Aesop Rock - 1 Of 4 (Thank You) Lyrics




1 of 4...

My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz
I was born in 1-9-7-6, at Biosfet hospital, located in Long Island, NY
I am 6 foot, for I weigh 2-0-0 pounds
I have brown hair and green eyes
I enjoy writing songs, painting, movies and diner food
I have two brothers, Chris and Graham
and two parents, Paul and Jameija
In august of 2-0-0-1 I went crazy..

This was originally not for public consumption
This was made for four people... four people that literally saved my life
They know who they are..
And ahhh I mean I could live to be a thousand years old and never re-pay them
I don't think this song would pay for them
But hopefully by putting it out, push the bank a little further..

This ain't a burner for the whips (no it isn't)
This ain't even Aesop Rock fly earthworm demeanor (no it isn't)
My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz and I was born in Long Island, New York
Seventy Six, before Graham and after Chris... OK
In August of 2001 my seemingly splinter-proof brain bone, scaffling imploded
I kept it on the hush, but nearly tumbling
to the cold hard concrete on near bodega trips
for ciggaretes and soda, shook me to kasper
Dizzy with a nothern chaser, motor sensory eraser
Gorophobe tunnel vision, guilt, self loathing arrangements
Rose rapidly outta fog I'd never fished in
that abates three separate foreign men's
While I seems to hook lines and syncro simple fishing
Simple primitive self taught, easing of soul, mind and body
but the symptoms rejected my cave-man modus operandi
So now it's one fish belly up, through medicated mol edge
Shrinks that get 250 an hour for awkward silence
And, I'd be lying if I said all of this
made even the slightest fragment of sense to me
That's frail... Simply put
I don't know what happened, or what's stillhappening
I literally feel like I'm teetering on the blunt edge of my sanity
JAMIE, I killed the robots and I'm sorry
Broke down in front of you, embarrassed
but you lent a heart and hand that only you could
you're one of my best friends and yes I'd take that bullet for you
That's my word, which is about all I have left
TONY, I know you know you crazy, 'cause you told me
but that did never bother you, I hold you as my brother 'til death
And I got your back if ever the drunk goblin step
for makin' a cat laugh, when I was walking with the dead
KATHERINE, mother figure, older sister, concerned be a limits
Letting me know I wasn't the only one with this
Continuous offers for vacation, Chicago visits
Talked me to repair of a head full of broken pistons
RIYAH, for the late night movie rentals and the company I needed
An' you knew it, but I just wouldn't admit it
You listened to me brag about my issues for hours
Offer incredible advice, gave me a hug when I was finished
Am I a jack of all trades? Nope... I like to write songs tho'
Are they good? I dunno..
But I could tell you that I only write shit down when I believe it
So take this how you want, but know I mean it
I want you all to know that I'm scared
Now my fuckin' crooked soul never faced a monster like the last few months
Never in my whole life... I wish I could explain this better (I can't)
But the pieces won't formulate it to anything even close to cohesive
So I guess this is my feeble way to thank you
Four soldiers that extended something sacred off the purity of kindness
I owe you all my life and please don't argue with that statement
'Cause without y'all I may not have a life to offer, take it

Thank you
I wish I could explain this better. (Thank you)
I'm sorry for burdening your pleasures. (Thank you)
I love you all with all that's left of me. (Thank you)
For helping try to kill what made a mess of me. (Thank you)
Somehow, someway. (Thank you)
I'ma get you back someday. (Thank you)
Just gotta figure this all out... So..

I guess it is kind of funny when you look headed from a step back
How one man can literally buckle under the same pressures
Other men operate normally under
I have soaked this out from all angles, walking through time
I have been over everything in my head, still I can't think anymore
But I guess some times, when you can't breathe, there are people there
to breathe for you
I am lucky enough to have those people around me
Thank you for helping me to not die
Thank you for helping me to not die

Pocket full of pennies, and a soul gone tilt
Cockpit full of memories and a dream full of guilt





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Aesop Rock 1 Of 4 (Thank You) Comments
  1. Marsel Music

    A good friend of me and my families had just past away over a week ago. He was so sweet and it was so unexpected. For some reason I had daylight stuck in my head and decided to hear the full album. Although I grieve his loss, I'm happy he is in a better place.

  2. L Fenney

    Thankyou

  3. Annie Social

    This song saved my life. To me, it feels like it's about the beginning stages of an Awakening. Obviously I'm far from Woke, but when my Awakening began, I didn't know what was happening, I thought I was losing my mind. My depression, anxiety, & insomnia was at an all time high. I couldn't fathom hanging out with any of my old friends besides two, one is still in my life. I became so angry & disgusted with the world. My long term relationship suffered cuz I could no longer relate to him on any level. Then one of the two friends I still had committed suicide & the downward spiral (was actually an upward spiral but I didn't know it then) got worse. I threw myself into unhealthy coping mechanisms, quit my job, was a hermit. This lasted a few years. I'm still in this place but climbing out because I finally understand what's happening to me which was half the battle because through ignorance came resistance. Anyway, sorry for the babbling but to anyone else going through something similar...look inside yourself for the answers. & keep on keepin on.

