't

Ever wish that you could trust people again and tell them your fears

thank you.... this songs has finally help me make up my mind and ive been struggling with this for so long but thanks to today ive finally made up my mind.....im gonna take my own life, with my own two hands. this life is just to much for me to bear. so, goodbye everyone and ill see u ppl in the comments section....when u die of old age. As for me......well, i guess this is it.

I just wish someone would care about me this much.

im depressed and i admitted it, what makes me smile is watching people laugh and smile. makes me remember what i was like a carefree girl who thought she could run the world, who thought that their no meaning of sadness that it didn't exist.

-My mom Physically abuses me
-My only friend is my crush
-I'm too much of an Introvert
-I have depression, Anger issues, Anxiety, Depersonalization disorder, ADHD, and OCD
-I lost all my friends because I told them I had Depression..
And yet somehow, I'm still alive. The ONLY reason I'm alive that I can think of is because my crush is Alive..

Her voice on this song will always slay. It’s a crime this was never a huge hit

oh Rlly?*

i feel like people underestimate how much pain it takes for someone to harm themselves

My friend Hurt my feelings

I hear depressing songs, because they make me better with my life. I think depression will help me control my insaneness.

Everyone who talks about their depression I’m sorry...


When my family fought a lot I was the age that effected me a lot...

I have random emotional break downs even when I’m doing fine...





It gets to the point where my mom bought me a oil that helps slow down anxiety....


It doesn’t help during a emotional break down since it occurs randomly and ends quick most of the time.



What’s your story?

Three years ago, I used to listen to this and many such suicidal songs every night, crying and contemplating suicide, thinking this is how life is always going to be. I decided to hang on, mostly because I couldn't muster up the courage to kill myself. And then things changed, all the bullshit cliches started making sense, things did get better. Today, I am completely out of depression and am living a happy and healthy life. I came back here to remind me and everyone else that depression isn't the end, its a new start. It is a phase which made me stronger and more aporeciative for the things I have. All of you are so so strong. I am proud of you and me. We will live and rock it.

I'm bawling like a baby because I'm just finding this song for the first time and she's saying everything I feel right now

I feel empty, but we can get through this together. I won’t give up, only if you don’t give up on me, you matter and you are worth living for.

Comment if you ever sit in class and think why am I so ugly,i wish I could be this person or I’ll never make it up to be anyone bc ik I do😭💔😔

A song well put.. Thank you for the words in your song...<3

😔 my soul is dark as night my heart is blue my wrists are red and dripping the knife is bloody

Here is something I think about when I'm down:
You can't spell "broken" without "ok"
There will be a happy ending,
No matter how long it takes.
You just have to be able to reach out,
It's the first step to reaching the ending of the darkness

BEST SONG EVER 💙

Age 5: Tries to jump under a car to get away from bullies
Age 7: Bully is forced by head teacher to say sorry to me for trying to kill me 2 years earlier
Age 9: Tries to forget her past and move on
Age 11: Can't remember her past and scoffs at the mention of depression
Age 12: Accepts her depression again and stops trying to hide it from herself
Age 13: Beginning to remember her past and is being forced into therapy for her suicide attempts

Living 6 years with depression 😣😰😥😖

Age 3: Happy kiddo.
Age 4: Suppah happy kiddo
Age 5-8: Still a happy kiddooo.
Age 9: Time to say goodbye happiness.
Age 10: alone, trying, still smiling but slowly dying, has fake friends.
Age 11: Suicidal, not good enough, was being compared to other kids, still hangout with mah fake friends, still smiling but dying inside.

I wish I could bring back the times I'm happy...

I tired to stop you Chloe... but i failed...

age 5:take a shit on floor
age 10:getting bullied
age12; become furry art
age 14 ; use the flipa clip to make oc sonic porn and be depression
age 16 dye your hairs black
age 24 happy person

I just wanted to share that I actually think about suicide.When I'am in Outside Ita look like I dont have a problem But the true inside of me I'm so tired and feel like I wanted to die.....

Roses are red vilots are blue im beautiful and you are too

I just gotta let this all out. I’m a straight A student. I had a B once. My parents were disappointed. Well.. they don’t really appreciate my achievements if I don’t stand out. I also train martial arts. I go to this martial arts school and my dad also trains me cuz he’s a black belter. We had a sparring in my school.. it was a belt promotion. I fought with the guys who’s belt is higher than mine. After the promotion... I didn’t receive anything from them. Like “you did good!” or something like that. I felt so disappointed with myself. I did my best. I was nervous and I couldn’t think straight.. I didn’t make them proud. They didn’t look proud. They didn’t make me feel like they were proud at all. Like they were happy for me. At that same day, I got honor rolls in my school. I told my mom. And that’s it. No congrats.. No proudness. Hahahaha I think my doing my best but maybe my best is not enough? Maybe I have to push myself harder for them to be proud.

