Adam Calhoun - Dying Lyrics
Oh I think I'm dying
I will [?]
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying
I'm gonna keep it real, whatcha know about takin' pills
Poppin' these xan-, panic attacks
Losin' my mind, feel like I'm dyin', ha
I can't believe what I'm sayin'
You thinkin' I'm playin', I'm diggin' my grave right now
I'm crazy, you'd probably kill yourself
If you knew the shit that I was thinkin' about, ha ha
How can I breathe, cuttin' my sleeve
I'm watchin' it bleed
Maybe that will take the pain away
You talkin' to me?
Just let me be, I need some sleep
Why you think I cut so deep?
You'll never see what's underneath
Please I need some peace
I'm gonna keep it real, I'm gonna speak how I feel
When I'm drivin' feel like swearvin' the wheel
Right and a left, you think that I'm playin'
I'm treatin' every song, I'm writtin' my will, yeah
This one right here's for everyone out there that's like me battle depression
Been to hell and back and I can tell that I go back and just can't learn my lesson
Coutin' my blessin's but suck at the math
So every blessin' I keep cuttin' in half
So all of my problems keep addin' up
While my solutions keep cuttin' in half, yeah, yeah, yeah
Know that they hate me, they say that they love me
Don't call me crazy but I need the company
So fuck with me though, yeah
Oh I think I'm dying
I will [?]
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying
I'm gonna keep it a mil, last year I made a million
Still it ain't change how I feel
Still fuckin' with the same bottle of pills
Went from my brothers basement to a house with no payments
And dealin' with fuckers that I wanna kill
I gotta chill, I don't know how
I wish you could feel, what I'm talkin' about
I'm all by myself, talkin' out loud
No one can help, I feel like I'm drowin', ha ha
Shit is so cold, I'm losin' control
I'm losin' my soul, but I know I never sold it, no
Devil must have stole it, yeah
And that motherfucker is gonna have to deal with me
If I go to hell I'm takin' over
I'm gonna keep it a secret, I ain't gon' tell nobody about these thoughts that are creepin' into my mind
So you think that I'm fine
You think I'm cryin' wolf when I say that I'm dyin', ah
I ain't gon' tell nobody that I'm scared of keepin' guns in the house
I ain't gon' tell nobody that I actually put guns in my mouth
Fuck you know about
Russian roulette with a loaded gun
Handle of vodka and still ain't drunk
I cannot tell nobody that I'm suicidal, no I just keep it bottled up
Bottle of pills are the [?] razor play, [?]
Cross my heart hope to die, jump in [?]
No I'm not fuckin' playin', [?]
Thinkin' it's just a game 'til I blow out my fuckin' brains
Oh I think I'm dying
I will [?]
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying
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Adam Calhoun Dying Comments
This song is so true I’m 15 and deal with this shit but all I can do is push it behind me and push forward.
Dealing with the same shit. Keep keeping it real adam and ryan support you guys to the fullest!
I just love u man. U talk about shit so many of us deal with. I get called crazy all the time. I just just smile and laugh as I think...if u only fuckin knew. #Respect bro
Dear LOURDES!! Everything you mention has made me feel I am not crazy nor alone with this state of mind.I am the same non one gets it no one understands which makes you feel even more crazy!! It's a fucked up place too be when the ones who LOVE you can't even listen or try to understand a thing you have to say..it aint even 10% of the shit that goes on 24/7 in my head, I can't even get any relief of what inside of my head cause my head hits the pillow here it comes again but in another place dimension not even sure what it really is only thing I know when I wake up I feel like I need to sleep again just to get a break from this bullshit that makes me crazy on a daily inside my head. Whhoaa!! THANK YOU THANK YOU! For this! I am crying tears that have needed to even shredded a long time ago!💙💥✌🙌👍💓
AMHI class member fuck you 100%
🔥🔥🔥
@Adam Calhoun Bro I think the same exact way it is so fucking hard to not snap. I have been in your shoes when it comes to the Xan's and I know the struggle is real my dude. Thank you for showing strength. White men have a bad image cuz everyone in Hollywood is soft as a feather. Dude your music goes hard as fuck. Well done! I'm pushing your music to all corners of the Earth.