  4. Lucas Martelli

    It only gets better over time 🙏🏾

  5. Harry

    One of four
    My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz
    I was born in 1-9-7-6, at Syosset hospital, located in Long Island, NY
    I am 6 foot 4, I weigh 2-0-0 pounds
    I have brown hair and green eyes
    I enjoy writing songs, painting, movies and diner food
    I have two brothers, Chris and Graham
    And two parents, Paul and Jameija
    In august of 2-0-0-1 I went crazy..

    This was originally not for public consumption
    This was made for four people... four people that literally saved my life
    They know who they are..
    And, uh... I mean, I could live to be a thousand years old and never re-pay them
    I don't think this song would pay for them
    But hopefully by putting it out, push the bank a little further..

    This ain't a burner for the whips (no it isn't)
    This ain't even Aesop Rock fly earthworm demeanor (no it isn't)
    My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz and I was born in Long Island, New York
    Seventy Six, before Graham and after Chris... OK
    In August of 2001 my seemingly splinter-proof brain bone scaffolding imploded
    I kept it on the hush, but nearly tumbling
    To the cold hard concrete on near bodega trips
    For cigarettes and soda, shook me to casper
    Dizzy with a nausea chaser, motor sensory eraser
    Gorophobe tunnel vision, guilt, self loathing arrangement
    Rose rapidly outta bog I'd never fished in
    That abates three separate foreign meds
    While I seems to hook lines and syncro simple fishing
    Simple primitive self taught, easing of soul, mind and body
    But the symptoms rejected my cave-man modus operandi
    So now it's one fish belly up, through medicated mileage
    Shrinks that get 250 an hour for awkward silence
    And, I'd be lying if I said all of this
    Made even the slightest fragment of sense to me
    That's frail... Simply put
    I don't know what happened, or what's still happening
    I literally feel like I'm teetering on the blunt edge of my sanity
    JAIME, I killed the robots and I'm sorry
    Broke down in front of you, embarrassed
    But you lent a heart and hand that only you could
    You're one of my best friends and yes I'd take that bullet for you
    That's my word, which is about all I have left
    TONY, I know you know I'm crazy, cause you told me
    But that didn't ever bother you, I hold you as my brother 'til death
    And I got your back if ever the drunk goblin step
    For makin' a cat laugh when I was walking with the dead
    KATHRYN, mother figure, older sister, concerned beyond limits
    Letting me know I wasn't the only one with this
    Continuous offers for vacation, Chicago visits
    Talked me through repair of a head full of broken pistons
    RAIA, for the late night movie rentals and the company I needed
    An' you knew it, but I just wouldn't admit it
    You listened to me blab about my issues for hours
    Offer incredible advice, gave me a hug when I was finished
    Am I a jack of all trades? No... I like to write songs though
    Are they good? I dunno..
    But I could tell you that I only write shit down when I believe it
    So take this how you want, but know I mean it
    I want you all to know that I'm scared
    Now my fuckin' crooked soul never faced a monster like the last few months
    Ever in my whole life... I wish I could explain this better (I can't)
    But the pieces won't formulate it to anything even close to cohesive
    So I guess this is my feeble way to thank you
    Four soldiers that extended something sacred off the purity of kindness
    I owe you all my life and please don't argue with that statement
    Cause without y'all I may not have a life to offer, take it Thank you
    I wish I could explain this better. (Thank you)
    I'm sorry for burdening your pleasures. (Thank you)
    I love you all with all that's left of me. (Thank you)
    For helping try to kill what made a mess of me. (Thank you)
    Somehow, someway. (Thank you)
    I'mma get you back someday. (Thank you)
    Just gotta figure this all out... So..

    I guess it is kind of funny when you look at it from a step back
    How one man can literally buckle under the same pressures
    Other men operate normally under
    I have scoped this out from all angles, multiple times
    I have been over everything in my head, 'till I can't think anymore
    But I guess some times, when you can't breathe, there are people there
    To breathe for you
    I am lucky enough to have those people around me
    Thank you for helping me to not die
    Thank you for helping me to not die

    Pocket full of pennies, and a soul gone tilt
    Cockpit full of memories and a drain full of guilt

  6. Thats Kevin

    "I owe you all my life and please don't argue with that statement cause witout yall
    I may not have a life to offer take it" damn.