99% of the comments: *About Suicide*
Me:



I wish my handwriting was that font

If you are feeling suicidal, please take the time to read this






Your skin is not paper, don't cut it.
Your face is not a mask, so don't hide it.
Your size isn't a book, dont judge it.
Your eyes aren't waterfalls, don't cry them out☹️
Your life isn't a film, don't end it.
In your life, someone is always gonna love you. If its not anyone in your family, or any of your friends, then frick them ill love you till your very last breath❤

Actually I’m listening to this song cause I can relate and have multiple suicidal thoughts and I’m only 11 yrs old I always fake a smile and I’m severely depressed and have anxiety so.... go ahead YouTube

What movie is this from

But, What if the person you would take a bullet for was the one behind the gun?...

I am the biggest failure in this world nd my mom never fails to remind me

Pregnant and depressed been through shit and still trying to recover from it only thing that keeps me here are my two little angels ❤️❤️

Song:Is about depression
Ad: wait hold on-
*I GOT THAT SUNSHINE IN MY POCKET*

Micheal Jackson oh wow how bizarre

Why do I agree with all of this??
Why do I feel like I'm drowning?
Why??

You
And
Me
Can
Be
Feeling
The
Same.


Wanna know who is the worst person ever? Look at the 3rd word. 🙃

I was a really happy kid before, i had good grades, i had friends and all that stuff
Now, i barely fix grades, daily mental breakdowns, have selfharming for soon a year and have lost all my friends for isolating myself for a long time. Welcome to my life.

I have cancer and the docs said I might die love your videos

after a while, pretending to be happy really takes a toll on you. and sometimes, you’ve been sad so long, been empty for so long, that happiness is now a dream, an illusion that you feel you don’t deserve.

If your really suicidal like me ik that it's not rlly helpful but it will get better i swear 😭😭😭😭😭

To dad , I think of you when I hear this song ! Wish you didnt leave me

I hate that this is relatable

Here's about me.

Hey. My name is Ireland. Weird name huh? I bet you think that. Yes, it's my real name. I'm a 14, closeted, depressed, pansexual girl. I have two friends who I trust very much. The names, Jessie and Hayden. One of them I have a big crush on, but who hasn't had a crush on their best friend? Ha ha... Anyway.... *Sigh* Here's where it gets a bit deep.... I started getting depressed at the age of 12. Because my parents got a divorce and I felt horrible. I kept everything to myself. Then I got older, and I've gained weight and feel so horrible and insecure. I'm the type of person to say 'Sorry' all the time, but when someone says sorry to me, I always say 'Don't be'. I feel like everything is my fault. And when I was thirteen. In my room. Crying because I lost my best friend.... I... Cut myself. And immediately started freaking out. No one found out. Now about two days ago, I cut myself again. That's the third time. I'm I'm 9th grade. I sit alone at lunch. I have no friends at school. People laugh at me. Heck, I'm suicidal myself. But thats because of my own personal opinion. But even though I have these flaws, I care about everyone. When my friends put themselves down, I tell them to stop. But when they tell me to stop, I never do. Even though I don't know you all, I still love you. I support you. I'm happy for you. I'm your friend. I'm your biggest fan. I lost my best friend to suicide, and I'm hoping I can be a friend to stop you from hurting yourself with personal experiences. I love you. You are strong. You are beautiful. You may have scars. You may some on your wrists. So do I. I know you. You are you. Never let words change that. Now for me it's pretty late. Almost 1am. Deep thoughts ya know? But go ahead. Get to know me some more. I don't have any social media. (Due to past cyber bullying experiences) except for like two apps. But if you need to talk, your buddy Ireland is here to help! Ha ha.... I like to think I'm funny. But anyway, thanks for reading. This.... If you did. Have a wonderful day/Night. But please remember....

I love you. I always will. I always have. Stay strong, my friend. ❤❤



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I'm trying to stay alive for one person but they dont love me back and it hurts

My daughter's name is Allison

Who come here to cry for somebody who you missed??? I did💔😭

Physical alive for my family,
Don't know how long i can survive... any1 with me or just me!