Swear it's like y'all are in my head!!!
Lost my Dad almost a year ago (December 15th 2018) and my baby girl is 3 years old and she's the only one who makes this life worth living anymore other than Upchurch, Adam and Demun! Y'all keep me strong so thank you!!!
Come to Columbus and spit that shit bro.
Wow, that last verse from Mesus.
I had to sit and think for minute. I mean, I'm not suicidal...at all, but I felt the pain in that verse. And why does Mesus have less than 200 subscribers on his channel?
Adam...... don't do anything stupid....I look up to you and church............. I've never met you but if I did I'd give you the biggest hug I've given
I could honestly die to this song. Truly beautiful peace of work.
This song hits so close to my soul...
People dislikes this video they no nothing hearing good music.
Whats sad is we have kids with the same thoughts. I'm medicated for mine and they dont seem to be working. I cant explain how many tears i've fought. Ive told my dad what i've been thinking and the thoughts i've had daily and all he could manage to say is "So do I" man, Made me cry. I'm almost 16 and scared as hell to get behind the wheel. Maybe I can stop all the pain I feel. I dont wanna think this way. Hopefully it'll all go away some day. Adams' over here spitting some bars, I'm over here regretting giving myself scars. Aight. I tried to turn that into some bars but it didnt work. But everything I said is true. Thank you Adam and if you read this show it to Upchurch too because both of y'all help me out of that dark place when my meds cant. Upchurch being honest and funny as hell as well as having FIRE bars and you, Adam, For being the realest, most genuine person that isnt afraid to touch on subject like this one and speak your mind. Restores my hope in humanity having y'all here. Love you skins.
I know cuz
Love my CWB's💯🤙🙏🏼💙
Not too often in life you happen upon a genius with a purpose and messages to spread.
I don't think you realise just how crucial your music is right now.
Racism was a masterpiece with a message.
I was listening to 'Dying' and I totally understand depression but I'm too strong a person to allow it to beat me. It gets to me, won't ever bury me and will never be my undoing...
Keep up the pure genius Adam 👍
This is so hard to watch because it’s so real.
Thank you for speaking y’all’s truth.
It’s truth for so many of us... exactly how you both worded it.
This song is Dope ASF
I'm going through chemo after having surgery from cancer. I was a little fucked up with depression before that with abuse from childhood, then just life in general. This chemo is the worste shit I've gone through so far with the depression the anxiety the pain some days it actually feels like I'm dying bc the I am the chemo kills all the good in me but my soul and it's in a fight for its life so this song means everything to me
What a message....Holy Sheep Shit Batman...Ty Adam for being real....I dig the collaboration with Mesus....fire
My boyfriend deals with anxiety and depression. Thank you for giving me a glimpse of what he's dealing with. I shared this with him and he said this is pretty much what he deals with. He says his faith in the Lord gives him the strength not to give up. Adam thank you very much for being open about this.
I'm 43 and have thought this way most of my life, I've tried to end it a couple times but still here, for some reason? I fight off the thoughts everyday, but I keep pushing forward
Real shit saves lives
I keep it bottled up daily iv put many guns to my head but the thing is I don't wanna die I just wanna kill the part that makes me this way
🔥🔥🔥🔥
It’s crazy on how deep this shit hit
This is beyond 🔥 🔥, sheesh
Shouldn't be to hard to die to your self and live for Him instead of yourself, considering your words here. No one reigns in Hell, that's a myth. Its apparent to you now that life in this world isn't worth much. Serve God here in the ongoing battle and receive an inheritance rather than judgement at the end. We aren't here to enjoy this evil world.