  7. CVPTNBLVCKHEART is AUTO-SAILING

    aesop is christ on the hip hop path. Just as relatable, guiding his disciples through the same struggles he created for himself...tell that voice doubting you to zip it, demons or darkness/whatever list your cons, but the redeemer inside you knows, you'll make it. You cognize that? You'll make it, just believe it, we're here for you, even if you can't see us. WE are you.

  8. Skeeter Skeet

    *In August of 2001, I went crazy*

  9. Slitth Nephid

    I sometimes click on this and take my like back so I can like it back and have it in my recent playlist again

  10. Twas Life

    I listen to this song because I takes me to a place that I'm famliilier with, With the light off its easier to sleep, with the noise down it's easier to hear myself, I never shut the fuck up nd the memories are on full volume, and so consuming from the Now, but still somehow I forget that I''m there, It's either forgetting footwork and making moves on ceiliings where heads spin, or being surrounded by UFO's that burn away who I am witha simple visual scan, I've had perods of my life where an epifany allowed me to remove past guilt completely and was so content that it seemed out of place to other people, brought pain and confusion to others, Yeah I remember being happy and I remember the world not being happy for me being happy for the first time in my blessed life, Lifes so fragile, our ideas, beliefs, upbringing and so many variables contribuate to the person are you constantly becoming, See if thats a new fact to you it's pretty overwelming and probably sounds a little scary. I remember when I enjoyed a bliss of existing and experiencing stimuli, learning an endless sea of variables ranging from ANYTHING and the ability to build a sensible case through common sense and researching so much as if Iwas facsinated by the simple, the complex, the mess and the math, Its been a bit but so much information don't have access to I know when I go around a reason to I'll remember things from the passed, again I'll be greeted by these ireminders of who I Am that gave me the comfort of peace of mind and understanding the world in a way where, it was fun to learn and I didn't live in fear, I feared not living to the fullest

    So many memories I don't want to possess or have had a part in, Theres good memories but theyre not put on trial as often as the pleasent ones,, or maybe as loud as the fighting that goes on between the multiple personalities that I've been introduced to from speeding through a fork in the road, in my head, So many things and some of my most blissful moments I've learned in places that dont exist to anybody., barely even myself at this point, An abyss, an idea as conflicting as death, Its a way out but I ain't tryna use it. This track reminds me to forget, It makes things new again, its delivered in a context where it's a "I'll be dead by morning anyway", words sensitive to most, again the fear, but it seemed to dwell regardless. do I hate life so much that I dont evenjoy a "new experience" and all thats left is fear and suffering, Grieving can take the moons reflection out of your eyes,, but is'nt that what lifes about ? Living more. and facing your fears, living the most fulfilling life you can attempt to, becoming the happiest and most stable person whos reliable you can potentially be with the ones you care about? Fear's a factor. and if lifes about living, why do I listen to a song that kills me.

    Next time you jump in the water, tryy to remember that you didn't actually swim as a child, you'd just stand there and smile.I hope those smiles were genuine for everybody. Incase rough waters, I want put one up for my brothers, mothers, lovers, every summer
    Any heartbreaker, any spark maker or any friend, mentor or even enemies that made me stronger, I appreciate the poetry we get to exchange and friendships that are more trustwortjy then the demons in my head, anybody who plants and nurturates any seedling of life,
    runs maintaince on any machine whether minor or major malfuction, which is a very thin a line, For the ones who played me as a sucke when opportunity seemed fit,
    Forgive my enemies for they know not what they do, Then why do I feel like the the worst thing to happen to those that I love ? I don't want to use some method of repent to Jesus or the "Mysterioous ways", but every thought pressures a meaning, confusion and ends in guilt, I just want to be there with a clear conscience because I owe some people the the world and I've fallen behind on time.

    And to the people that I care about or say I have love for you, I know I'm not the best at expresssing it. but that's one of the ionley things I'm certain about in life, I just wish I had a better grip on love for myself, Regardless thank you for making bringing the beautiful concept of unconditional love into my herizons. Cya next happy hour, ego trip, or on the flip when I fall flat on my face. that's life and such is death, at least this evaluation of current events and the present moment
    But its a new day, People tell me to do one thing at a time, so I'm going to t\ake a\shot and say get to living before you get to dying, Ive seen heaven Ive seen heell, Ive seen clouds part ways and the sun open up like a flower being occupied by a brightened bunch of bumblehees on the "first niice day of the year" when you really catch the magnificance of their drums.