I'm only 13 and i been hospitalized over 5 times bc I tried to commit suicide it's so hard to stay strong when u look in the mirror and all U see is all ur insecurities

Sweet <3

😭😭😭😭😭🤝🤝

They ask if your fine
You say that you are
You say happy
You say that you are never better
You say you are fine

But really

You are dying inside
You are dead inside
You are suffering
You are in pain
You are hurting

But no one can open their eyes wide enough
To see that. They are blended by their ignorance

I was watching Monster High: New Ghoul In School and this song appeared. And tbh it actually really hits home

its so saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.

Aye GRMC thank you for saying that at least their is someone who cares thank you.

People who tell to other kids "it's gonna get better trust me" are the scucidal ones and that's me

I have about 200 scars on my arms and legs, visible for everyone to see at school and I constantly tell someone my suicidal thoughts and they joke about me being crazy and i should go commit suicide "jokingly" while everytime I go home I get beaten and touched in places that should be touched and I wonder if I would be better off dead. Would anyone care? Doubt it

the titanic has keeped me going but i now think that my life is still getting hurt

I just wanna sleep for a lifetime...mines in specific 😔16 is the hardest thing imaginable

5 years: started school, happy
6 years: gets bullied, sad
7 years: insecure, sadder
8 years: depressed, cuts
The rest is history still doing it 💀🖤💀

Fight to be alive because you are worth it!!!!!!!!!

Anyone else make themselves believe that their ok for a while but then as soon as someone asks if your ok you break and cry or just me

Age 0-8 : happy and cheerful.
Age 9 : verbally abused by mother still stayed happy
Age 10: still abused, careless about anything, acts good in Pulic, insecure
Age 11 : bullied by nest friends, still abused, depressed, anxious.

Age 12 (now) : still abused, bullied, depressed, suicidal, suffers from anxiety, has trust issues, fantastic actor, feels hopeless.


I'm still alive. Some nights I pray to fate that I die in my sleep or I pray that my ex best friends wish comes true she wished I was hit by the school bus.

Can you believe that this is the last song I’ll listen to

I am looking for a song about self hate. If someone could help me out I would appreciate it.

sometimes I feel like I don’t exist

Thank you for this song

don't worry people who have depression it will end but it doesn't start from people around you it will start from you don't be scared just stay the way you are and one day you will pass it .
Stay strong till then💙

Foster Care for most of my life I am still struggling with horrible memories 😔😢 i was forced to do the unthinkable and eat fethers

What's the point of life?...

When people in the comments care about you more then ur family

Ever since 6th grade started, I am getting bullied sometimes, and I am just always getting scolded and bullied most of the time, but I just want someone to understand. I want to turn back time to the days when I was just a 5 year old. I hate growing up into a hole of sadness and I just want to live life with happiness. Why does the worst thing in life come free to us 😭😭

I love you ❤️ be strong 💪 I’m here for you ❤️

I moved at the end of 5th grade due to a divorce. In 6th grade, I didn't talk to or know anybody at my school. I ate lunch in the stalls, the breakfast I saved in the morning were my lunch. I felt isolated and lonely, depressed. Not ever did I think of hurting myself. Despite everything, I didn't think of that. I know I'm strong. I know you are too.

"There goes one more mistake" "is that why you turn away?" Do you know how hard I've tried to become what you want me to be?" These quotes forever relate to me

God this song is me

Never new my father I have an abusive step dad but he is in no way a father figuer

Hangman taught us that if you send the wrong thing...it could ends someones life

I want to kill myself so bad😭 but..... I wanna live my life.

this made me cry so much i got on jims comupertur so this is tamberlyn

My ex broke up with me Monday night she was a toxic bitch plus all my friends support me so I’m okay and I’m glad she’s gone but I’m hurting still I’m relapsing on my ed I’m starting at razor blades and here I am venting on a YouTube comment section like the 16 year old thot I am so yay

so...everyone in the comments are telling there "backstory" so i'll tell mine i lie in a small town i was happy until i don't know what happen but at 8 yes 8 still a little kid start to hate myself...maybe i was because my dad but so much pressure on me maybe because i felt like if i did something wrong my parents they'd hate me at 9 i started to act out do things so people would notice i wasn't okay as i grow up i stopped that saw it didn't matter what i did the would think i was fine soon i started to see i was gay and i hated that fact i had no friends i started to think what if i killed myself what if i gave up i got few friends but the could never see the real me the sad thing is there is no happy ending to my story it just gets worse and worse look i could write a whole book on my life but i'm not cause there is no happy ending to this story so i gave up not kill myself give just give on trying just going by one day i'll die for not eating (i never really eat unless i'm forced) or something...so if you are going thought something like this don't give...don't give up like me i can't fix my life but you can for me eat something even if its just a apple drink some water and think "i wouldn't give up not today because someone out there is happy for me for not giving up and thinks i can do anything" because its all true