Watts this about???... I'm an alcoholic, so, is there a meaningful meaning for me???? Right now, I'm bout to walk miles just too buy a shot....and I don't want to............ but I MUST!!!!!!.... and it's 10pm.....
This is just about the shit I hear in my head. Thanks guys for having a voice for the silent few. It helps.
Not only can niggas do it......hahahahahahahahahah....... fick , fuck, duck, suck.... I'm not playing, so wT the fuck??????? This is the shit......shizzzzznit....
damn! This is tight!
This song speaks to me so much!! I've struggled with these thoughts and feelings for 19 years. I don't even know where to start to change any of it. 2 people are the only reason I'm still here.
True story.
This song speaks volumes to my soul but instead of in front of trains I am the train always pushing forward
It’s like he’s singing this FOR me! Thank you for making me feel like I’m not the only one living like this!!!
Damn I love this jam
We all be here...!,🇺🇸
To real this is the fifth time watching in a row my heart hurt listening to it cuz this is my thoughts 100%
If you're speaking of suicide, it isn't worth wasting the time and effort you've invested in your life not to mention the ones who rasied you....My little brother commited suicide a few months ago he was a month away from turning 22.
There are more people that care about you then you may think. Keep your head up bro. Don't let life's ups and downs get to you, everything passes in time.
Adam, I think you must be one of the very bravest of men, to put such raw feelings out there. To let people see the aren't the only ones who feel this way. Thank you and God bless.
Thank you for speaking the truth and good bars!!!!
No need for me to keep it a secret....nobody's listening anyway.
#bobokirby ha
.......what?
⛓🤯🤬😵⚔️⛓‼️💯🤟🏻 Get it out brother ‼️‼️🤟🏻
This shit has helped me with my depression my family dosent believe in mental illness so I went to music for help
If he ever committed suicide,or just out of the blue stopped writing the only thing I live for now(his phenomenal music) then I would commit suicide. His music is the only reason I'm alive...and I'm 12,already having a really hard life. Thank you Adam,for everything you have done for me. You may not realize it,but I idolize you.
Dope to death 💀
This hit home brother. So many days I have to quiet the beasts inside my mind. Meds don't help, so I run until they're to tired to scream anymore. I tried suicide once, but by grace I'm still alive. Thank you for this song. I remember I'm not alone.
Me all the time
The hardest part about life is the living part. Cause When you have been to the other side, Like me, and realize how peaceful it is. true inner strength comes when you know how much easier death is but stay here anyway. Thanks Adam. Would love to whip up a track with ya.. Just peep my channel.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ADAM🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
Shit gets me pumped up. Fucking 🔥
yo after all the shit the pills and worse this song helps me get through more than be myself! i have to say i have love for u brother and even though things are better now id still die for all that are hurting as i would die for my country! thank u for helping me push through!
Your killing it big man. Keep working,passing everyone like their standing still. Katie,church and you leading the way breaking down doors!!
Thanks man.
Yeah a lot in common with this man
Damn this dude speaks to me. Going through it man. Hope you find some form of peace knowing that music people like you and Church make gets me through it. Theres some others out doing some respectful shit too, but you two man, sheeew that music helps man. I dont fucking know if y'all read all these but needed to say thanks.
That's awesome. A little horror core goes a long way for a white rapper. And it's the shit! Y'all are fucking great!! Mad love from Louisville!
What a cry baby.
Adam, bro, what a deep message. From one vet to another I have felt every single scenario of the words spit in this song. Man good on you bro. Love your channel and what you as a person, parent, American and a man stand for!
Relate majorly.
💕 Thank you.
Chuckie B and Adam Calhone sounds like you two grew up where i did. In the Square 😉good shit keep em coming
Fucn 🔥
This is the Best! I feel it Right now! Needed Music like this.
I don't except anyone to care. But it feels nice to to write it out. I don't care anymore. My soul has been eatened away.
That's deep bro !
Church and Calhoun are unstoppable. My two favorites.