    I got off track because the way I saw things didn't add up, got lost on a train while trying to get on track, And I drown in a drizzle but i'll sprint in the pouring showers like I for once have a destination or a goal that actually holds or serves a purpose, you can tell me lifes a journey, but my initial thought response is going to be, point A to B fucking scares me, either way I'm wet and already threw the towel in,
    Thanks to the people I've been blessed with meeting, the family who saw me go to the dark side, and the family and friends who have help bringing me back to reality,,I really do love, I cant express it to well,.. but if lifes my oister and the theory of relativity has shown a reflection of my hate towards myself. I got to change the rhyth I walk to, my travels, battles and the last call castle i'd rather wear a santa hat on christmas act silly rather than a blank stare in a thorn crown and keep the throne, I'me getting on the swings - gain momentum. It just started raining. You can take this as a sign of weakness, but to me this has been a sign of strength and refreshed general idea of what living means, that maybe this isn't my last meal. maybe some food for thought, Maybe this is a new beginnning. Maybe I am stronger then I've been thinking lately, All you can do is "Destroy and rebuild and laugh at the irony" - Jesse Kale, Miss you brother, it hasnt been the same

    This ain't a burner for the whips..


    Thank you

  11. oedipa maas

    LYRICS

    One of four
    My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz
    I was born in 1-9-7-6, at Syosset hospital, located in Long Island, NY
    I am 6 foot 4, I weigh 2-0-0 pounds
    I have brown hair and green eyes
    I enjoy writing songs, painting, movies and diner food
    I have two brothers, Chris and Graham
    And two parents, Paul and Jameija
    In august of 2-0-0-1 I went crazy..

    This was originally not for public consumption
    This was made for four people... four people that literally saved my life
    They know who they are..
    And, uh... I mean, I could live to be a thousand years old and never re-pay them
    I don't think this song would pay for them
    But hopefully by putting it out, push the bank a little further..

    This ain't a burner for the whips (no it isn't)
    This ain't even Aesop Rock fly earthworm demeanor (no it isn't)
    My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz and I was born in Long Island, New York
    Seventy Six, before Graham and after Chris... OK
    In August of 2001 my seemingly splinter-proof brain bone scaffolding imploded
    I kept it on the hush, but nearly tumbling
    To the cold hard concrete on near bodega trips
    For cigarettes and soda, shook me to casper
    Dizzy with a nausea chaser, motor sensory eraser
    Gorophobe tunnel vision, guilt, self loathing arrangement
    Rose rapidly outta bog I'd never fished in
    That abates three separate foreign meds
    While I seems to hook lines and syncro simple fishing
    Simple primitive self taught, easing of soul, mind and body
    But the symptoms rejected my cave-man modus operandi
    So now it's one fish belly up, through medicated mileage
    Shrinks that get 250 an hour for awkward silence
    And, I'd be lying if I said all of this
    Made even the slightest fragment of sense to me
    That's frail... Simply put
    I don't know what happened, or what's still happening
    I literally feel like I'm teetering on the blunt edge of my sanity
    JAIME, I killed the robots and I'm sorry
    Broke down in front of you, embarrassed
    But you lent a heart and hand that only you could
    You're one of my best friends and yes I'd take that bullet for you
    That's my word, which is about all I have left
    TONY, I know you know I'm crazy, cause you told me
    But that didn't ever bother you, I hold you as my brother 'til death
    And I got your back if ever the drunk goblin step
    For makin' a cat laugh when I was walking with the dead
    KATHRYN, mother figure, older sister, concerned beyond limits
    Letting me know I wasn't the only one with this
    Continuous offers for vacation, Chicago visits
    Talked me through repair of a head full of broken pistons
    RAIA, for the late night movie rentals and the company I needed
    An' you knew it, but I just wouldn't admit it
    You listened to me blab about my issues for hours
    Offer incredible advice, gave me a hug when I was finished
    Am I a jack of all trades? No... I like to write songs though
    Are they good? I dunno..
    But I could tell you that I only write shit down when I believe it
    So take this how you want, but know I mean it
    I want you all to know that I'm scared
    Now my fuckin' crooked soul never faced a monster like the last few months
    Ever in my whole life... I wish I could explain this better (I can't)
    But the pieces won't formulate it to anything even close to cohesive
    So I guess this is my feeble way to thank you
    Four soldiers that extended something sacred off the purity of kindness
    I owe you all my life and please don't argue with that statement
    Cause without y'all I may not have a life to offer, take it

    Thank you
    I wish I could explain this better. (Thank you)
    I'm sorry for burdening your pleasures. (Thank you)
    I love you all with all that's left of me. (Thank you)
    For helping try to kill what made a mess of me. (Thank you)
    Somehow, someway. (Thank you)
    I'mma get you back someday. (Thank you)
    Just gotta figure this all out... So..

    I guess it is kind of funny when you look at it from a step back
    How one man can literally buckle under the same pressures
    Other men operate normally under
    I have scoped this out from all angles, multiple times
    I have been over everything in my head, 'till I can't think anymore
    But I guess some times, when you can't breathe, there are people there
    To breathe for you
    I am lucky enough to have those people around me
    Thank you for helping me to not die
    Thank you for helping me to not die

    Pocket full of pennies, and a soul gone tilt
    Cockpit full of memories and a drain full of guilt

  12. feverm00n

    One of four.
    My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz.
    I was born in one-nine-seven-six, at Syosset hospital,
    located in Long Island, NY.
    I am six foot, four. I weigh two-zero-zero pounds.
    I have brown hair, and green eyes.
    I enjoy writing songs, painting, movies, and diner food.
    I have two brothers, Chris and Graham,
    and two parents, Paul and Damita.
    In August of two-zero-zero-one, I went crazy...

    This was originally not for public consumption
    This was made for four people...
    four people that literally saved my life
    They know who they are...
    And uh, I mean I could live to be a thousand years old and never repay them.
    I don't think this song would pay for them.
    But hopefully by putting it out,
    it'll push the thank you a little further...

    This ain't a burner for the whips. (No, it isn't)
    This ain't even Aesop Rock fly earthworm demeanor. (No, it isn't)
    My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz, and I was born in Long Island, New York, seventy-six,
    before Graham and after Chris... OK.

    In August of two thousand and one, my seemingly splinter-proof brainbone scaffolding imploded.
    I kept it on the hush, but nearly tumbling
    to the cold hard concrete on mere bodega trips
    for cigarettes and soda, shook me to Casper.
    Dizzy with an argent chaser, motor sensory eraser,
    agoraphobe tunnel vision, guilt, self-loathing arrangement
    rose rapidly out of a bog I'd never fished in.
    That abates three separate foreign meds
    while I've used the hook, line, and sinker simple fission.
    Simple primitive, self taught easing of soul, mind and body,
    but the symptoms rejected my caveman Modus Operandi.
    So now it's one fish, belly up, through medicated mileage.
    And shrinks that get $250 an hour for awkward silence.
    And, I'd be lying if I said all of this
    made even the slightest fragment of sense to me.
    That's real... Simply put
    I don't know what happened, or what's still happening.
    I literally feel like I'm teetering on the blunt edge of my sanity.

    JAMIE, I killed the robots and I'm sorry.
    Broke down in front of you. Embarrassed,
    but you lent a heart and hand that only you could.
    You're one of my best friends and, yes, I'd take that bullet for you.
    That's my word, which is about all I have left.

    TONY, I know you think I'm crazy, 'cause you told me.
    but that didn't ever bother you.
    I hold you as my brother 'til death,
    and I got your back if ever the drunk goblins step,
    for makin' a cat laugh, when I was walking with the dead.

    KATHERINE, mother figure, older sister. Concerned beyond limits,
    letting me know I wasn't the only one with this.
    Continuous offers for vacation, Chicago visits.
    Talked me through repair of a head full of broken pistons.

    RIYAH, for the late night movie rentals and the company I needed.
    An' you knew it, but I just wouldn't admit it.
    You'd listen to me blab about my issues for hours,
    offer incredible advice, gave me a hug when I was finished.

    Am I a jack of all trades? Nope... I like to write songs, though.
    Are they good? I dunno...
    But I could tell you that I only write shit down when I believe it.
    So take this how you want, but know I mean it.
    I want you all to know that I'm scared out my f..ckin' crooked soul,
    never faced a monster like the last few months ever in my whole life...
    I wish I could explain this better, (I can't)
    but the pieces won't formulate it to anything even close to cohesive.
    So I guess this is my feeble way to thank you.
    Four soldiers that extended something sacred off the purity of kindness.
    I owe you all my life and please don't argue with that statement.
    'Cause without y'all I may not have a life to offer, take it.

    Thank you.

    I wish I could explain this better. (Thank you)
    I'm sorry for burdening your pleasures. (Thank you)
    I love you all with all that's left of me. (Thank you)
    For helping try to kill what made a mess of me. (Thank you)
    Somehow, someway. (Thank you)
    I'ma get you back someday. (Thank you)
    Just gotta figure this all out... So...

    I guess it is kind of funny when you look at it from a step back
    how one man can literally buckle under the same pressures
    other men operate normally under.
    I have scoped this out from all angles, multiple times.
    I have been over everything in my head, 'til I can't think anymore.
    But I guess sometimes, when you can't breathe, there are people there
    to breathe for you.
    I am lucky enough to have those people around me.
    Thank you for helping me to not die.
    Thank you for helping me to not die.

    Pocket full of pennies, and a soul gone tilt.
    Cockpit full of memories and a dream full of guilt.

    (I dunno if these are 100%, I just really like when the lyrics are in the comments so I can follow along and I couldn't find em on here...)

  13. Scared Folks

    #BellLetsTalk

  14. tye

    It do be like that sometimes.

  15. Scared Folks

    Like a bunch of other people said, Aesop, Thanks for letting me not die...