Oh I think I'm dying
All the monsters are all out
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying
[Verse 1: Adam Calhoun]
I'm gonna keep it real, whatcha know about takin' pills
Poppin' these xan's, panic attacks
Losin' my mind, feel like I'm dyin', ha
I can't believe what I'm sayin'
You thinkin' I'm playin', I'm diggin' my grave right now
I'm crazy, you'd probably kill yourself
If you knew the shit that I was thinkin' about, ha ha
How can I breathe, cuttin' my sleeve
I'm watchin' it bleed
Maybe that will take the pain away
No more rainy days
You talkin' to me?
Just let me be, I need some sleep
Why you think I cut so deep?
You'll never see what's underneath
Please I need some peace
(Oh I think I'm dying)
[Verse 2: Mesus]
I'm gonna keep it real, I'm gonna speak how I feel
When I'm drivin' feel like swervin' the wheel
Right and a left, you think that I'm playin'
I'm treatin' every song, I'm writtin' my will, yeah
This one right here's for everyone out there that's like me battle depression
Been to hell and back and I can tell that I go back and just can't learn my lesson, yeah
Coutin' my blessin's but suck at the math
So every blessin' I keep cuttin' in half
So all of my problem keep addin' up
While my solutions keep cuttin' in half, yeah, yeah, yeah
Know that they hate me, they say that they love me
Don't call me crazy but I need the company
So fuck with me though, yeah
[Chorus]
Oh I think I'm dying
All the monsters are all out
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying
[Verse 3: Adam Calhoun]
I'm gonna keep it a mil, last year I made a million
Still it ain't change how I feel
Still fuckin' with the same bottle of pills
Went from my brother's basement to a house with no payments
And dealin' with fuckers that I wanna kill
I gotta chill, I don't know how
I wish you could feel, what I'm talkin' about
I'm all by myself, talkin' out loud
No one can help, I feel like I'm drowin', ha ha
Shit is so cold, I'm losin' control
I'm losin' my soul, but I know I never sold it, no
Devil must have stole it, yeah
And that motherfucker is gonna have to deal with me
If I go to hell I'm takin' over
(Oh I think I'm dying)
[Verse 4: Mesus]
I'm gonna keep it a secret, I ain't gon' tell nobody about these thoughts that are creepin' into my mind
So you think that I'm fine
You think that I’m lyin' and I’m cryin' out wolf when I say that I’m dyin, ah
I ain't gon' tell nobody that I'm scared of keepin' guns in the house
I ain't gon' tell nobody that I actually put guns in my mouth
Fuck you know about
Russian roulette with a loaded gun
Handle of vodka and still ain't drunk
I cannot tell nobody that I'm suicidal, no I just keep it bottled up
Bottle of pills are the heal of pain razor play, cross my veins
Cross my heart hope to die, jump in front of trains
No I’m not fuckin' playin', snortin a bunch of caine
Thinkin' it's just a game 'til I blow out my fuckin' brains
[Chorus]
Oh I think I'm dying
All the monsters are all out
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying
They're thinking im playing..... But there are ghosts that are visiting me..... But i need the company
Handful of vodka and i aint even drunk....this is my night tonight. 3 pints of JD and nothing..i shouldn't be able to type right now.
Adam thank you for making this it really has helped me to release my demons I have battled depression since I was 12yrs old, both of my parents abandoned for drugs, you inspire me, because you dont lay around feeling sorry for yourself, and I took a stand now my grandma is getting me a councilor.