  16. iraplikeyoubreathe

    August 01 must have been a damned hard time to have a mental crisis in New York, one month later the world did change so fast Must have made it so hard to watch 9/11 during a breakdown.

  17. Graham Ellis Jaeger

    "I wish I could explain this better, but the pieces won't formulate into anything even close to cohesive".. I mean, come on... That's Aesop summed up in one line!

  18. Tinris Jawawookie

    2018 thank you so much.

  19. James Moore

    I am so incredibly grateful for this song..

  20. Daniel Mulholland

    Thank you for helping me to not die.

  21. John Jones

    Im not sure how I should feel. Pocket full of pennies for plane tickets and memories and guilt too... le fucking sigh

  22. Ed Ward

    Thank you, Ian.

  23. Trust The Shooters

    Thank you Aesop and the comment section. We aren't alone, we are the ones out of the social coma. We just are in touch with are emotions. And yes this song makes me cry too.

  24. Nathan Marsh

    "Jamie I killed the robots and I'm sorry. I broke down in front of you." I'd love to see Aes and El make music together again one day.

    Mitchell Larson

    Fuck! I imagine it. I live vicariously through them, since I was a little person!

  25. riffquantum

    Wow, to go through this while living in NYC, then a month later 9/11 happens and the world changes forever. A serious transformation for an individual.

  26. Connor Ollive

    this song hits too hard

  27. ThrashRaptor

    I recently helped my best friend of 8+ years when he OD'd. I was part of the group of people who saved his life. He gave me a thank you card and it was very heartfelt, and... even though I never told him this was my favorite Aes song... he wrote at the very end:

    "PS Thank you for helping me not die."

  28. Life.Sucks.Die.

    I literally feel like I'm teetering on the blunt edge of my sanity

  29. Extremely Inept

    Also: the comments on Aes Rock (and Eyedea) tracks are the best. You guys are all most awesome kinds of people. <3

  30. MrEpic7203

    Thank you, Aesop.

  31. Aaron Eisenberg

    I don't exactly like crying, but I'll cry every time I listen to this

  32. Bjornar Nystrom

    my guess is aesop is an HSP - it'd go a long way to explaining his insane lyrical abilities and his nervous breakdown. He's got a mind that soaks up the world without filtering anything out, enabling him to draw on an immense pool of internal data when crafting songs and metaphors... Only problem is occasional system overload. Just hypothesizing.

    Carbfiend Jack

    +Matthew C. Thompson It makes sense that you get put in mental hospitals considering you tell strangers to shut the fuck up for no reason

    Carbfiend Jack

    *"Well, you're listening to a man who's primary goal as a rapper is to tell everyone to, ' shut the fuck up."*

    That's both wrong and incredibly retarded

    *"In fact he mentions it in one of his songs"*

    Just because he says "shut the fuck up" in a couple of his songs doesn't mean it's his fucking mission statement as an artist

    Rebeccah Hill

    Been having a System overload crisis since 21. Critical failures intensify every year and the past two years have spiraled out of control. I keep thinking 'ok i don't have much more left to lose' and life finds a way to take more from me in New creative ways.

    I've been listening to this song over 14 years and today. Today i needed this one. It may not help me in the end but at least today mattered.

    Thank you Aes

    Bobbles Wubwobbles

    Rebeccah Hill hope it’s still helping. It just did so much for me that nothing has been able to in so long

  33. Cameron Aiken

    Thank you for this Aesop. We all need this song at one time or another.

  34. Honey Bee Highs

    This song has helped me so much. Thank you.

  35. Elaina Chesnut

    holy damn- amazing

  36. I-Love-CO Mountains

    WOOO shout out to '92, OP!! :D

  37. Renzo

    This song made me realize my friends are shit and I'm better off alone.

    TC TC

    +I Am Jacks Username Wrong.

    Honey Bee Highs

    You gotta learn how to befriend yourself before you'll attract the friends you need. We're all just different cells of the same organism.

    Darby Tempest

    We're born alone and we die alone. Shouldn't waste our time living alone as well. Enjoy company while you're alive. It's the only time you can.
    Peace, brother.

    Tyler Bailey

    Frenemies

  38. Da Pharoah

    I can even remember having symptoms even as a child (all was dismissed as immaturity till I got older) at about 4 my friends and I were all vaccinated at a girls house. like I remember the "nurse" drawing the bottle and bangin it in our arms all with the same needle........ what ever they gave us we all got sick as adults we were all different ages so it was kinda weird that we got the "vaccine" on the same day...... but the reality I live in now is very very painful...... mental health..... I have not been in hospital for like 10 years but it would be interesting to know how the others did.....
    THE PHAROAH

  39. Eric Donnelly

    This song saved my life and continues to. Aes u the truest man. I too am lucky enough to have incredible friends and family around me that breathed for me when I couldn't or didn't think it was worth it. I know now that it is. I survived long enough to find love and some measure of peace at least at times which a few years ago seemed like more than I could've ever hoped for. Thank you Aes everyone in my life that's been there for me even if your not here now. To everyone who's struggling keep fighting it's worth it. There are good people and good things in this world you just have to open your eyes to see them. Peace and love to all keeep on don't stop.

    Henry K

    Thank you

  40. Worthmills music

    This is me. I was playing this when it first came out. I still have the cd. Its now 2015 and it all still relates to my life. Im also the crazies

  41. wanderlustwarrior

    A few weeks ago I had the chance to thank Aes in person for One of Four and Gopher Guts. I'll say it again.

    Thank you.

    Gabrielle Fox

    those are my two most relatable aesop songs.

    wanderlustwarrior

    At a show earlier this year, I thanked him for those same two songs again. Only this time, there was someone else within earshot who felt the same. Aes asked for a picture with both of us.

    I really appreciate the fact that even when we feel low on our own, sometimes we can see that we're all somehow in this, on this planet, together.

  42. Jason Roggasch

    **THANK YOU ELP***

    Life.Sucks.Die.

    I'm sorry...

  43. 2wheelLove

    i was this person for my uncle...and i guess it wasn't enough. 27 years old...he was 5 years older than me and the closest thing i had to a brother. this song hits me in a profound way to this day, especially bc we used to jam out to Aesop together every time we chilled. Aesop was one of my uncles biggest inspirations in life...and my uncle was one of my biggest inspirations. Thank you for your music Aesop...your music will always mean so much to me.

    Third Eye Genesis

    +2wheelLove Damn...

    Marsel Music

    This is a wonderful comment

  44. TAKYON

    I cannot listen to this song without bawling my eyes out.

    Corey Oliver

    You're in good company. 

    Aloha SnackBar

    Same here brother. Realist shit i have ever heard.

    Jacob B

    Still gets me.

    Life.Sucks.Die.

    no song consistently make's me cry except this one.

    Isaac Robinson

    Fucking same.

  45. CallousSarcasm

    Dear Aesop Rock (Ian Matthias Bavitz) thank you for helping others, including myself, to not die.

  46. Sean Hamshar

    I am alive because of this song.

    stones918

    a bit dramatic but yes, this song is awesome

    Extremely Inept

    Sean Hamshar went through serious mental health issues a couple of years back/still am. Wouldn't be here if it wasn't for Eyedea and Aes, never heard this til today but it makes sense that the depth of my connection to his lyrics is actually a connection to a mutual frame of mind.

    There is no greater lyricist.

    Sean Hamshar

    I was 23. It was the darkest time I had ever seen. I wanted to do some bad stuff to myself. I really knew what weight felt like those days. My ex, my brother, my sister, and breathing kept me from making so really poor choices. I had this song on repeat feeling like I couldn't explain how I felt any better. I made it through that year. I had a child, I started my life. Knowing I could make it through that time in my life, I say this with conviction, I can make it through anything.

  47. Rahlin Rigsby

    This song changed my life. It opened my eyes to who my real friends are and others that are just dickheads.i think i cried the first time i ever heard it because ace is just pouring his fucking heart out. This song has the most emotion out of any song ive ever heard.this is beautiful ART.

    ill Drumatik

    Then you've never heard of Biggies Suicidal thoughts

  48. Jack Burke

    It is. Def Jux was doing a tour to promote Labor Days called, "Who Killed the Robots?" and because of his personal struggles, they had to do the tour without Aesop.

  49. can2ej6

    damn its like aes version of "walk like thunder"

  50. James Moorhead

    Ohhhhhhhh thanks

  51. Femka

    Um "el-p" the rapper producer def jux leader at the time first name is jaime ...

  52. Femka

    You know as many times as I've listened to this song this is the first time it dawned on me that Jaime is prob el-p lol

  53. Flappypantsful

    You don't know if you have those kinds of friends till you really go to hell. That level of determination to pull a friend free from the abyss doesn't show till that terrifying beast opens its ghastly maw. In the face of that which is truly ugly even the most seemingly mundane of people turn into all that is redeeming about humanity.

  54. iraplikeyoubreathe

    He had a breakdown in New York a month before 9/11 happened. Damn.

    That Guy

    Weirdly enough he went out to a drugstore to buy anti-depressants for the first time on 9/11 I think.
    I remember he mentioned it when he was interviewed by Open Mike Eagle.

  55. TheMcarruizo

    No regretful pun intended

  56. TheMcarruizo

    H O L Y C R A P....that was a damn good song. I felt that shit in my chest.