Damn this is good 💓💓❤️❤️
I think I speak for everyone, that deals with Mental Illnesses, that this song is on point! Ppl who don't deal with Mental Illness have NO CLUE what it's like to struggle with the ill thoughts of the mind. I'm 35 and just recently started dealing with depression, after movin from TN to IL. The winters fuck with me so bad! Depression runs in my mothers blood line, so I watched her suffer on and off with it growing up. Struggling to keep her head above water, raising 3 kids on her own! I have so MUCH respect for her and what she gave up to make things work for us as a family bc her own mother gave her and two siblings to someone else to raise . So the way I see it is that she could have continued tht cycle when her and my father divorced when I was 5. She had 2 kids and was pregnant with their third, all by the age of 20 yrs old. When she would have her boughts of Depression, I remember tellin myself tht I'd never be like that. Well I'm eattin those words! Lol! All we can do is remember that it might take us down for a min but it will NEVER keep us down! And that we are NEVER ALONE! So many folks suffer from depression and other mental illnesses and there is ALWAYS someone willing to listen and help. My Great Auntie, my Mom's Aunt, killed her self from depression as well, after tking Prozac, so this topic ways heavy on my soul. If anyone that's reading this needs someone willing to listen, just give me a shout and I will respond. We all are ONE with this earth so we need to be there for our own! Much 💜 to you, Adam & Mesus, for bringin this subject out to shine more light on it. I seen y'alls preformance in Madison, last week and 💗 it! Will definitely come to another show!
Gave me goosebumps just found your channel. Dope shit 🔥🔥
When ever my family tells me it isnt that bad I want to throw this song at them.
❤️💉🕯💉❤️👯♀️❤️💉🕯💉❤️
Its helps me thanx brother
I appreciate you and mesus bc I'm fucked in the head myself iv listens to a few of y'all's songs and I feel y'all really know how it is dealing with shit and I have trouble saying what I'm going through bt y'all nail so much shit it's crazy shits better than therapy bc I don't waste my time with that I don't talk to just anyone not sure why I'm even posting this publicly
This is the realest shit ever! Everyone has their own demons to battle! You knocked it outta the park with this one!
Thank you YOU'RE MY HERO
Adam Calhoun I really love your music it speaks to me in a lot of different ways you keep shit real bro I only been listening to your music a little over a month I'm really glad I found it keep it up bro you're doing one hell of a job
Fire as fuck y'all
💯🔥🔥🔥🔥
WORD!!! ive been addicted to xanax for the past 20 years, used to have, hell used to be the plug on that but for the 1st time i actually havent touched them in a year... when you have a thousand sticks counted out on the coffee table every week you can eat as many as you want...but i walked away from em cause they make me do dumb shit and i wanna eat too many. also 3 and a half years on opiate dependancy treatment... and all is well...finally...most tha time anyway. so yeah i feel these words!!! dope song for sure
Love this one dog keep keeping it real and 100% american
...........
Keeping it real big dog. ❤
This song really hits near to me. Once I turned 21 I debated and waited on buying my first pistol. Because I wasn’t sure if I was gonna eat a bullet. Still battle with that. Keep up the great music
These last few months have been nothing but 🔥. Thank you all ADAM, UPCHURCH, CRYPT just to name a few. I fucking love it. Shut these mumble ass no content haven ass mofos the fuck up.
MAINE STAGE!!!!! hey the truth actually saves lives........hmmmmmm imagine that?!!!!!!! thx Adam!
I am the illegitimate leader of the IRA by way of Russian artillery per order of the general a.k.a Me myself and I. Now you have one hour to bring me $700 and five Newport 100 or else....sir💩
Rat poison. Yummy. A thousand ways to die. Can’t wait to go out tomorrow. Tank ye sir, but I prefer menthol street bogies as I harvest the streets of.... where do think I should go tomorrow sir?
Fuck yea this has been on repeat all day keep it up with the good stories
Chad Prather has a round that was sent to him by a Marine who attempted to commit suicide. There's even a dent in the primer. Thankfully, the round malfunctioned. As the mother of a Marine it breaks my heart to hear about this. As the wife of a USAF EOD troop, knowing we lose so many Military personnel to suicide it's hard.
This is an awesome, powerful song Adam. Thank you.
Wind her up boys this ones going viral ☠️💉💉💉💉💉☠️
Damn man this shit is deep.