  57. Daniel Garcia

    imagine if this song was really hidden? thats something id expect from aesop rock

  58. Matthew Hanson

    only Daylight, Nightlight and Nickel Plated Pockets are on the 12"

  59. Matt

    I never knew Steve Brule was this deep. But in all seriousness, great song

  60. 420Harlequin

    im there with out the friends,all i got is this song so i know im not on my own

  61. iraplikeyoubreathe

    August 2001 was a hell of a time to have a mental break, one month later in his town New York something was about to change the definition of insane, shit it was insane times for sure

  62. tom watson

    :) you gotta lose your mind before you find it. and when you finally find it you'll find out you never lost it at all!!! you know how the song goes.. souls flow

  63. boywhogames

    This song is about him having a mental breakdown and how four of his freinds helped him get through it.

  64. N 8

    I'm sorry for burdening your pleasures

  65. Bloodcider

    Oh man, his young voice is so different.

  66. Tobias Meier

    Be that kind of friend.

  67. Ghost Dog

    this is well hidden

  68. MediumMatt

    aes rock forever. Stay up, Ian!

  69. grimmjaw26

    One word; EARGASM nuff said -_-

  70. Claytron830000000000

    you got it man, this song hits me every time i feel like hearing it....

  71. Zak G

    for some reason the fact that he says "shook me to Casper" instead of "scared me to death" always sticks out to me. LOVE that line

  72. convincinglies1

    slug of atmosphere. fuck man all the Rhymesayers are golden

  73. HArryhood421

    more like flying lotus..

  74. Kevin

    "Am I a Jack of all trades, nope..I like to write songs though are they good I don't know but i can tell you I only write shit down when I believe it, so take this how you want but know I mean it."

  75. WestCoastLegendz32

    Who ever dislikes this probably Dick rides drake lil Wayne and every other bullshit commercial radio puts out

  76. K K

    I would like to thank these four people, for saving the life of such an amazing MC. New favorite song by him.

  77. Mai Thomas

    who the fuck is disliking this?

  78. Thizzy420

    lol, hit a nerve did I? I enjoy all types of music, too bad your world is so small. Now all future rebuttlas will be drowned out by this song.

  79. Dustin B

    haven't heard this song in years! this was my favorite because it was hidden and I felt special when I found it.

  80. Garbanzo Esperante

    I can relate.

  81. William G

    "my seemingly splinterproof brain bone scaffolding imploded" - brilliant. Just brilliant.

  82. Kelley Parker

    EVERYBODY STFU AND LISTEN TO THIS FUCKING GREAT AND TOUCHING SONG. I AM TOUCHED IAN.

    Davide Tor

    Yo Kiki, I hope u chilled down meanwhile! :')

  83. Thizzy420

    Looks like you never heard of the word called "Variety".

  84. SnailBeats staeblianS

    tony is block head and jaime is el-p

  85. Rose

    @ReinventionOfFire Chin to the sky my brother! solidarity.

  86. Julius Spin

    @ljh2000
    Online

  87. ljh2000

    @juliusspin Wow! You asked him for advice in person? Or were you able to find him online?

  88. Nick Bryant

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  89. Liam

    @ReinventionOfFire keep walking like a man, ive been trying but its slowly breaking me. hopefully youll pull out of it, i wish you all the luck

  90. Ma H

    Love this song <3
    It means so much to me

  91. Deathsigh _

    Ive been relating to this lately. My psyche is all fucked up, I'm still walking like a man though!

  92. Julius Spin

    This story is the same as my life was and still is... I asked Aesop for advice and he actually gave it. I cannot name a artist that is as real as he is.
    Might you ever read this Aesop: Thank you.
    Peace from the Netherlands
    [email protected]

  93. PiosonJ

    @shortmansrq no there was never an issue, but im see your trying to create one

  94. PiosonJ

    @shortmansrq a year later and your still defending that comment. that sucks haha

  95. Steve Brule

    So I "liked" the page for Ian Matthias Bavitz on Facebook. It automatically assigned him to my political views. I'm so okay with that. This man is a visionary and he's keeping the real message of hip-hop alive. This is absolutely golden. I love the documentation of his mental break down and this is his song for the people that helped him. You and I do not know these people yet it's so easy to connect to. This is what music needs to be. Aesop Rock forever.

  96. supahscopezz

    My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz
    I was born in 1-9-7-6, at Syosset
    hospital, located in Long Island, NY
    I am 6 foot, for I weigh 2-0-0 pounds
    I have brown hair and green eyes
    I enjoy writing songs, painting, movies and diner food
    I have two brothers, Chris and Graham
    and two parents, Paul and Jameija
    In august of 2-0-0-1 I went crazy..

  97. Alex Webb

    Anything could be conquered with the message of this song. Truth.

  98. realelite9

    @GeneralLeeObvious i feel ya